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As Hinata glanced towards the general direction of Kageyama their eyes once again caught each other's. Hinata quickly looked away, feeling his face turn a bright red, still he quickly stole another peek noticing that Kageyama's face looked almost a bright as Hinata's felt….
Why did this keep happening? Hinata thought to himself, why is Kageyama always staring at me like that? He added it to the growing list of strange things that Kageyama was doing recently.
After a particularly tiring and long-running training session one evening, everyone was exhausted and therefore very quiet in the changing rooms and this silence caused Hinata to think more about how Kageyama was acting lately and why he was being like that.
Now Hinata had a couple of ideas, one being that everyone went out for pork buns without him, and Kageyama felt guilty, or another being that the volleyball team were planning something that Hinata wasn't involved in. But the one idea that he kept coming back to and the one that scared him the most was the idea that Kageyama didn't like him anymore or rather still didn't like him…
It made sense, he knew that he was always getting even the basics wrong and that his always seemed to be the one to serve balls into the back of his head. Kageyama was always shouting at him and man handling him and always wanted to fight, also he even said that he would rather receive toss and spike all by himself than play with Hinata even though that was just their second meeting… It made sense that he hated Hinata even though he was able to hit his crazy fast tosses…
Either way after practice was over he planned to interrogate Kageyama until he had no choice but to tell him why he was acting that way…
Hinata had it all planned out, he would get changed slowly and then wait for everyone else to leave before approaching Kageyama and demanding to be told why he was acting so strangely… Hinata planned that Kageyama would be so taken aback by his sudden change in attitude that he would just tell him everything on his mind…
Well that's what he had planned anyway… however before he had a chance to put his plan into action Kageyama grabbed his bag and hastily exited the changing rooms leaving a bewildered Hinata and everyone else still in there and for some reason this rattled Hinata…
"Um…" Hinata said to everyone else in the changing rooms while quickly removing his shorts and then realising he probably should have kept them on for a while when everyone turned to look at him. "Are you guys planning something without me?"
Everyone just sighed or shrugged at Hinata as he quickly tried to scramble into a pair of trousers before realising that he has put them on backwards…
"I don't know what you're talking about" Daichi replied in a Monotone voice, clearly more preoccupied with tying his shoe laces that talking to Hinata as he tried to fumble his way out of his trousers…
"What about Pork buns?"
Daichi just sighed.
"Ahh, never mind then" Hinata replied while scratching the back of his head and giving one of his cutest grins. And then removing his shirt and getting back to changing… but the thought still didn't leave him.
Well if they weren't planning something and they didn't have pork buns without him then Kageyama must hate him…Maybe if he hurried and got changed he would be able to catch Kageyama up on his bike and still confront him… Hinata's original curiosity had by now changed from wonder to worry… what if Kageyama didn't want to toss for him anymore; what if he did hate Hinata?
This sudden thought wound him up more than it probably should have, his team mate, the only person that gives him tosses that he is able to spike again and again, leaving him? The very thought made him feel sick and he had to dig his hands into his leg just to stop himself from shouting or punching something… it had never occurred to him before but Hinata now felt certain that Kageyama did hate him…
Emotions gripped him and without a second thought or even his shoes or shirt he sprinted out of the changing rooms, across the volleyball court and out of the hall…
He stopped just outside the door looking towards the sky and noticing that it had just started to rain… he started piecing all of the thoughts rumbling around in his head together… Kageyama wasn't tossing for him much anymore, he also hasn't talking to him much and almost seemed to be avoiding Hinata, and yet he was always staring at him and always got embarrassed whenever he got caught… also Kageyama had stopped shouting at him whenever he did anything wrong and even stopped patting his head if he did something right…
"Well then… that's it… Kageyama hates me" thought Hinata out loud… "He hates me and thinks I'm an embarrassment, he can't even look at me let alone touch me or even just talk to me, do I mean that little to him?"
The rain had now started falling steadily and the sky had become dark as the end of the day drew near and the clouds rolled across the sky… Hinata took a step forwards, out of the overhead protection of the roofing, his sock immediately soaking up the rain from the grass… it was cold and uncomfortable but Hinata didn't care… he took another step and another until his was walking at quite a pace. Then he was jogging and finally sprinting as hard as he could down towards the school gate ignoring his bike completely… The rain suddenly erupted into a torrent pouring from the sky, battering his bare chest. Hinata could barely see as he gasped for breath as he ran, either rain or tears cascading down his cheeks. But he kept running ignoring the growing cold numbness of his feet and his orange, normally bouncy hair sticking to his face blurring his vision.
He kept running out the school gates, downhill, along the deserted road until he saw a blurred figure sheltering under a tree but Hinata couldn't stop running although he felt like his lungs were about to explode…
"KAGEYAMA!" he shouted as loud as he could as he drew closer to the person under the tree, still sprinting as hard as his aching legs would let him…
The figure quickly turned to face Hinata, Kageyama eyes darting wide open as he sees Hinata running at full pelt towards him soaking wet wearing only a pair of trousers and sodden socks on his feet…
"What's wrong?" Kageyama shouts back with a sense of urgency in his voice…
"I HATE YOU!" Hinata screams back still sprinting towards him. At this point Hinata realised that he needed to slow down otherwise he would full on rugby tackle the guy that hated him so much…
"What?" Kageyama replies as Hinata tries to stop and slips ploughing into him, brutally knocking them both to the floor… It's all Kageyama can do to wrap one arm around Hinata's bare waist and the other around his head and brace himself to take the full force of the fall on his back making sure that Hinata is safe in his arms…
Kageyama doesn't dare move or let go of Hinata until he's sure that he's ok… He sighs in relief as a numb pain shots down his side and he can't help but grown after having all the air knocked out of his lungs by Hinata…The orange bundle lies still, soaking wet and freezing cold yet at the same time radiating heat… Did he run like that from school? Kageyama thought to himself as he could feel his heart rate increase… out of nervousness for having Hinata nestled in his arms but also out of fear that he might be injured, as he wasn't moving, only breathing heavily.
"Are you alright?" Kageyama asks softly, his voice a little raspy… simply hoping for a response…
"Yeah" Hinata replies wirily while trying to prop himself up before realising that his arms and legs ache too much to even do that… and instead just stays curled up against Kageyama's chest…
"Where are your shoes?" Kageyama questions, hoping that Hinata doesn't notice his pounding heart through only the one layer of cloth that separates the two boy's bare chests from each other…
"At school." a small, muffled voice replies before curling up tighter to Kageyama…
Kageyama can feel himself blushing and his heart rate increasing further but he still embraces Hinata again wrapping his arms around him hoping to warm him up a little… "Why?"
"Because you…" his voice breaks and goes back to breathing heavily, his whole body shaking through cold and exhaustion…
"Never mind!" Kageyama suddenly orders… "We need to get you inside or you're going to get ill!"
Before Hinata could protest Kageyama had swooped him up into him arms, cradling him as close as he could to his body… Hinata could feel his warmth and strong, beating heart and this comforted him… Maybe Kageyama didn't hate him… would you carry someone you hate like a delicate child? Would you worry about them getting ill? Does Kageyama really hate me? All these questions filled Hinata's head as Kageyama started walking. As he moved out from the protection of the tree the rain again battered Hinata. He buried his head into Kageyama's armpit and although still at the mercy of the elements he felt safe in his arms… He could feel his eye lids getting heavier as the sound of Kageyama's footsteps drew him towards sleep…
Hinata was lighter than Kageyama expected and to be honest he was glad, as the walk to his house wasn't exactly short… The pain in his ribs still noticeable and quite strong but he was able to push that to the back of his mind, it was probably only bruised a little anyway. He had planned to take Hinata home to his house before it dawned on him that he actually had no idea where he lived, so it seemed his house was the best option…
He still had so many questions going through his head like: why the HELL Hinata had come running after him like that? Why did he say he hated him? What happened to his shirt? Why were his eyes red and swollen like he had been crying? Does he feel the same way about me as I do him? But he knew that he couldn't ask any of them right now because Hinata was asleep.
Kageyama wanted to hug Hinata even tighter than he already was but instead tried to focus on carrying Hinata to safety… Still his stomach couldn't help but get knotted up and his heart couldn't help but beat faster than ever as he thought about just how cute and peaceful Hinata looked while he slept and how soft his bare skin was and how the droplets of rain bounced off of his perfectly shaped shoulders and ran down his chiselled chest… great! He had been trying his best to avoid Hinata because he knew how he felt and yet here he was closer than ever to the boy that he couldn't help but get worked up over…
As Kageyama arrived at his house Hinata was still sound asleep… he carefully let himself him making sure not to drop Hinata as he fumbled around for the key, or bang his head on the door frame as he entered… by now they were both completely drenched Hinata still shaking a little.
Kageyama slowly lowered Hinata onto the sofa and quickly strode over to the thermostat to turn up the temperature as high as it would go and the light on… although Kageyama was just as soaked as Hinata by this point he decided to tend to Hinata first before himself however he does quickly remove his shirt just so that he can start to dry off a little… He wandered into another room and came back with a couple of pairs of pyjamas and a towel.
He had considered not waking Hinata up and changing him while he slept but he understood how much of a bad idea that was… Instead he slowly knelt down next to the sleeping boy and situating his hands into Hinata's quivering shoulders he slowly started to shake him… "Hinata wake up… I need you to get changed"
Hinata's eyes slowing flickered open and with drowsiness he came into a seated position Kageyama hands still planted on his shoulders… "I'm awake." Hinata voiced through a yawn…
Kageyama quickly grabbed the clothes and placed them on top Hinata's lap… "Are you alright to change by yourself?" Kageyama questioned softly.
"Yeah…" Hinata slowly positioned himself so he was seated on the edge of the couch, his feet planted on the floor with Kageyama still kneeling on the floor next to him. He grabbed the pyjama top and slowing put it behind his back, groaning slightly as he pulled his hands through the sleeves… Without thinking Kageyama stated doing up the buttons at the front and because Hinata didn't have the energy to complain he met no resistance…
Next Hinata started to fumble around his crotch area trying to undo his trousers button to no avail… again Kageyama carefully unfastened the button for him… Hinata just stared at Kageyama unable to find the energy to react…
"Can you do the rest on your own?" Kageyama questioned taking Hinata by surprise… Hinata snapped back into reality and nodded lightly…
"Alright… I'll be in the next room if you need me…" Kageyama collected up his clothes and moved into the next room also presumably to get changed…
As Hinata sat there clumsily removing his trousers and underwear question after question floated around is his head… By now it was crystal clear that Kageyama didn't hate him, but that still didn't explain why he had been acting so strange lately…
Hinata secured the pyjama bottoms around his ankles before standing to pull them up over his waist… He couldn't help but notice that the clothes smelt like roses and vanilla, the sent that is undoubtedly Kageyama's. They were very long and a little too big but still, the satisfaction of having soft, warm, dry clothes around his frozen body matched almost that of hitting one of Kageyama's tosses… Hinata's slumped back down onto the couch resting his head softly onto one of the pillows as Kageyama re-emerged from the room where he had changed, carrying a small towel… Hinata's eye's followed him around the room as he walked over to what seemed to be a medicine cabinet and watched as he rummaged around in it for something… after a while of stretching and rearranging Kageyama closed the cupboard door with a small tube of something in his hand…
Kageyama made his way over to where Hinata was sprawled out across the sofa and sat down on the arm closest to Hinata's head… It took Hinata quite by surprise when Kageyama lifted his shirt and started to rub some of the cream onto one of his upper ribs… Hinata could already see a bruise start to form. 'Perhaps he had knocked himself when I ran into him', Hinata thought to himself as he read Anti-inflammatory in small writing off of the tube…
"So are you going to explain yourself?" Kageyama suddenly asked as he screwed the lid back into the top of the cream tube…
Hinata squints slightly as he remembers how he had dramatically over reacted to Kageyama leaving the gym early without him, and how he had then ran after him idiotically, practically naked! Hinata sighed deeply pushing away the remaining drowsiness… he had considered making up an elaborate lie depicting being mugged or something but in the end just decided to be honest.
"I thought you hated me" Hinata quickly blurted out before he had a chance to change his mind about answering…
Kageyama turned to look at him, his eyes wide and his lips slightly apart and what could only be described as a shocked, concerned face… "Why would you think that?" Kageyama quickly questions back…
"Because…" Hinata considers going through his entire list of reasons why Kageyama would, or even should hate him, but realises just how stupid it sounds and therefore suddenly changes his words… "It's fine I know that it's not true now, it's just…" Hinata was cut off before he was able to finish his sentence…
"So if you thought I hated you… why were you running after me? What exactly did you plan to do after you caught me up? Huh… Punch me? What?" Kageyama replied with a slight giggle.
"I don't know I just…" Hinata whispered, his voice seeming very weak compared to Kageyama almost angry sounding tone…
"Just what? You had to run after me without even thinking… without even putting enough clothes on?" Kageyama was almost shouting now… "Why do you never think about your actions before you do them? Why would you even consider thinking that I hate you? Why do you get so run away with your feelings and not even think to take care of yourself first…hey?" Kageyama had pushed his face close to Hinata's and was now shouting in his face… "What if you had slipped and I wasn't there to catch you and you had cracked your head open on the pavement? What if you then couldn't play volleyball? What then?" By now Kageyama had got so much into Hinata face that the poor boy was almost crying…
Suddenly Hinata snapped and punched Kageyama hard in the stomach… the boy crippled in pain gasping suddenly as Hinata quickly shuffled away from Kageyama "I don't want to play volleyball without you!" Hinata snapped back with tears rolling down his cheeks…
"What do you mean?" Kageyama replied his voice cracking a little as he responded…
Hinata took a deep breath stunting the tears back… "I thought you hated me, it was the only explanation as to why you have been avoiding me… you don't talk to me as much, and you don't want to walk home with me…
"You dumbass…" Kageyama retorted "That's because I can't be alone with you…"
"EXACTLY!" Hinata screamed aiming another punch towards Kageyama head which he quickly deflected with his arm before grabbing both of his wrists so that he can't try it again…
"What do you mean 'exactly'?" fighting Hinata as he tries to struggle out of Kageyama's grip while trying not to look at Kageyama, his eyes again filled with tears…
"Let go of me… Please" Hinata suddenly pleads less with anger and more with fear. Kageyama notices this and immediately loosens his grip on Hinata's wrists… Hinata's curls up on the couch, his arms embracing his knees tight to himself; burying his head into one of the pillows…
Sudden silence fills the room and Kageyama hears Hinata sobbing slightly… Regret fills him… he slowly lowers himself down to sit on the couch at Hinata's feet… He nudges one of Hinata's feet slightly causing him to flinch away… Kageyama takes a deep breath before talking softly
"Look… I'm sorry… I don't hate you… I could never hate you, your my partner remember? Please Hinata, I know that I've been tossing to you less and I know that I'm not talking to you as much or walking home with you but that's because I can't handle it… "
Hinata stirred slightly and the sobbing stopped… Kageyama continued
"When you came running after me… to be honest I was happy… Even where you were screaming about hating me I was happy" as small grin spreads across his face… Hinata's head slowing emerges from the pillow and looks at Kageyama as he continues to talk almost like he's in his own little world…
"To be honest I never hated you… I just hated how I felt about you" Hinata stared wide eyed at Kageyama barely breathing…
Wait Hinata thought to himself… was that a confession?
Hinata's previously very cautious attitude suddenly changed… "So you don't hate me then?" Hinata asked with probably a little too much enthusiasm…
Kageyama suddenly started blushing a little, not making eye contact with Hinata "No…" he mumbled but not too quietly so that Hinata couldn't hear…
"I'm glad, I thought you hated me!" Hinata also smiled a little…
"Is that what this whole thing was about?" Kageyama asked still not looking directly at Hinata
"Yeah…" Hinata nodded slightly and smiled as he rubbed the back of his head a little, his orange locks still a little damp from the rain…
Kageyama acted before he was able to think about what he was doing… He quickly shuffled towards Hinata and pulled him into a tight embrace… Hinata's breath caught in his throat as he was pulled towards Kageyama unable to react but through his own choice didn't try to pull away he just stayed still, his arms by his side… Kageyama was warm and Hinata felt safe in his strong arms while they sat on the couch. He could feel his heart rate increasing and his whole body warming but it didn't feel awkward at all… Hinata felt calm, probably calmer than he had ever felt before… so much so that when Kageyama eventually tried to pull away Hinata wrapped him arms around his back and squeezed him as tight as he could just to make sure that Kageyama didn't let go…
"I'm sorry" Kageyama eventually mumbled as he nestled his head on Hinata's shoulder "I was being selfish… I didn't think about how you felt"
Until now Hinata hadn't really thought about how he felt either but at that moment he knew for certain that he didn't want Kageyama to ever let go of him or ever desert him…
The boys stayed embraced like that for what seemed like forever until Hinata finally spoke again… "Does this mean you love me?" he asked in a light tone... But he didn't get an audible reply as Kageyama had fallen asleep in his arms and was snoring lightly… Only then did Hinata realise just how tired he was too… he lay them both down on the sofa still not letting go of Kageyama and together, entwined within each other they both fell asleep…
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