The angst brigade is back in town. Wrote this on a whim, just started typing. Inspired by a Whose Line? fic called The More Things change. Enjoy (if you can!).
JD's skin is pale.
It won't tan, can't tan
It's pale and it always will be.
Perry's skin isn't as pale.
He knows different ways to do it
He doesn't have to avoid the sun like JD
JD never goes out in summer
He sits inside, jumper swamping his skinny frame
He must be boiling, but he never says a word
Perry never, ever goes out in summer
Too many stares at the man in long shirts and trousers
When the rest of the beach is in shorts.
JD still shudders at the razors
He flinches when his fingers touch a scalpel
His hands shake until he is far away from the blade
Perry still occasionally picks up the knife
He ghosts it across his wrist, but puts it back
His mind tells him he doesn't need it anymore, but his body tells a different story.
When JD left, it was in a hurry
Clothes forgotten, belongings broke
He found himself crying in a hotel room he didn't know
Perry knew JD was going to leave
Everyone left him at some point or other
That didn't stop him crying over JD's scrubs, his t shirt, his cologne
JD tries to avoid the fact it was him that made Perry press the blades to his wrists
He doesn't think about how Perry only started when he left
He pushes that to the back of the mind, with his own scars.
Perry thinks about it constantly, that it was him that drove JD away
He reminds himself that it was him that reduced JD to the crying mess
When he kisses JD, his eyes lock straight to the invisible, but oh so clear marks on his arms
JD's scars don't show unless he tans.
He can't tan, not ever
No one but Perry knows what you'd see if his wrists went brown
Perry's scars are ugly
Twisted, digging into the skin
Red marks of where he lost control and just hoped it to end
JD's arms are pale.
Perry's arms are hidden.
JD's afraid of the light
Perry's just afraid of summer
Both of them flee from the sunshine
Like vampires, praying for shelter
They're just praying for peace.
And all because JD's skin is pale.