To: GGrissom LVPD . con . gov
Wed 11-20-2007
From: SSidle LVPD . con . gov
Gil, it was so good to hear your voice the other night. I was afraid I had fucked things up between us.
Even though I've done this for us, I was afraid I'd ruined us in the process.
If it wasn't for you I would have died out there in the desert. I would have simply given up.
And now I've had to leave because of us.
You were wrong about needing a distraction to keep from burning out. I was so happy in my life with you that I let my guard down and let my demons sneak up on me. Now I must bury those demons once & for all or they will bury me. I'm afraid I have to do that alone.
Please don't call me again for a while. My resolve almost failed when I heard your voice. I need to continue our communications by email for now.
It means so much to me that you are there, but if I hear your voice I'll come running home to you, & that simply won't do.
I miss you terribly & love you more than words can say. Sara.