I'd broken up with him. I still remember that night with crystal clear clarity.
I stood in the doorway of his room, my back against the doorframe. He hadn't
heard me come in. He was lying across his bed, reading Wuthering Heights and listening
to Clair De Lune. I rapped lightly against the open door. His head popped up, and a
brilliant smile lit up his gorgeous face. If he only knew the reason that I was here. I knew
that he loved me with all of his heart, I felt the same way. But Jacob and I, we just had
something more special, more connected than what me and Edward had.
If only I could tell myself what I knew now.
"Bella," he got up off the bed, his green eyes shining with love that I was not deserving
of. I put my hands against his shoulders, not to embrace him but to hold him back.
"Edward, I have to tell you something, something important. You're not going to
like it." His expression dropped.
"Bella? Baby, what's the matter?" I didn't want to have to say it. My mind told
me that I should forget what I came here to say. I should have kissed him harder than I
ever have. But I couldn't. It would break him, but he would get over it and me. "Bella,
you gonna talk to me?" I sucked in a deep breath, I would need it.
"Edward, we need to break up. Now." He looked as if I had punched him in the
gut and knocked the breath out of him. "I didn't want to do this, but I think it's time that
we both need to move on." He turned around to face his window paneled wall. When he
turned around to face me, anger flashed in his eyes, like he was trying to mask pain
behind hate.
"Get. Out." I didn't think he would take it that way. He'd always been a very calm person.
"Edward, are you-"
"Get out of my room. Now!" A single tear fell from my face and hit his cream
colored carpet as I got past the doorframe. As I raced down the two flights of stairs that
led up to his room, I was accosted by Alice.
"Bella, are you okay? I heard you crying and Edward getting mad and something
being thrown against the wall."
"I'm fine, I just broke up with him." She looked like she was about to cry. Did I
have to make everyone cry today?
"Bella, you didn't!" Tears started running down her pale cheeks. Good thing she
always wore water-proof makeup.
"Alice, we weren't going to last forever." She looked up at me, her gray eyes
flashing.
"He told me not to tell you, but he was going to propose to you next week at the
start of winter break." I made a move to turn back up the stairs. When I got halfway up,
she called to me, "Don't expect him to let you anywhere near him." I never ran faster
down the stairs than I did that day. When I got to their drive, I saw Jacob's Volkswagen
parked next to the door.
"Jake, were you here the whole time?" He smiled.
"Yup. I knew that you were gonna break up with him, so I thought , why not
celebrate by showing up early." Tears pricked in my eyes as I looked towards the third
floor of the big white mansion. He was standing there, contempt and sadness mirrored in
his beautiful green eyes. He met my eyes right before I turned away. I could see the one
thing I never wanted to see. Edward Cullen shedding tears over something that I had done.
An: I am a full Edward/Bella supporter, but the Jacob/Bella relationship is important for the rest of the plot. J