Name: I Have Always Loved You
Summary: Set five years after the Season Finale Rory has moved on with her life but nowwhat will happen when her new Job leads her to someone from her past. ROGAN
Rating: K+ may go up to teen
A/N-This is my first GG fic so please review!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls, IF I did Chris and Dean would coincidentally get into a car crash and both die. Luke and Lorelai would be happily married, Rory would have said yes to Logan's proposal but they would hold off their wedding until Logan came back to Connecticut and Rory had established her journalistic career. Also I don't own CSI but I kind of BORROWED a line from it but changed it a little. One more thing I made up all the names of the newspaper people so I'm sorry if its your name!
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Rory sat in a poorly lit room pretending to listen to her and Jess' lawyers explaining to them the divorce papers instead of just handing them over and letting them read for themselves. On one hand Rory was relived, Jess and Rory had tried to make it work for so long but they were fighting constantly and she couldn't wait to get away from that. On the other hand she knew her daughter Lorie (Short for Lorelai) was devastated and confused. She loved both her parents but she didn't understand what was so wrong. She figured everyone's parents fought like that.
"Miss Gilmore?" Her lawyer said as she had drifted off into her thoughts.
"Yes?"
"The papers, it's not official until you sign." Rory hated lawyers and glared at her as she signed the papers.
Jess' signature was already there and Rory was trying to sign her name but kept thinking of Lorie. She finally looked at Jess and that did it, she signed.
"Okay, at Midnight you will be officially divorced. We have already discussed child support, and custody arrangements so anything else?"
Jess gave some grunt for a negative response and Rory politely declined.
They left the lawyers office to see Lorelai sitting with Lorie who was drawing in her Beauty and the Beast coloring book.
Lorelai whispered something into Lorie's ear and walked over to Rory and Jess. "Umm so do you want me to take Lorie to my house so Rory can get her stuff out of the apartment?" Lorelai asked politely.
"I'm okay with that, what about you?" Rory asked Jess
"Yea, that works with me." Jess replied "I'll be by to pick Lorie up at 9:30 tomorrow night after Friday night dinner, will you be at your new place?" He asked trying to hide his hurt; even though they fought he still loved Rory.
"Umm, no I'll be at Mom and Luke's house in the morning." Rory explained because Lorelai invited her over after Friday night dinner to spend the night so she wouldn't be alone.
The custody agreement was that Jess would have Lorie every other weekend. Both parents decided that they wanted to avoid a Christopher situation, meaning that Jess and Lorie would have a good relationship no matter Rory and Jess'.
"Okay, I'll see you both then." Jess said looking at Lorelai but avoiding Rory's eyes. They said their goodbyes and Jess went over to say goodbye to Lorie.
"Daddy!" Lorie screeched when she saw that he was heading toward her. She ran into his arms and he held her close. "Daddy, why are me and Mommy moving houses without you?" Lorie was really confused and it broke Jess' heart.
"Lor, we talked about this. Mommy and I just don't love each other the way we use to. But we will ALWAYS love you no matter what." Lorie seemed content for the moment. "Now I will see you Friday Night after you have dinner at your great grandparents, Okay?"
"Okay." She said. Jess gave her another squeeze and a kiss.
"I love you baby." He said as she packed her coloring stuff up.
She ran over to him and gave him another kiss, "I wove you too daddy!"
Meanwhile-
Once Jess was out of ear shot Lorelai spoke up, "How are you?" She was really concerned.
Rory let out a sigh and shrugged. "I really don't know, I mean I'm glad it's over but I'm still sad. Actually the worst part is that not only am I losing my husband I'm loosing my best friend." Rory did love Jess, just not in the way they needed.
"I know Sweets. I know." By this time Rory was enveloped in a hug holding the tears in. Once things had calmed down Lorelai spoke again. "So I was thinking. When Jess comes to get Lorie on Friday night, we could have a movie night, just you and me. Huh, what do you think?"
"I'd love that, but what about Luke and Jack?" Jack was her little Half brother who was also her daughter's best friend.
"Luke is taking him to visit April at Yale, and then they are going fishing and Camping."
"April?"
"No." Lorelai explained "Just Luke and Jack." Rory had never been close to step sister but when April started applying to collages Rory helped her and when she got into Yale they really bonded and now they talked regularly on the phone.
"Okay, a movie night sounds great." Rory said then saw Jess and Lorie walking toward them.
"Hey babe!" Rory said to Lorelai Gilmore the Fourth as she jumped into her mothers arms.
They all said their goodbye's and went their separate ways.
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Rory woke up on the couch with her mother sitting next to her. The TV was still on and was static. She looked at the clock and saw it was 4:16 she had a crook in her neck but her mother looked really comfortable so she left her there and went into Jack's room previously her room and lay down on the covers.
Rory had spent many nights alone in the past little while. Jess had been on the couch for the past three months, it was finally over, and she was officially single again. The last time she felt this alone was after her Yale graduation, after she turned down Logan. After the breakup she felt so alone so she went to the one person who she knew wouldn't ask any questions.
…Jess…
She went to Jess, told him it was over with Logan and it happened just like she thought it would, no questions, he took her back and the never talked about it… until Rory got pregnant. Jess asked if there was any possibility that the baby wasn't his and after it was confirmed that Rory was a month along and Rory left Logan two months before she convinced Jess that it was his. They got married (Rory keeping her last name) and eight months later they had a daughter, Lorelai Elizabeth Gilmore or Lorelai Gilmore the VI. They moved from Philadelphia to Boston to be closer to Lorelai, Luke, Liz, and TJ. After Lorie's second birthday things started to go downhill, Jess buried himself in work writing another novel and Rory spent all of her time with Lorie when she wasn't at work.
Within the next year the fighting started to get worse, at least once a week they would get into full on screaming fight, they tried to stay together for Lorie but when the fighting started to happen every night Rory knew it was better that they were separated then to have Lorie living with parents that fight all the time. The divorce had taken six months and now she was officially a divorcee. She never thought it would come to this. Well her brain never thought it would come to this, her heart however was a different story.
Rory knew in her heart the moment she said 'I do' that it wasn't going to work. She loved Jess as a friend, a best friend, and yea he was special but when she got pregnant and Jess asked her to marry him her head shouted YES while her heart shouted NO! Eventually her head won seeing as she had a baby on the way but it was never romantic love, soul mate love, it was more of 'you're my best friend and 'oh yea' we have a kid' kind of a thing.
All of the sudden a loud creak sounded as Lorelai opened the door to a very awake Rory.
"Babe, what time did you get up?" Lorelai said as she walked in her son/daughters room.
"Umm 4:15, what time is it now?" Rory asked when she suddenly noticed that the sun was out.
"It's 8:00."
"EIGHT O'CLOCK!?" Rory screeched.
"Yea, do you have to be somewhere?" Lorelai asked surprised.
"Yes, the first social event for my new Job is today. It's some dinky cocktail party that I am supposed to attend because I just started working there and it would look bad if I missed the first party I am ever invited to. Crap I have to go home and find some clothes that aren't all wrinkly from being in boxes, I mean I just moved, I should have planned better, then I have to get dressed and showered, I don't know where my shower stuff is, I mean there are so many boxes, AND then I have to drive to Hartford for the party." Rory started to really freak out.
"Babe, Listen you can shower here, wear some of my work clothes, and then just drive to Hartford. It will be fine." Lorelai worked the Gilmore Girl charm.
"Really, because that would be great. With everything that's been going on you have been so great, I love you mom." Rory said as she kissed her and ran off to the bathroom to get showered.
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Rory got out of the shower and there was her moms best work outfit lying out on the bed, with everything from shoes to the hairpiece her mother thought she looked best in. Thank god her mother was the queen of fashion!
She quickly got dressed, put on a little makeup and headed for the kitchen. Her mother was waiting in the kitchen, poptarts and coffee in hand along with her purse.
Rory grabbed the Items, thanked her mother and got into her car. She drove to Hartford and parked before looking in her purse. She found her phone, breath mints, makeup, her wallet and pictures of Lorie, and one of Lorelai she put there that morning. She gave a little laugh and saw that there was a note attached to her mother's picture.
Rory,
I don't know when you will get this note but hopefully after you leave so you won't chop my head off. I'm sure that there will be some nice young single men. I know that you divorce was only finalized last night but I think that you and I both know that your marriage has been over longer than that. And for that reason I have a request, Do me a favor and maybe if you meet some one nice, not life changing, just someone nice and make him your transition guy. You don't have to listen to me but I think you should.
Anyway, I love ya sweets! TTYL (see I can use your kid lingo!)
Love,
Mom
Rory knew her mom was right and left the parking lot in look for Mr. Transition Guy.
Rory entered the party for the paper she had just started working for. She couldn't even bring her self to apply at a Huntzburger Publishing Group Newspaper so she settled for a newer paper that had great potential. Her only fear was that HPG would see that and buy this paper too but for the foreseeable future HPG wasn't interested.
"Ms. Gilmore!" Rory turned around to see Bill Landers the man who interviewed her and would be her new boss.
"Hello Mr. Landers" She said politely.
"This is Rory Gilmore, she is our new columnist. Talented writer, Graduated from Yale." Bill raved about her as her cheeks slowly turned more pink. "Oh I'm sorry am I embarrassing you?" He said and Rory lied and said no.
Rory knew that Bill would keep talking about her if she was there or not so she excused herself to the bar.
"Vodka martini with a twist." She said to the bartender.
"Hello, I'm Sara Singleton I don't recognize you." A tall redhead said next to her at the bar.
"Oh I'm Rory Gilmore, I just started here."
"Oh really? Who are you under." Rory was slightly confused
"Under?"
"Your boss." She looked harmless enough.
"Oh Bill Landers."
"Really, I'd love to see your work." Sara seemed very excited to see her work.
"Umm thanks, but I have to ask, Why?" Rory had no Idea why this girl looked so excited and to be honest it was scaring her.
"Bill, he only hires the best." Rory was starting to like this girl.
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Rory and Sara had become quick friends and talked for almost an hour.
Sara was married, and had two kids a four year old and a two year old, she was in her mid thirties, Originally from New York but left to go to Harvard, where she met her husband. Her husband got a Job here and so they moved, she liked working on this paper and pretty much knew everyone.
"So who's that guy?" Rory asked Sara.
"That's Philip Long, he's married and has six kids." Sara explained what he did and that he was NEVER on time for work, and if the boss were punctual he would probably be fired thank goodness for Phillip he wasn't.
"So his wife looks pretty young." Rory said wondering how she could have six kids.
"Oh, that's Marie Keller, His mistress." Rory just about spit out her third martini.
"Marie is the 'other woman' to at least three of the men that work here, and she flirts shamelessly with the boss even though he is appalled by her.
"Well that's interesting." She said as they both laughed. "So the boss, You haven't showed me who he is yet."
"I haven't seen Him, Oh wait I just saw him… he's in that corner with all of those people, you might be able to see him Blond hair Brown eyes, pretty sexy actually." Rory didn't have to see him, she downed her martini and asked for another one.
"Hey Rory are you okay?" Sara asked.
"Let me guess the boss is Logan Huntzburger." Rory said as she started on her fourth martini.
"You know him?" Sara asked obviously interested.
"I thought this wasn't Huntzburger Publishing Group!" Rory said in a panic.
"It's not, Mr. Logan Huntzburger left HPG three years ago, he didn't want anything to do with HPG so he left and started this paper." She said
"Well whatever your beef is with him will have to wait, he's headed this way." Sara said before Logan got there.
"Hello Mr. Huntzburger." Sara said with a smirk
"Call me Logan, You make me sound like my father Sara."
Rory's stomach fluttered from hearing his voice again. She turned and ducked out walking over to Nancy another girl she had met tonight. They talked a little and she was still close enough to hear Logan and Sara's conversation.
"Macallan neat" Logan said to the bartender.
"So Sara, what have you been doing all night?" He asked politely, he didn't want to be like his father and only know the 'most important' people so he talked to everyone even the interns.
"Umm just getting to know some of the new people." She said obviously covering for Rory.
"I've met two Jennifer Martin, and Gerard Kittering, I hear there is another woman that Bill Hired but I haven't seen her yet. Have you?" Rory was scared, how could Sara get her out of this one?
"Umm, yea she's nice. So I hear Jackson is thinking about firing Marie, Do you think he will?" Rory made a mental note to thank Sara when Logan left.
"I don't think so she might tell his wife if he fires her. So you say Bill's new columnist is nice?" Logan was eager to meet the Reporter that was worthy enough for Bill.
"Yea, we have some things in common; she has a four year old." Sara made a desperate attempt to keep Rory's identity hidden. "Oh I see Nancy, I haven't talked to her yet, well I guess I'll see you around." Sara went over to Nancy and saw Rory next to her. She just kept talking politely ignoring Rory's presents, and she was thankful.
However the thankfulness only lasted thirty seconds.
And then Logan stepped in "Sara, you left your phone at the bar."
Sara shot Rory a sympathetic look knowing it was hopeless. "Thanks." She said as she took the phone.
"Mr. Huntzburger, have you met Bills new employee? This is her, this is Rory Gilmore." Damn that Nancy
Rory spoke first "Logan." Logan face showed many emotions, shock, grief, hurt, but mostly love.
Logan was actually happy to see her "Ace." Rory felt closer to Logan at that moment than she ever felt with Jess, she knew he was the one and she knew she couldn't have him.
"Oh, you two know each other?" Nancy was just killing Rory at that moment
"Ummm, can I uh talk to you over here?" Logan asked.
Rory could do nothing but nod.
Logan sat down and motioned for Rory to do the same; Rory was still obedient so she did as asked.
"Listen I didn't know that Bill hired you. Not that that's a bad thing, Bill only hires the best and you are, I just would have told you or I don't know I would have… done… something. I wouldn't have had you walk in here tonight not knowing." Logan looked at Rory and she knew it was her turn to speak.
"Logan, you don't have to explain anything to me. I don't deserve it, not after what I did to you." Rory wouldn't look him in the eye.
"Rory, I was the one who proposed, you weren't ready for marriage and yet I still proposed. If anyone is sorry it should be me." Logan Really meant it and Rory could tell that's what made it all worse.
"Logan, Don't, Just don't! I don't deserve it I really don't Okay?" Rory felt worse than she ever had at this moment.
"Rory, can we just talk? I really don't understand what's going on here." Logan asked.
"Can we leave?" Rory asked.
"Sure, there's a park down the road, we could talk there." Logan really just wanted to kiss her but thought twice.
"That would be perfect." She said with a slight smile on her face.
The pair left the party and was walking in the crisp November air. There was a comfortable silence until Logan spoke up.
"So what happened with the campaign trail?" Logan asked
"Oh, I quit pretty early on."
"I'm sorry to hear that." Logan said as they neared the park
"Listen Logan, you don't have to pretend you care, I really don't deserve it after what I did to you." Rory and Logan sat down on a bench overlooking a pond.
"I'm not pretending, and I still don't know what you did to me." Logan was genuinely confused.
"Can I just start from the beginning?" Rory asked
"Sure." Logan said, he was scared that she really had moved on with her life because god knows he hadn't. Well he had just not in the way he thought that she had. (A/N- That sounded really cool so I left it in.)
"And No interruptions?" Rory really didn't want to tell the story but if she did she didn't want him interrupting telling her how horrible she was.
"No interruptions" He confirmed
"Okay, here it goes…"
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A/N- OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH! Cliff hanger and it's only the first chapter! Anyway I had to include a lot of the information in the beginning so sorry if you didn't like the beginning but I think it gets better so Please REVIEW!!