This is my take on Jane's thoughts as he meets everyone on the first day and other firsts that are to come.

The first day

I have been out of the mental institution for a good week now and have finally been able to track down the place that has the Red John Files; the CBI. I dislike waiting but I have realized that in order to get my hands on those files and memorize every detail I must act nervous and innocent I need to look pitiful and lost in order to fool them. They'll let me look at them out of sympathy and after I have them memorized I'll go out and find Red John.

I've been standing here for about 20 minutes when a young woman approached me telling me her name is Agent Teresa Lisbon. THIS woman standing in front of me is Agent Lisbon. THIS woman is in charge of the Red John case. THIS woman cannot be more than a few years younger than ME. She shouldn't be anywhere near those files let along the lead detective. (1)

I allow myself to sweep over her before shaking her hand she has a firm grip and her eyes are full of curiosity, sympathy and worry, but when I ask her about the Red John case her eyes show sadness and insecurity and then tries to kick me out, its kinda funny and I try my best not to smile like a fox, since I can always hypnotize her, but then she surprised me telling me to call- to make an appointment; this makes my heart beat a little faster.

I think I may have been Had, I don't know how but I was slightly surprised that she had this Steve guy escort me out of the building, it's like she knew I was going to try and sneak around or something on top that she's probably not going to allow me inside the building in three hours like we agreed upon; Smart woman she is, maybe she is worthy of the Red John files.

This man, Steve I don't like him he looks at me with fake pity and tells me to go move away and start a new life. I can feel the rage boiling underneath my skin as I try to keep it down. I cannot move on! Their deaths were MY fault and I will kill that son of a bitch if it's the last thing I was going to do. This man gives me an idea though. I know how to stay in this building and get those files, just need to push his buttons; I can tell that if I say the right things he'll get violent. Besides I can tell he doesn't like Agent Teresa Lisbon, it's obvious that this Steve is envious and full of hatred towards the younger woman and I want to find out why someone so young is the lead and not someone like him.

My answer comes soon enough as I find my nose throbbing and myself on the ground I could hear Agent Lisbon yell at him and then lay her hand my shoulder, it has a warmth to it and she then helps me up as I act all guilty; yes it was my fault but I need to still keep up this little act and now that an agent had hit me a victim. I'm going to use this as leverage to read those files.

I can feel them staring at me as they chat away, I can tell that the older man is Agent Lisbon's boss and I just know I'll be able to get those files now. As Agent Lisbon talks more about this Red John case its clear that they themselves are stuck and have not been able to move on or do anything; this makes my heart sink a little that these cops can't do anything.

I do my best to hold back my smile as Mr. Minelli tells me I can look at the files, when Agent Lisbon comes back from this other case. I can clearly tell she doesn't even want me to look at them and is unhappy with Mr. Minelli. I take this new information and decide to push a little bit more just to see her reaction. I can say I am very pleased with it as Mr. Minelli allows me to go along with Lisbon on this new case; She looks pretty cute trying not to show her dislike for this whole thing.

I was quiet during the car ride, too busy studying the two agents in front of me. Steve clearly does not respect or even remotely like Agent Lisbon while Agent Lisbon herself is unhappy with Steve, but she still cares for him and shows respect; respect I think he doesn't deserve. When we arrived at the site I met Agent Cho. I wasn't able to read him as well as everyone else around me. All that I could tell was that he wasn't too pleased with my presents so I told them to ignore me. I did my best to not shake my head and roll my eyes as everyone turned their back to me and walked away completely ignoring and I must say that is something I am not used too(2)

When I walked over to the body I became uneasy, but Steve was there so I asked what happened next and as soon as I did I knew it was a bed idea because within minutes I had to walk away, I could hear the concern in Agent Lisbon's voice as she walked over.

After telling them what I thought and how I wasn't physic I watched as Agent Lisbon spoke and acted. She was confident and sure of her actions, before turning to me and asking me if there is any place for her to drop me off at, but by now I am all to curious about this dead man who is clearly an Alcoholic, I wanted to find out more about him so I told he I'd come along and watched as she walked away allowing me to follow.

The ride to the judge's house is quiet and I can tell she thinking about this case, thinking about what she knows and she needs to know in order to move forward.

When we get there I finally speak, asking her how this works, I have an idea on how interviewing a victim works since I was one, but it's sort of different now that we'll be asking the questions, well I guess that she'll be asking the questions since I've been told to stay with the care. But of course luck is on my side as the judge comes over to us and asked to talk privately. I do my best not to grin at Agent Lisbon; she is clearly not happy with me following her along, but is putting up with it since she is much to caring. I think that is her weakness she is too caring, not once has she looked at me with pity.

She wasn't happy with me, it was easy to tell as we got into the car and drove away from the house. Agent Lisbon took a few deep breaths before snapping at me. To tell the truth I wasn't fully expecting her to get angry with me. I thought I was doing a pretty good job with my 'poor me-I'm so lost' act but I guess that didn't affect her. I just don't understand how she could or would get in trouble for something I said, I mean the guy is a big powerful judge but why would he do anything to Agent Lisbon here I just don't get it.

Her phone rings and she pulls over to get out of vehicle. I can't hear what she is saying and I really feel the need to stretch my legs so I get out of the car I can hear her better but she hangs up before I could truly listen to what she was saying and turned to look at me. She told me I was right about the date and it was a good call; of course I was right. I'm always right. I decide that at this moment this little woman intrigues me. So far she has not fallen victim to my looks, she has been nice and gentle but its obvious she is no push over and is clearly a lot stronger than she looks. I'll give her a little bit of what I have to offer, just a little taste. After all she is just a mark I plan to use.

I regret telling her about cold reading the moment I talk about her father. The instant my word leave my mouth I can see walls been thrown up, I can see how she clams down on any emotions and locks in all in. It's obvious I hit a tender spot and I can't have that, I need this woman to be readable and easy to manipulate no matter how cute she is or nice she is, I can't have her dropping me off and just leaving me now. I want to so see those Red John files, I am already destroyed. I'm already obsessed with killing him I can't have this happening now; I won't allow it to happen. I watch as Agent Lisbon goes to walk away before she turns to me and for the second time today she surprised me. Telling me to come back tomorrow of course she tells me to clean up and then gets into the car. I don't think I'm that much of a mess and right now I don't quite know what to do as I'm standing in front of the van looking at her as she climbs in and puts on her seat belt.

I think I'm starting to like this woman

I come in the next morning cleaned up and make myself a cup of tea, before turning around and talking to Agent Cho; I'm not too happy that my hunch is wrong about his name but oh well. Another Agent whose name I haven't gotten yet comes over and it's obvious they both are not comfortable with me here, but they are kind enough to not say anything too rude. The nameless Agent is even nice enough to point out a place for me to stay before Agent Lisbon comes. I hope she's not too late.

I only have to wait 10 minutes before I hear her say my name. Jumping and make my way to her sorry excuse for an office. Really this place doesn't even look professional; I've seen better office spaces for grocery stores. I ask her to call me Patrick but I don't like the tone of voice she says it in. it's very clear to me now as I sit down and look at her, she isn't happy to see me, she doesn't want me here, she doesn't want me to see those files and I have to hand it to her for trying to get out of showing me those files, but I am going to see them, I am going to track him down and I am going to kill him. I know I should move away, I know I should try to move on, but I can't and can tell just by looking into her eyes that she worried, that she is worried that I will become even more broken. But I can't…. I can't I NEED to find Red john for my family.

She gives in and tells me the files will be here today before telling to stay in her office. I don't want to be in her office then again I guess I am a distracting, and I can't help but smile as she calls me homeless and then leave me with a zinger. I am really starting to like this woman. She is strong and clearly is able to hold her own.

After a while everyone assembles at a desk and I can't help but let my curiosity get the better of me. I want to find out what's going with this dead drunk guy's case. Of course they notice me the minute I get up, Agent Lisbon maybe short enough to hide behind these things(3) but I am not, so I tell a lie and they continue talking. Before Agent Lisbon orders her team around while also complaining about the absence of the Red John files, I guess even the CBI gets back logged. I was going to start snooping through Agent Lisbon's before she tells me to come with her.

We got back to the office and I sat down at the small table that was given to me for my personal use, I allowed my mind to wander as the Agents talk about the case. I couldn't really help them without knowing anything more than the little but I did. My mind was pulled out of its thoughts when I heard them mention Red John. I get up and it took everything in my power to just run over to cart filled with boxes before grabbing one and walking back to the desk. Agent Lisbon interrupts me, asking for a favor, and this time I can't read what she's thinking.

Soon I find myself outside of room filled with the suspects and Agent Lisbon telling me one of them is Murderer. She wants me to find the men who killed the Drunk said I have a gift and at that I get annoyed; I do not have a gift! I am not physic, I am a fraud I tell her, but the look in her eyes stays the same; she doesn't care what I'm. She just knows I can help and wants me to help. So I enter the room reluctantly. I have to say the look on her face is highly amusing while I am doing this it makes me want to be more of an ass so I tell her that I'm 70% of sure.

This is thrilling, this whole thing is thrilling, and I a carny, a fraud helping the police solve a murder. This has a very interesting feeling…. The thrill of this is more amazing than anything I've done before and I think I like this.

Its over now and I have found the killer, and I am now a CBI consultant. I look down at Agent Lisbon as she asks me if I really wanted to do this and I say for probably the sixth time I've been asked this the exact same answer; yes. I couldn't help my thank her and then hug her. I note how she smells which is a very nice and spicy sent. Her body is so small compared to mine and even if I compare her to my late wife she is still very small… fragile and someone I think I manipulate, but I have a feeling I'll have to be careful with her. Agent Lisbon doesn't know what to do other than awkwardly pat my back before I let her go. I let her lead me to the a room that has the Red John files on a table before telling me she is going and to call her if I have any questions before she leaves me alone in the room.

Its early morning, I can hear people start to enter the bullpen, but I pretend to be asleep; my eyes hurt from all the reading. I hear her footsteps as she walks over to the couch I had the janitors move and I must say it's very comfortable for something you'd usually fine in an alley. She stops about a meter or two away from me before Agent Cho tells her about another case. She shushes him and whispers to him to grab Agent Rigsby and leave before traffic.

Really what a nice woman… someone I think I'll have some fun with.

Authors note: (1) when I watched the episode you can see that Jane is a little surprised at the sight of Lisbon; I am guessing he only knew her Last name and assumed she was a male and probably a lot older.

(2) As the group is walking away from Jane he does shake his head lightly and slightly rolls his eyes. I am thinking he wasn't actually expecting them to ignore him

(3) I have no idea what those things are that Lisbon is using as 'walls' I've seen them before and my school has them, I just don't know what they're called.

I honestly don't think Jane was that Lost, I think he was acting in order to get to those files. In my honest opinion he got himself punched on purpose and in the beginning of all of this I think he plans on manipulating people to get what he wants. I also believe that the reason Lisbon puts up with him now is because she realised she created the monster or helped anyway. It was her idea to use Jane and now she has to pay the price (that and I'm a huge Jibson fan)

If there is any ANY grammar errors or ways I could make this better please let me know. This is my first Fanfic.