Sitting at a desk... writing with my pencil... rolling my eyes at this annoying project...

"Now remember class" Chad's writing was interrupted "Never let your pencil rest."

Chad took a sigh then continued to scribble down his thoughts onto his journal.

Hoping bell rings soon... Hope my audition for Basketball Boy goes well... Hope that..

"And Stop!"

Chad finally placed down his pencil and began to rub his wrist.

"All right class would anyone like to read a couple lines of theirs out loud?

"I will!" A student called from the back.

"Okay" Mrs. Whatsman smiled.

"I love steak, and peanut butter sandwiches. I love turkey too." She smiled wide.

"Thanks"

The student sat down again

"Anyone else"

"I will" A student opposite the previous stood.

"Great!"

He cleared his throat. "I hear the grumble bellow... and my mouth begins to water..."

"Ok, Stop!" Mrs Whatsman laughed to herself. "Let's just try this again after lunch."

With that she motioned the student their pardon and they slid their bags under the desks.

Chad gave a stretch as he stood. "Do you want these Mrs Whatsman?"

She glanced up from her work. "Oh, no Chad! Those thoughts are all your own." She gave him a wink.

He gave a half smile (He really appreciated her kindness). He shoved his paper into his bag and headed off for lunch.

He was half way down when he spotted the 'So Random' crew headed his direction toward the lunch room.

He ducked behind a plant to avoid the interaction.

"Totally Funny!" He heard Sonny laugh as they passed.

He poked his head around the corner and saw that all was clear, instead of taking his stride again he leaned against the wall and slowly slid down till he was seated on the floor.

He took a deep breath and leaned his head backwards in discouragement.

The sound that use to fill his heart with peace and joy now made it ache excruciatingly. He stared blankly at the wall as he examined his broken feelings. Every time he heard Sonny's voice or sweet laugh he felt his heart break all over again. He use to love Lunch but now it was just another time to dread seeing his ex's face.

He took a deep breath and tried to gather his nerve as he made his way in.

He placed on a fake smile as he entered. He didn't try to put up a cocky front- it was Sonny, she could see right through it. But, he didn't want her to feel guilty for hurting him when he knew he deserved every bit of it and probably even more.

He gathered his lunch and took his seat with his group. He made sure his back was to Sonny so that he could concentrate on keeping conversation that would distract from his true emotional state.

"So I heard that next week's episode is going to be killer!" One star spoke another joined in her excitement.

The newest falls member walked up to the table nervously.

"Oh, hi Jenna!" Cloe spoke up "Hop right in"

She looked a little hesitant when she noticed the only seat was by Chad Dylan Cooper. The newby had not yet gotten use to the idea of playing opposite such a star.

She took her seat but Chad didn't seem to notice he just quietly ate his steak and potatoes.

"So how are you liking our new teacher?" Devon asked. "Oh, I think she's totally nice!" Jenna spoke up. "She's alright" Chloe added.

Chad did not add to the conversation but by now no one ever expected him too.

"So Jenna want to go shopping after our shoot?" Jenna gave a kind smile and nodded shyly.

Jenna Lucile Carter was a new girl to Hollywood. She was sweet and shy and beautiful! She had beautiful brown hair that hit right below her shoulders and it was layered so that it fell right in place to frame her face. She hadn't had very many jobs so far but was lucky enough to catch the eye of the producers of Mackenzie Falls. Considering the current 'episode' with Penelope they desperately needed a real gem. Someone who would really shine and be adored by all. She perfectly fit the bill.

"Chad are you coming?" He looked up to see the rest of his cast staring at him impatiently and waving him on. He glanced down at his plate and noticed he had hardly eaten anything.

His producer was NOT going to be happy. Chad's lack of appetite lately was becoming apparent on the show and he was told to eat or pay the consequences. He didn't really know what those might be exactly, but he needed his star status more now than ever.

He threw a couple big bites of steak in his mouth and wiped himself off. Then darted back to the classroom.

"So you got to see a sample of how this all works... This time let's go for two minutes. Continue to write no matter what it may be... You would be surprised just how therapeutic it can be when you release things you may not even know are built up inside of you."

This caught Chad's attention. He cleared his throat and raised his hand.

"Yes Chad?" She raised a brow.

"Yeah, um... Devon wanted to know if anyone was going to see these papers."

Devon looked confused. "No I didn't!"

She walked sweetly to him and patted his shoulder in compassion. "No Devon, Don't worry, These are for your eyes alone." Devon stared blankly

"That's what I tried to tell him Mrs. Whatsman but he just doesn't listen."

"What?" Devon finally snorted, irritated, then just rolled his eyes and got his paper out.

The other's laughed under their breath while Chad threw on a fake smile.

"Now make sure your pencil is sharp." Chad scrunched his brow in thought as he considered what to do. She said no one was going to see these and they could be very therapeutic. Maybe I should just go with it?

"Alright!" His thoughts were interrupted again. "And Go! Write Write Write" She clapped her hands to move them along.

Chad placed his pencil to his paper.

I am hoping I can think of what to write... I really am not sure I can do this for two minutes... I better write though... He was trying so hard to think of what to write and trying to push Sonny as far from his thoughts as possible. I am trying to think... he sighed... I guess I am really trying not to think... His chest fell defeated... I am soo soo sorry. I wish she knew that... Sorry Sorry Sorry... Everything I thought was important was nothing. Everything I thought mattered has ended up to be broken and shallow... I wish I could go back... I wish I wish I wish... maybe if I say it enough times it will happen... She smiles in the cafeteria and I try not to look I hear her voice and I try not to turn around I here my heart beating so heavily all the time... it feels like it weighs a hundred pounds... I cant just keep going like this... I have to do something but what...

"One Minute!"

... Time heals all wounds! I don't think so.. it has been 6 months now. I do well not looking at her but as you can tell by my writing getting her out of my head is a different situation entirely. I just wish she would say she has forgiven me and seen that I am trying but it won't happen... I am not worth the risk of getting hurt... I am not worth much anymore anyway even my directors can tell you that!... Maybe I should just...

"Time! Drop them!"

Chad layed down his pencil before he could finish the sentence. ("move on")

"Alright fold them up and put them in your bags when you get home later I want you to read them to yourselves. Really examine what you wrote." She pulled her hands into her chest trying to urge them to dig deep.

Chad smiled and rolled his eyes he had to admit this teacher's passion was contagious.

He slipped his paper into his bag. "Read it later? Yeah right!" He shoved it in. As he lifted his head he happened to stare right into the eyes of Jenna who was just finishing shuffling through her bag as well. He paused for a moment looking into her brown eyes. They reminded him of Sonny's. She smiled at him sweetly to break his stare. He came too and politely gave her a quick, casual smile. Then flung himself around to the board. He started to nonchalantly drum his pencil on his desk and hum to help break both of them away from the awkward moment.

"Alright now we are going to play a class game!" She clapped enthusiastically.

"Alright that's it for today... Oh! Grab your history books!" The students did as they were told.

As Chad pulled his book from his bag a newly written and folded piece of notebook paper slid out and underneath his desk.

"Look at the questions on page 118... I want these completed by tomorrow no exceptions!" She pointed to the firmly.

The bell sounded and all the students hurried to put their books away and head out the door.

Chad tried to avoid eye contact with Jenna just long enough to let her know he had only mistakenly looked at her. She got the point and the gang headed down the hall to rehearsal.

The sound of the fleeing class was followed by a 'So Random' class. They barreled in laughing and slid down in their seats. Mrs. Whatsman rolled her eyes and laughed to herself. "And let the games begin!"