Author's Note: Derp. I'm back again. Been really disappointed with the no reviews, because honestly, if I even got ONE review saying I should continue, then I would totally make my oneshots into a chapter series just for that one person. I'm making this a chapter series since more people read those, and this story has a LOT of potential. Give this starving artist a chance guuuuys! Anyways, I'm the secretary to my high school's GSA so this is dedicated to two of my best gay friends Ryan and Victor, and to anyone who bravely came out of the closet as lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender (LGBT).

Summary: Did you know? The word agon means a struggle? Discovering oneself was tough enough, but the poor Uchiha had to think of some way to come out of the closet for his parents and brother. They've never heard of a gay shinobi before. SasuNaru, non-massacre.

Agon

Chapter One—Anxiety

Sexuality was one thing a shinobi or kunoichi had never questioned, and on a few occasions, a civilian would question their own as well, but passed it off as a phase. There were no laws against gay shinobis or lesbian kunoichis, only because they had never been heard of before, so therefore never questioned. However, Sasuke couldn't help but ponder upon these questions of his own sexuality, especially ever since the day Rookie Nine graduated the academy to become genin. It was that same day when Sasuke and Naruto had accidentally kissed each other.

At first, Sasuke had felt disgusted, that the feeling was not right, that Naruto's ramen-breath made him want to vomit all over the place, however after a couple of weeks of thinking things through, and actually getting to know the blonde, he had felt a slight attraction and passed it off as friendship. The attraction soon grew stronger however, and so he just passed it off as brotherhood. It wasn't until he had accepted his secret admiration and crush towards the idiot fox was when he began to think of ways to get Naruto to kiss him again.

This wasn't right, was it? For a male shinobi to love another that is the same gender… It was dangerous, and he had heard of a few stories from other countries and villages that that kind of shinobi would get stripped of their status and would have their chakra sealed for life. Losing his shinobi status terrified him, especially coming from such a prestigious clan of ninja that practically held Konoha together besides the Hokage. It would be a disgrace, he frowned and his eyebrows knitted together as he thought more, it wasn't like he wasn't one already… He was snapped out of his thoughts as soon as he heard his name being called down for dinner.

Tension rose in the air around the young Uchiha as he sucked in air, a chuunin now that most of Rookie Nine were also chuunin, with the exception of a few members in Team Gai who were jounin. He sat at the dinner table, legs crossed together as his hand shook to reach for his mother's special onigiris. "Otou-san…" he muttered anxiously. How was he going to tell his father?

"Yes Sasuke-san?" his father's old stern eyes looked up at his son's nervous ones, "What is it?"

Itachi raised an eyebrow at this situation. He had noticed that since the start of dinner, his little brother had become very nervous, and it shocked him to see that his mother nor his father had taken notice, or if they have, then why they didn't say anything about it. For a long time now, ever since Sasuke was born, he had never seen him this afraid before, not since the time he was forced to apologize to his father for doing something wrong.

Sasuke's breathing automatically stopped, "I…' Should he? Should he just blurt it out? Just to get it done with? "I need to be excused." He quickly said instead and left the dinner table, completely aborting his plan and intentions. He saw his father about to yell at him for rudely excusing himself until Itachi interrupted him purposefully, knowing Sasuke needed to calm down. The younger Uchiha threw the older one a grateful glance before quickly leaving the compound and into the cool late-afternoon breeze.

Where was he going to go now? Surely he couldn't head back inside anytime soon. He saw the look Itachi had given him. His nosy older brother would surely interrogate him about his odd behavior. Maybe he should head over to Naruto's… He gritted his teeth as a faint blush ran over his cheeks, looking down at the dirt ground, letting his dark bangs cover his face so onlookers wouldn't see. 'That's right, he's on that solo mission, so he isn't here…' he thought to himself, 'Then perhaps Kakashi-sensei?' The Uchiha only shook his head again, kicking a pebble that was in his way, 'He's always wandering Konoha at this hour reading that perverted book of his. I've got no other choice but Sakura. She's working in the hospital.'

He began to change his route to head over to the hospital, knowing that she normally took the night-shift since most nurses complained of the lack of sleep, and since Sakura was an experienced kunoichi, she could go for days without sleep and was practically used to the lack of sleep. He secretly called her an insomniac despite the fact that he never saw bags under her iridescent jade eyes. He knew that she had gotten over her longing crush towards him long ago, seeing as it was ridiculous and saw him as her brother, just as he sees her as his sister. They had established that when Naruto had tried to get them together once before.

Quickly walking passed the half-asleep nurse in the front desk, he made his way towards Sakura's office where it was labeled: "Head Doctor". He slipped inside her office to see her concentrating over a couple of folders, papers sprawled out everywhere and what seemed like to be blood in a tube standing on a small rack next to another tube filled with a clear substance.

Sakura quickly looked up, dressed in her normal red vest, black biker shorts with a beige skirt, and over that was a white medical coat he often saw Shizune or Tsunade wear while at the hospital. It definitely meant high status. "Eh? Sasuke-kun?" she blinked, "What are you doing here?" She asked putting down a pen and a couple of papers, perhaps wondering if he felt ill or was wounded internally since she saw no visible blood.

Sasuke just shook his head, taking a seat on a couch seated in front of her desk, "Nothing, just had nowhere to go. Naruto isn't back from his mission and Kakashi is impossible to find at this hour."

She just smiled warmly at him, making him remember that same smile when she had fed him apples in the hospital after the chuunin exams before he slapped them away. He winced at the thought, feeling guilty, but he knew that it was the past and she was far passed it. He looked up at her again to see her concentrating on her experiment again, grabbing a telescope this time and preparing a slide.

So much had changed in so a matter of time. He remembered when he heard Sakura had requested Tsunade's tutelage, and how she became her apprentice, it was around the time when Naruto began training under Jiraya as well. A little after that, he had begun training under Kakashi, knowing that leaving Konoha would make him a traitor, something his older brother would have despised. Secretly, he had high respect for his brother and his opinion mattered the most to him. Snapping out of his thought process he began to wonder, "Ne, Sakura," still not used to adding a suffix after her name, he asked, "what made you want to be trained by Tsunade-sama?"

Apparently Sasuke's unexpected question had startled her into accidentally bumping into the telescope, causing the slide to slightly shift from her view. She rubbed her eye in irritation, but did not ignore her teammate's question. "When I got tired of staring at your back," she answered with a small grin, "Yours, Naruto's and Kakashi's as well."

He understood what she had meant by this, and he couldn't blame her. He understood that feeling of being useless, especially when he went on missions with his brother where he would practically just be following Itachi around until the mission was completed. From then on, he refused any missions with his brother, and was glad that Itachi understood why as well. There was no way he could compare to him, becoming ANBU Captain at only thirteen years old was ridiculous, and doing each and every single one of father's biddings as well. He knew that he was lucky to not be in Itachi's position, no matter how many times he was jealous of the praises Itachi received.

"What's on your mind Sasuke-kun?" Sakura asked, breaking the young Uchiha out of his thoughts. "I know you're not just in here just to randomly chat. What's going on?" Looking at how tense Sasuke was, she set down her equipment, sitting at the edge of her desk, giving him her full attention.

Sasuke began to wonder, should he tell just tell her? That he might be…? He mentally slapped himself, telling himself to just talk, shout out the first thing that just came to mind to get it over with. The first thing just so happened to be, "Naruto." He would've smacked his forehead if it weren't for the medic's presence. It was very 'un-Uchiha' like.

"Naruto-kun? Did he say something to bother you again?" Sakura asked, crossing her arms and tilting her head.

He shook his head from side to side, "What makes him so special?"

"Mmm, that he's a jinchuuriki, he's loud—"

Sasuke cut her off once again, "Not that. Just…" His eyebrows furrowed together in contemplation, "Why is he always on my mind Sakura?" He looked up this time, hard onyx eyes glaring at her green ones, as if blaming her.

The question shocked Sakura, but she just gave him a small apologetic smile, "I can't answer that for you." But it was so clear to her, and she wasn't at all surprised, that what she saw in Sasuke's eyes was love.

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