Just another Memory
Dawn rose up into the sky like death pursuing an old man's life, her peach fingers clawing over our blood infested world. It was winter here in Boston, Massachusetts and as far as I could tell, this winter was going to be just another memory for next year. Because that's just the way life is… A blue jay fluttered over my blonde-topped head, singing it's well known song. I smiled thoughtfully when another flew by, this time red. "Heehee, I guess opposites attract after all," I muttered, clamping numb fingers around the seat. My weary chocolate eyes, the bags under them still obvious, eyed every person at the park, narrowing with each couple I saw.
One pair were sitting in the grass on a blanket, eating ice cream. The girl was pretty. A waterfall of thick brown cascaded to her delicate shoulders, her perfectly white teeth shining at her man. The boy couldn't help but grin back like an idiot, his soft green eyes crinkling at the corners while his perfect cheeks and nose turned red from embarrassment. I tried to smile but failed miserably. This wasn't fair. Here I was, alone in one of the greatest times in Boston at a park, watching mournfully as couples made googly eyes and sighed with love. It was sickening.
"This is pathetic, I'm going back home," I grumbled, staring at the ground defeated. Getting into my normal long stride, I made my way across the field into the nearby woods, mumbling on about how stupid I was for thinking I'd find someone at a park. I can't believe I, Stacy Carson, was this desperate! To go find my soul mate at the park, then pulling a Jacob Black, and just like him, coming back with nothing. How lame! What next, is Bella gonna have a baby in my office? Good grief!
The crackled sound of twigs and brush against my feet walked across the wood's floor, not giving me the silence I was so desperate for. Only a girl who was so insanely in love with her sister's boyfriend would go to a park to get over him, to find someone new. And I was that girl. Kevin's beautiful face, blue eyes sparkling and dirty brown hair swaying in an unknown breeze, popped into my head. I took in a shaky breath, my heart accelerating at abnormal pace, thunking almost angrily within me. Maybe I WAS the Jacob of my life, with my sister as Edward and Kevin as Bella. Because I'm sure that if I met the said pack heir right about now, we'd both be able to relate to this bone crushing feeling on the inside.
No, bone crushing would be merciful child's play compared to this pain, this hunger. My feet went up tempo, going a little faster….and faster…and faster until I was in a blown out run, breath coming in at wild gasps. Leaving them, him behind was right thing to do, I knew that…but that doesn't mean I wish I was wrong. The coldest sun rose over my head, dappling the leaves a murky white. White, the color of purity and innocence, of completeness. A sure sign that even in the woods I didn't belong. Ugh, I'm such a drama queen. I might as well jump into an oldies movie and become the Cindy Lue of the whole damned thing.
But as I thought this, at that precise moment, everything I once knew and thought changed. Like a time bomb going off inside my brain, everything that I thought was real was fake and everything that was fake was real. "…Oh my god…" Time never seemed less insignificant than it did now as I locked all my muscles in place, all my joints. And my life never seemed more odd than it did now as my mouth went from it's scowl to a flat line on my pale face. And God had never been so cruel till now as I stared into the honey soft eyes of Edward Cullen.