Razor Dreams

A/N: This one is super depressing. I really feel for Arty boy here. Don't ask why I wrote this, I just did. I have had moments myself where I understand his frustration. All in the past though, and as this story-ish thing progresses we will see him put in in the past. Review.

With love,

Arty's Girl.

Disclaimer: I do not own Artemis Fowl, or I would never allow him to hurt himself in any way. I would use force, if necessary.

It was only once.

But it hurt like hell.

It wasn't very long-

No one could tell.

It was stupid, I know.

You think I don't know that?

But you don't understand.

You don't see the pain I hold back.

After all, Holly-

No one does, nor ever will.

Not if I can help it.

I won't subject them to that drill

Of ice, ice burning

Fire, DA'rvit, fire.

Will it never end!?

Why is every friend a liar!?

Why do these dream haunt me still?

Razor dreams!

I don't understand.

But dear, sweet Holly-

My ANGEL Holly-

…I can never tell you.

I'll never pour out

These bottled up

Dreams of anguish.

I'm not myself.

I love you Holly!

But I can't think

I can't help my

Mind from going mad

These dreams that I

Have had

All that takes away the

Pain, the hurt is

You, and a razor.

You are my sweet razor.

I never thought I would say that.

A/N: Yes Arty, and I never thought I would write something so depressing. R&R.

With love,

Arty's Girl.