"We gave him a new medicine, it's something we've been working on for a while." Doctor said, still looking at his papers, probably reading the side effects, ready to inform L.
L's panda eyes focused on the doctor before glancing momentarily at the papers; he was not very willing to let Light to become a guinea pig, even if he was Kira, the biggest mass murderer in history, and a delusional freak with a god complex.
Visibly delusional at the moment, L thought bitterly.
Well, letting him consume drugs that were not tested was equal to a death sentence, the death sentence he managed to avoid.
And L still wasn't sure whether he was relieved or frustrated he didn't get what he deserved, a nice electric chair so he could end up like fried chicken, like B did in jail.
Taking into consideration what kind of person Light was, the way he ended up was worse though, L concluded, so he even allowed himself to feel a little sorry for him.
Taking three different kinds of medicine, both i.v and pills and the most exciting thing to be able to do being playing with lego at the living room was pitiful knowing how much of a genius Light was previously.
However, the times Light was not drugged, well, they were a nightmare.
L had been present during some of them, months ago, and Light had been something worse than Kira.
Light had given up.
L lived for the moment Light would fight for his freedom, even though he'd definitely lose, but Light didn't even try to eat his meals or take a walk outside with his personal nurse like all patients did, so fighting for his freedom was out of question.
Light was a walking corpse.
"Let's see some of the side effects are being forgetful, unsteadiness, noticeable change in speech rhythm, lightheadedness, nausea, shuffle walking, trouble speaking properly, trouble concentrating, lack of appetite-"
"If I see Yagami-san and he suffers because of half of these things, I will have to sue you, y'know." L commented calmly while gnawing his thumb.
"I thought you had given me permission to do what I wish with that certain patient, and even if you had done that for unknown reasons, I must ask: What happened that changed your mind? You even came to visit after the required visits."
L indeed had given the doctor the permission to do whatever he wanted with Light, and he hadn't even done half of the things Light deserved.
But L wasn't sure why he decided to protest, was it that Light was the only person equal to him?
He didn't feel like destroying Light's brain, whatever it was, it was precious to all him, Light and the humanity.
As precious it is, it is just a dangerous, L told himself, not quite managing to sound convincing enough inside his head.
How dangerous can a mastermind be?
Very, he concluded, still not taking his word back at the doctor.
"I can let you see him, Hideki-san. I will not give him that certain medicine, if you ask me to. You pay, you decide but I must inform you what's best for the patient." The doctor said expressionless, fixing his glasses. "You remember the room?"
"Not quite." L lied.
He didn't want to be alone, not anymore, even if his company was the doctor.
Humans were nothing after all.
If a genius like Light ended up like that, a genius like himself could end up like that as well, and even worse.
He decided he wanted people around him, he couldn't be alone for much longer, he wanted to confirm both his existence and sanity.
He wanted Light around him.
He wanted Kira around him
Even the horrible Kira trials with Light laughing like the nutcase he was were not enough to separate him from Light Yagami.
He had gotten emotionally attached, he admitted, and he had understood it much later than expected.
Four months after discovering Light was Kira, he just decided to spend more time with a drugged, emotionally dead Light, he concluded, telling himself he sounded irrational.
"Here." The doctor opened the door to Light's room, silently, stepping away in order for L to enter.
"Light-kun?" Naturally, Light was sitting on the floor, holding a yellow, in the past white, teddy bear.
He didn't even turn around but L knew Light had heard him.
"Misa, kill them...All of them." The doctor glanced at Light, frustrated from what he had heard, one last time before closing the door.
L decided to watch Light silently for a bit as he sat in front of him at the chair next to the bed.
He shook the teddy bear, intensely, while looking at it lovingly.
He looked as if he was talking to Misa indeed, L thought, feeling a slight sadness.
"We cannot afford to lose anymore time, Kira's word m-must...spread." L noticed Light dragged his voice and some certain vowels and consonants more than usual, and that he sounded as if he would cry, but probably that wasn't what he meant to sound like.
It was just his raspy voice.
"Kill L first. See h-his name, it will be floating over his head." It was sickening how that didn't make L neither sad nor angry. Light stood up and L did too instinctively as Light ended up shoving the teddy bear in L's arms before following the bear as well and grasping L's shirt as if his life depended from it.
As Light started sobbing, L could tell Light asked 'Misa' to kill him while he was aware of L's presence in the room.
He did it to hurt him.
What mattered was that it was a hell, Light was struggling to breath in L's arms, L's shirt was wet, and the teddy bear fell on the floor, followed by L who tried to support Light's weight.
And since L decided to visit Light, it only just begun.