His name is Byakuya Kuchiki. He's the twenty-eight head of the Kuchiki clan. He's the captain of division six. He runs the calligraphy club, He has an article in the Seireitei newspaper that discusses etiquette and he is in a relationship with his lieutenant, Renji Abarai. Yes it does seem :: unusual :: and he often questions it too. He can't say for a certain that he is in love with Renji. There is love there what it means he doesn't really know ::: yet
He was married once, a long time ago. His wife, Hisana, she and him had a five year relationship. When she passed away she apologized to him. She told him that she was sorry that she couldn't return the love that he had given her. He spent many months after that trying to understand what she meant and he finally reached a resolve. Byakuya was in love with Hisana but she was not in love with him. She loved him in some form and she was grateful that he had given her a wonderful life for five years but she just didn't love him in the way that he hoped that she would have.
That was over two hundred and fifty years ago now. He still honors her every anniversary of her death. He still has her in his heart that most would say that is non existent. Having Renji as his lieutenant for the last one hundred and fifty years has been strange for him :: and his rumored non existent heart.
Byakuya's lieutenant is a peculiar individual. He is neurotic and has very little control over his outburst when he becomes angry. He is the type that will laugh at something when it's not funny. He will do what he has to make others happy which makes Byakuya wonder just how far he would go to see him smile. Byakuya keeps his emotions in check in fact he very rarely shows any form of emotion. There is reasons for that but if Byakuya was to be completely honest Renji is someone that he doesn't want to lose. In any circumstance. He doesn't want to wake up one day and realize that he is not there and will never return. He fears very little but Byakuya is afraid that he is going to end up pushing Renji away.
Byakuya can't be expected to be anything less or more than what he is. Renji knew who Byakuya was before he went to him asking to consider him as a lover. It was something Byakuya was going to say no to. Byakuya had never been with another man before but then Renji was not just another man. He was Renji. He had been loyal to Byakuya for most of the time they have been captain and lieutenant. There was that incident with Rukia some time ago but that was really Renji's only indiscretion.
Renji has protected Byakuya, fought by his side and been there when things had been dire. They had an understanding of each other and he is the only one Byakuya has ever smiled in front of since his wife died. He is the only one that Byakuya has told a joke too as well. To get to the point Renji is not just anyone to Byakuya he is someone that he actually relies on and someone that despite his odd personality Byakuya would always hold dear to him. As Byakuya sits in his chair inside the division six barracks working on his next article he finds himself looking at Renji in curiosity.
He doesn't like to be distracted from what is important but when he watches Renji concentrated he can see the red head's brow furrowing and he occasionally talks to himself. He always has a single Taiyaki by his side in case he gets hungry. He always leaves crumbs on his desk and Byakuya has seen him countless times swiping away the crumbs and spilling the black ink. He can be hopeless sometimes.
Byakuya doesn't give into primal urges. The last time he was sexually engaging with someone was with his wife but on the rare occasion he gets the desire to take something from his lieutenant that no one else can have. Renji is still a virgin. He hasn't been with anyone before Byakuya knows this because he told him and it is very rare that Renji will lie to Byakuya. However lately something has been causing Byakuya to think of him more and more like someone he could get sexual gratification from. Rangiku Matsumoto once rudely explained to Byakuya while she was intoxicated that he would not be so high strung if he got "laid". Byakuya assumed she meant if he had sex.
He can't explain what it is that makes him so aroused when he looks at Renji. He is very attractive and Byakuya does very much enjoy his long bright red hair. No one has hair like that in the soul society. It is strictly his but his hair is not a reliable reason why Byakuya feels the need to dominate him in a sexual manner.
It has never happened like that before but Byakuya started to wonder if it's because he feels as if Renji is slipping away from him. If he loses Renji because he keeps pushing him away or denying how he feels about him then Byakuya will never get him back. He won't give Byakuya a second chance because he knows that he has broken Renji's heart and he wants to repair it. Byakuya wants to make Renji happy and even though it may sound odd he wants to show him that he loves him and there really is only one way he is going to know how to do that :::::
Byakuya sat listening to the women he was surrounded by. They each had some kind of opinion on what Byakuya should do in order to "woo" Renji. It really wasn't as easy as it seemed. Byakuya had no idea about romance. He had no idea what it meant to be sexually suggestive in a loving or decent way that would project that he was interested in bedding down with his lover for the point of getting "laid" and letting Renji know that he did love him but he needed to know what exactly that love meant first and in Byakuya's experience the ones in the soul society that knew something about love was the women so there he was.
The fact that he was in his own manor was annoying. He had told Yachiru countless times not to hold meetings in the manor but his words were ignored and no matter what he used as a locking method they always found a way in. It irritated Byakuya but then it was really rather :: pleasing that his manor was filled with life and noise as opposed to it only being him there. He would have to leave the lectures until later first he was on a mission.
It was no secret that Byakuya and Renji entered a relationship. It was just nobody cared because it was Byakuya. If it were someone with some kind of sex drive and was romantic maybe it may have been considered "the hot topic". He was grateful it didn't get that type of attention it made talking to the woman's society a bit easier without having to answer questions rather then asking them.
"I don't think I quite understand"
Byakuya had been told many things in a very short time. He had plenty of conflicting messages and he just needed them to give him a very basic idea of what kind of gesture Renji was going to appreciate and he needed some idea on how he was going to be romantic about it.
"Renji's a hot guy he can have anyone he wants and really :: anyone. But he chose you surely that's got to make you want to love him?"
Byakuya had already explained it once or twice to Rangiku that he did love Renji he just wasn't sure if he was in love with him or if he was in the process of falling in love with him.
"I do love him I just don't know if I am in love with him. I can't remember the feeling anymore. I need to know how to distinguish the difference between love and being in love. That is my concern and more to the point what am I supposed to do to insure that I don't lose Renji. I need a gesture to show him that I care for him and want to be intimate with him"
Byakuya could see the blush on the faces of every single woman in the association they were swooning again. He was starting to regret seeking their council. But he didn't have much of a choice. Byakuya didn't know or remember how to be romantic but he wanted to give Renji something, anything to make sure that Renji didn't call their relationship quits. He wanted to be sure that he was not going to lose his relationship.
"Well it's easy to figure that out Byaku- If someone told you that Ren-Chan had died how would you feel?"
He didn't want to imagine such a thing and he certainly didn't expect Yachiru to suggest something of the sort but for the intentions and purposes of discovering how deep Byakuya's feelings ran for Renji he would give an answer. He imagined it in his head. Standing before commanding captain Kyoraku and hearing him tell him that Renji had died. Byakuya had never cried in his life time. Not even as a child. He was able to show every other emotion but not sadness. Even when Hisana died he shed no tears but imagining what he had in his head felt as if he had his heart torn out of his chest.
"Lost. Sad. I would find it difficult to do much. I wouldn't be able to accept anyone as a lieutenant. I would be in mourning and I believe that my heart would break once again. I would have lost someone that I was comfortable with and someone I trusted"
"And why would you feel that?"
Nanao Ise asked him
"Because he is someone I share my existence with. He is the one that is closest to me. He and I exist together. We have an understanding, mutual respect and loyalty"
"And if someone took him away from you? If someone ended his life and you were never going to see or hear him again"
Rangiku continued as Byakuya was starting to bare his heart in regards to Renji. He couldn't believe what he was feeling. What he was being forced to confess. He had kept so quiet for so long and the women were making him realize his heart and what Renji meant to him.
"I would kill them. I don't exist without him. No one will take away Renji from me I refuse to allow that to happen"
"Why's that? Love is pointless and meaningless right Captain Kuchiki? It has no place in the soul society. Would it really matter if Renji died. He is just a street rat after all. No family. He has friends but eventually they will get over it. Why should you give a damn what happens to him? Your cold. You'll move on. You're not in love with him"
Byakuya turned his attention to Sui-Feng and he glared at the woman with an almost fury in his eyes. His words seemed to burn into him. He knew that she was just saying it considering her admiration and love for Yoruichi Shihoin. They were pushing him to be honest.
"It is not pointless. If he died I would die too. My soul and heart are his and I refuse to allow anyone to deny me of having his. I'm his family and I'm willing to sacrifice everything I believe in for him. I'm willing to give him everything he needs and wants"
"Because you love him?"
Rangiku asked. Byakuya shook his head and looked at the blonde woman's eyes.
"No. Because I am in love with him"
The women in the room cheered with delight. They may not have accomplished much in their meetings but this was a triumph and Byakuya was a slight bit impressed that they were able to bring that out in him. He didn't think they were going to be able to do that to him but they really didn't surprise him.
"I have to go. Please excuse me"
Byakuya didn't want to waste any time. He wouldn't use it being in the soul society unless there was some kind of threat but he needed to get to Renji. He needed to get to him before Renji decided it just wasn't worth it any more. Before he decided that the heart break was just not worth having. Byakuya had no choice he had to step up and exclaim his heart or he was going to lose Renji forever and he wasn't willing to let him go. Byakuya was a very proud man and he knew that if he let Renji go it wasn't just his heart that was going to suffer.
He appeared in the division six barracks and instantly Renji stood and approached Byakuya holding some papers.
"Ah, there you are. I have a lieutenants meeting in like an hour. I have a bunch of paper work to get to Kyoraku before he gets drunk and forgets who I am again. The last time he did that I had to convince him that he actually was the head captain and I wasn't Ichigo. Useless bastard. So I might be gone for a couple of hours since they are deciding on whether or not to form the men's association. I really see no point since that's pretty much what happens in the public bat:::"
Byakuya grabbed Renji by the neck of his shihakusho and pulled him in close to him
"Shut up and kiss me you idiot"
Byakuya kissed Renji with force. He felt his whole body come alive at the embrace. It was like a spark of electricity and Byakuya was overwhelmed with a feeling of desire and lust and just want. A want to be with Renji not just for a moment. Not just for a year but for the rest of their existences together.
"Wow :: Byakuya? is that really you"
"Don't patronize me. Leave your paper work behind and come with me"
Byakuya waited until Renji had his paperwork placed down and he took the others hand and led him to the back of the barracks and out to the sakura courts that led a long path to the rear of the Kuchiki manor. It was the only place they could speak without anyone over hearing. Everyone was already aware of their relationship but what Byakuya had to say needed to be said in private and Renji needed to be the first to hear it.
"Forgive me. I know this hasn't been easy on you and I don't know why you have been so forgiving towards me. Renji I apologize for making you wait for four years. You have shown me that you are in love with me and that is more than anyone has ever done. I'm asking you to give me a second chance."
Byakuya had never sounded so desperate but he was desperate he was desperate that he was going to lose the only one that had ever been in love with him and he knew if he didn't change to make sure Renji knew how much he loved him then he was never going to see the red heads face again and that :: scared Byakuya.
"Byakuya. I knew what I was getting myself into when I asked you to be with me. I knew that it was going to take you a long time to see and feel what I feel for you. I know I look stupid sometimes but I'm really not that dumb. Feeling what you feel for me in your kiss. That single action :: I would never leave you Byakuya. Ever"
"I wasn't at risk of losing you? I pushed you away and denied my feelings to you and yet you remain loyal"
Byakuya was dumfounded by it. He knew Renji was loyal to him but he was sure that he had broken Renji's heart so many times that he was going to tell Byakuya that it was over between them. Through the worst times and the best times Renji was by his side and remained right there.
"Are you kidding? Byakuya the reason I am here is because of you. I wanted to surpass you and I wanted to train until I was at your level. That desire became admiration and then that became love. Why would I leave you. Jeez :: I love you. I know all this love stuff doesn't come easy for you. I know you hide what you feel but it's me Byakuya. You don't have to hide anything from me and you also don't have to say anything that you don't feel. I just want you to be honest with me. That's all"
Byakuya felt a sense of relief when Renji said that to him. He hadn't bothered to understand how Renji saw their love and their friendship. He had assumed that Renji was hoping they would have a romantic and passionate life together he didn't realize that all Renji was looking for was for Byakuya just to be honest with him and Byakuya was going to be. He was grateful that the woman's association was able to bring out what Byakuya really felt for Renji or it was just going to remain dormant.
Even though Renji said he would never leave Byakuya he was still concerned that Renji would grow to resent him if he didn't tell Renji the truth about their relationship and how Byakuya honestly felt about it.
"I forgot a long time ago how to love another. I think that since I found out that Hisana loved me but was not in love with me I was in fear that it would happen again. That I would settle down with someone but because of who I am and my personality and pride they would never be in love with me. I didn't want that. When you came to me to ask me if we could be together I didn't know if you were in love with me but four years on I see this for what it really is"
Byakuya took hold of Renji's hand and he rested up to his own chest so Renji could feel his heart and he did the same. He rested his palm against Renji's chest to feel his heart. They would always beat in time with one another's. They were sharing the same heart. Byakuya and Renji were so close to each other. There was little that would come between them and no matter whether it was as lovers, friends or comrades Byakuya knew that Renji would always be the other part of his soul and vice versa.
"We were always in a relationship. Even before you suggested that we be together. I was just too stubborn to understand that. You didn't ask me to be your lover because you were sexually attracted to me or even because you are in love with me. You asked me because you knew all along that we were no ordinary captain and lieutenant pair. You knew about this"
Byakuya looked into Renji's eyes and he saw the wink that Renji gave him. He had admitted that he always took Renji's intelligence for granted but for him to see that their hearts had been linked from the moment they passed one another in the hall that day they first met was something that stunned Byakuya but made him realize just how amazing his lieutenant :: his lover really was.
"My heart has always belonged with yours Byakuya. It was always going to take time for you to see it and feel it. I don't mean that as an insult at all. You kept your guard up but I knew the longer I stayed with you the more you would see it too and now you do. Whether you love me or not. It doesn't matter. I know I will always have your heart and you will always have mine"
Byakuya dropped his hand and his arms circled Renji's waist and they shared another long and deep kiss. He had never been so proud in his existence. Byakuya was proud to have Renji as his companion in every aspect of his life. Renji was without a doubt the one he was destined to be with and the one that was so madly in love with him he fought every emotional battle just to be with Byakuya. If that wasn't love then Byakuya didn't know what was.
"I do love you Renji. I am in love with you"
"That's all I wanted, baby, just for you to be honest with me and yourself. Thank you"
A very light rouge scattered over Byakuya's cheeks when he heard Renji call him baby. He knew that it was a term of endearment from the human world and something one would say to someone that they loved. Byakuya knew that Renji would be satisfied for the rest of his life now. He would recall those words when he needed to remind himself what Byakuya felt for him. Byakuya was a proud man and he was not someone that laid down his sword and prepared to die. He fought with every bit of his soul and heart. He destroyed those who dishonored him and his name. He ripped those apart that made insult of his pride and he would do it over and over again if need be. He was going to do the same for Renji.
Renji had spent every day since they met fighting to show Byakuya the truth and he was far too caught up in trivial things like paper work to notice that the one that he needed. The one that loved him right to the very depth of his core was right there in front of him. He had giving Byakuya his love every day and in every aspect. Byakuya took a while to see it but Renji gave him love. True and honest love that wasn't just in a way of friendship. Renji was truly in love with him and so Byakuya was determined to make sure that every single day Renji would know that he loved him too. If it was through the words "I love you" or a gesture to show it. Byakuya was going to make sure Renji knew for a certain he would always be loved by him.
"I have something that I want to ask you"
"Anything. Go ahead Byakuya"
"My manor tends to become quiet and rather chilly at night time. I don't particularly like it being either. Would you consider spending the night with me. Not just tonight. Every night?"
Byakuya saw Renji's smile turn into a rather goofy grin that was a replica of any time he was feeling cocky or overwhelmed with joy. He really wished Renji didn't do that because he made it so obvious what he was thinking. Byakuya liked the mysteriousness Renji held about him but that silly face gave it all away. Renji was going to say yes.
"You're asking me to move in with you Byakuya?"
"Yes. I am asking you to live with me. I don't have to remind you that this is our relationship do I? what we discuss and what happens in there isn't for any one else's knowledge"
Byakuya saw the grin disappear and even Renji's eyes became serious. He always ran very hot and cold. One minute he could be overwhelmed with happiness and the next he could be depressed or angry. It was something that just made Renji, Renji.
"Give me a little credit Byakuya. I'm not going to go running my mouth to anyone. You really think I want to share you or anything you say or do with anyone else? My lips are sealed. I don't want anyone knowing I get to see the you behind the walls"
Byakuya was already certain of that but it was in his nature to make himself perfectly clear. He wanted it to be known that when he said something he meant it and it was not to be taken lightly or disregarded. It could have been a warning or just a word of advice but no matter what he said it was serious and honest.
"Do you want to see the room?"
"Of course. But ah :: don't you want to go back to work?"
He shook his head. The paper work wasn't going anywhere. It was time for Byakuya to give Renji what they had both been holding back from. Byakuya was ready to make their long term relationship intimate.
"No. I'm ready Renji :: I'm ready if you are ::"
Byakuya was understandly nervous. He had never been intimate with a man and he forgot a long time ago what it felt like being a woman so it was like starting all over again and Renji hadn't been with anyone before so they were both going to be apprehensive but neither of them gave up on anything. They would figure it out together.
"I'm ready Byakuya"
He couldn't remember even that nervous when he was a teenager and touched himself for the first time. It was exciting and yet it made him anxious because he really didn't understand what it was going to mean for the future for him. It turned out he wasn't all that sexual but this was the same feeling. He didn't know how it was going to happen but he did know that he wasn't going to give up his dominance.
Byakuya took hold of Renji's hand again and he led him through the back of the manor and to the bedroom that they would share together. He could see by Renji's expression that he was really impressed by the room. Byakuya knew that Renji always slept on a futon so the bed was going to be a pleasant surprise for him.
When they were inside the room Byakuya closed the door behind them and he locked it. No one would ever go in his room but he just wanted to make sure. He pursed his lips to Byakuya's and he kissed his lover slowly and tenderly. As their lips continued to meet and their embrace deepened they started to undress one another. Their Shihakusho's were loosened and removed. The black material fell to the floor in two heaps. Byakuya could see that Renji was a little surprised to see that he didn't wear anything underneath his uniform. Renji didn't either but he understood why his lover was shocked.
"I find underwear to be uncomfortable"
"And I can see why. I'm not going to lie Byakuya. Looking at you like this is turning me on. A lot"
"That is abundantly obvious as my arousal should be too"
Byakuya felt his lips tingling as Renji kissed him deeply. He was very hard and he could feel Renji was too and their lengths collided together. Byakuya pushed against Renji until the red head was flat on his back. Byakuya positioned himself between Renji's legs and looked down into those red brown wine colored eyes.
This was the moment that seemed to stop in time. They were the only two people that existed. This was the man that he loved and the man that loved him. Byakuya reached over without taking his eyes off of Renji and he grabbed hold of the sakura infused moisturizer he used on his flesh and pumped a good dollop into the palm of his hand and began to lather up his very stiff length.
There was a deep groan that escaped Renji's throat and Byakuya could see Renji's rigid shaft jump as those deep eyes focused on Byakuya's hand and what it was doing.
"Do you enjoy this Renji. Seeing me touch myself?"
"Fuck yes. I mean ::"
"No. It's fine. Be honest"
"Fuck yes. It's the hottest thing I have ever seen"
Byakuya was rather flattered despite the crudeness. He wanted Renji to be honest and he heard the honesty and he heard that arousal in the back of Renji's throat that came out as a deep purr. Byakuya pulled his hand from his lubricated length and he pressed his fingers against his lovers entrance. The thick ring of nerves and muscles contracted against his finger as he started to push it in. Renji arched his back and Byakuya pushed his digit deep in side Renji's asshole. He started to move it around until he started to feel Renji relax as he was stretched.
"You look as though you are going to release"
"Ahmmn and I'm trying really hard not to Byakuya but you really did a number on my arousal by stroking your cock in front of me"
It was a very strange to Byakuya. He never imagined that such a thing would turn him on. He was a refined and dignified gentleman and he really hadn't expected Renji's dirty mouth to turn him on but it did. Hearing Renji say such a thing about him and what he affect Byakuya's body and actions had on him was certainly making him even more aroused. It turned him on when Renji talked dirty to him and he really was surprised by it but he was going to encourage it further.
Byakuya pushed his second finger into Renji and another loud moan was released from his lovers mouth again and the tight muscles clenched his thrusting fingers. Beneath Byakuya was a man he loved. His eyes and face were so lewd and just begged him for more. The blush on Renji's cheeks and how hot his body was had turned Byakuya's anxiety and nervousness into something far more wonderful. He was filled with lust and love. Renji was begging for him and Byakuya was going to give Renji exactly what he wanted.
"What do you want Renji?"
"Ahhn Byakuya don't toy with me. Just do it"
"If you want it. Then do something about it"
Byakuya's voice was deep and almost harsh but there was something empowering and sexy dominating Renji in such a way. He was taller then him and built bigger then him and yet Renji was putty in his hands. It was ecstasy. To see Renji like that. To see him sprawled out on his bed, hair wild, tattoos on show and body so obedient to Byakuya ::: there was no greater joy but when Renji moved and forced Byakuya's fingers out of him and he turned and got on his chest and knee's it was all over for Byakuya.
Having Renji so desperate for him. Just wanting so badly for Byakuya to be inside of him was just too much. Byakuya wasn't going to be able to hold back. Renji moved his hand between his legs and he took hold of Byakuya's very hard and very heated dick and he guided it to his pulsing entrance. Byakuya watched as Renji forced the head of his member inside of him. Byakuya gasped and he grabbed Renji's hips with a tight grip. When Byakuya was inside of Renji he began to thrust in and out of him.
They both released such sinful sounds of lust and joy and passion. Byakuya thrusted deep and hard into Renji's body and relished in the echo of his name escaping the red head's lips. They were in unison with their movements and they were both close to their releases. It was too good and it had been more or less the first time for them both so it was impossible to hold back.
"Byakuya :: baby, you're gonna make me cum"
"Then do so. My love"
Whether it was the actions or the words something made Renji scream out in blissful pleasure and caused his muscles to hold Byakuya in tightly as he streamed jets of his release inside of Renji's heated and pulsing body.
It took at least five minutes after the fact for them both to calm down. Byakuya pulled out of Renji and they both collapsed onto their backs slightly dazed but in a wave of euphoric ecstasy.
"That was amazing Byakuya. I just :: no :: there are no words for it"
"I have made you speechless? I was unaware that I could perform miracles during intercourse"
Byakuya was not in the habit of telling jokes but when the opportunity was just too obvious he would make one every now and then but only in Renji's presence.
"Heh, very funny"
"It was incredible Renji. I have never felt something like that before. Thank you for choosing me to be your first intimate relationship"
Byakuya wasn't sure how else to word such a delicate subject but clearly Renji approved judging by the loving kiss he had given him. Byakuya lightly stroked Renji's cheek and kissed his forehead. Byakuya wasn't sure if he had thoroughly shown Renji that he loved him but he was confident that it was a good start.
"I was assigned to be your lieutenant. I chose to be your friend but falling in love with you was out of my control"
"I love you Renji"
"I love you too Byakuya"
Byakuya felt the love in Renji's words and he felt them in his own words. Whether it was going to be another four years or forty years or four hundred years Byakuya was going to spend each day showing Renji that they had a love that couldn't be taken and couldn't be replicated.