A/N Ok I did this in 30 minutes so it isn't that great, it's the part in New moon when Edward leaves just changed around a bit hope you enjoy. ( Oh and most of the flashbacks are fake)
Song- Paralyze Artist- Tila Tequila
DONT OWN ANYTHING!!! (Just rearanged some stuff)
Bold-Song
Regular-Bella present
Italics-Flashback
There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, shifting through them for their real intent.
"You…don't…. want me?" I tried out the words confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
Every time you messed with my head
all the things you did and you said
"No"
See my scars spell out your name and,
You're paralyzing me
My whole mind shattered and my heart broke I stared uncomprehending into his eyes. He couldn't mean it could he? But he has said it clearly and so surely I had no other option but to believe him he didn't want me.
"Bella I'll be back as soon as possible I love you" Edward had to go hunting and I had to stay here and wait for him I had no other choice he had to tame his thirst.
"I love you to, hurry back."
"I will" I could see the pain in his eyes of leaving me. But he'd return.
Every time you left me behind
all these tears are no longer mine
I struggled to keep my voice calm and reasonable and I succeeded.
"Well that changes things" I was so numb
Because you took it all away and, you're paralyzing me
He looked away as he spoke again
"I'll always love you…in a way, but what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm… tired of pretending to be something I'm not, I'm not human Bella" He stared back at me, his eyes cold. I barely listened to him.
"I told you I'm not going anywhere; don't be afraid as long as it makes you happy I'll always be here." Edward smiled down at me and kissed my forehead."
I smiled back at him 'Forever' I thought to myself
"Don't" I barely whispered "don't do this" I felt a tear slide down my cheek and force the others back
Memories, they fall apart, whenever you're inside my head
Take my tears they say a lot since you're the one who put them there
He was silent and then spoke "You're not good for me Bella" He turned his earlier words around. I stared at him feeling the worst pain I'd ever felt before
When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found
I opened my mouth to say something. Anything! That could make him stay but his eyes were already decided.
But I still hung on just hoping for my love to come around
"If that's what you want" I finally got out. He nodded once
Every time you messed with my head
all the things you did and you said
My body got even more numb if that was possible
See my scars spell out your name and, you're paralyzing me
"I would like to ask one favor though, if that's not to much" he said
I wonder what he saw on my face because something flickered across his face in response. But before I could identify it he'd composed his features.
"Anything" I vowed
"If I asked you to do something for me would you do it" I asked cuddling into his arms
"Anything" he leaned down and kissed my forehead
"Don't ever leave me"
Every time you left me behind
all these tears are no longer mine
"Don't do anything reckless or stupid and please forget about me"
Because you took it all away and, you're paralyzing me
"I mean I'm thinking of Charlie of course, he needs you, take care of yourself-for him"
"I will" I whispered.
"And I'll make you a promise in return, I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back; I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on in life without any interference from me; it will be as if I never existed."
I miss those times when things were simple, and you're heart was mine
I just don't understand how you could throw it all away
My knees started to shake and the trees wobbled. I could hear the blood pounding in my ears. His voice sounded further away.
He smiled gently at me "Don't worry. You're human- your memory is no more then a sieve, time heals all wounds for your kind."
"And your memories" it sounded like something was stuck in my throat.
"Well- I won't forget, but my kind…we're very easily distracted" he smiled a little smile that didn't reach his eyes.
When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found
But I still hung on, just hoping for my love to come around
"Well that's everything I suppose. Don't worry we won't bother you again" The plural took my attention.
"Alice isn't coming back" I realized I didn't make a sound but he seemed to understand me and shook his head slowly.
Every time you messed with my head
all the things you did and you said
"Alice is gone" my voice filled with disbelief. I didn't want to believe it
See my scars spell out your name and, you're paralyzing me
"Edward I want to be with you and only you"
"Same for me love"
"Then change me now Edward there's nothing to lose" His eyes were hesitant then he shook his head no.
Every time you left me behind
All these tears are no longer mine
My face flashed with anger and his face with pain.
Because you took it all away and you're paralyzing me
"Why didn't you just bite me then" my voice was quiet and he shook his head. "You knew there'd come a day when you didn't want me" my voice rose a little. "You lied to me"
Look up in the sky.
It's a bird, it's a plane.
"Goodbye Bella" he voice was quiet and his face filled with pain. My tears finally spilled.
Naw it's just me again, cryin' in the rain.
I can't figure out why I feel so ashamed.
"Wait" I choked out the word, reaching for him my legs finally moving forward.
I thought he was reaching for me too but his cold hands locked around my wrist and pinned them to my side...
You pushed me so hard, that I feel so insane.
Every time I'd cry you ain't there to wipe my eyes.
He leaned down and pressed his lips very lightly to my forehead for the briefest instant. My eyes closed and I breathed in his scent probably the last time I'd smell it. And I think he did the same.
Whenever I was scared you weren't by my side.
The only thing it did was it made me wise.
"Edward I can't dance" I said quietly there was a brief movement and I realized I was on his feet. He smiled down.
"Now you can"
"Take care of yourself" He whispered
So I guess it's all good cause it kept me alive.
The wind blew a little and I opened my eyes
He was Gone.
When I needed you the most you were, nowhere to be found
With shaky legs ignoring the fact my action was useless I followed him into the forest his path disappeared instantly, there were no footprints.
But I still hung on, just hoping for my love to come around
I had to keep going if I stopped love, meaning, life…over. My head was pounding and tears blurred my vision
Every time you messed with my head
"I'll never leave you" his voice echoed in mind
All the things you did and you said
see my scars spell out your name and, you're paralyzing me
It was dark now and I tripped on something. I stayed down and curled up into a ball.
Every time you left me behind
I cried for all I was worth I never knew a person could have so many tears.
All these tears are no longer mine
I was no longer Bella, just a body with no soul I'd found my reason for living and now it was gone, I was gone. Edward took that away
Because you took it all away and, you're paralyzing me