I need to let you know
These thoughts… They've been swirling around in my mind all week
Attacking the armor I carefully wove around my heart
Forcing me to rethink, question myself, over and over again
in the same vicious cycle
You know…
When I first saw you
It wasn't your breathtaking appearance that got me
There was something more about you.
A harrowing darkness that chilled my bones and drew me to your side
I started to get to know you better.
Like, we'd talk sometimes; little snippets of conversation that weren't as bereft of meaning as they looked
And the more time I spent around you, with you…
The more addicted I became.
Your very presence made me more alert
My senses afire, waiting for something that would never happen
I felt desire grow in a dark recess of my heart
You were like a drug, the effects of which I couldn't quite kick.
I soon began to lavish every single one of my seconds on you
I wonder, don't you ever get tired of running through my dreams every night?
I was too far gone to ever come back. But I didn't want to.
I would've cut my own limbs off for you, had you not made a series of mistakes that led to me turning away from you, hearing the sounds of you ripping my sanity to pieces!
…And not wanting to do anything about it.
You seemed to delight in irritating me, bringing into full light the flaws that made me slowly hate you. The pleasurable effects you normally had on me slowly turned poisonous, and I began to loathe you. I hated how you made me feel!
I raised my hand to strike you, and you glared back. Watching. Smirking. Knowing that I didn't have the strength to do it.
We used to be friends, then maybe lovers, and now?
We aren't even strangers.
I've wiped you best as I can from my memory. Cleansed my body of your lingering touch.
But I still can't forget about my feelings towards you…
You heard me, loud and clear. Now it's your turn to do something about it.
…I still love you, World of Warcraft…