Little Girl!
As Derek topped the hill finishing the last leg of his evening run in the park he had decided to take a rest on the bench near the playground because after his second time around the running trail he had noticed a little girl that looked about 5 or 6 years old who looked so familiar….but he had continued on with his run and with each lap he would nonchalantly glance over to look at the little girl and then skim the adults looking for another familiar face so by his eighth lap it had brought him to his resting spot in front of the little playground. He continued for a few minutes skimming the crowd looking to see if maybe he would recognize who was with the little girl, but to no avail he saw no one.
The next evening like clockwork Derek went for his evening run and as he come upon the clearing of the little playground Derek skimmed the area looking to see if maybe he would see the little girl again and of course their she was swinging with another little girl just grinning and laughing….so Derek decided to set for a few and see if maybe he had overlooked someone from the day before. He couldn't shake the familiarness this little girl made him feel, it was as if she where a vision from a dream he had long ago gave up on ever happening!
"Daddy….Daddy wake up its time to play…..mommy's making us pancakes and said today is going to be a lazy day just us three! I grin at my little princess who looks so much like her momma and has her eagerness as well. We manage to make our way down to the kitchen and of course like the vision she always has been to me she stands there looking as beautiful as the day I first met her all those years ago across from the BAU conference table…."
I am brought out of my daydreaming when I hear that voice….I know that voice, it's a voice I have longed to hear for years…..I search everywhere looking for its owner, but all I see is the little girl running to someone not in my view. As I stand to get closer that's when I see her….my heart stops….I cannot breath, please Dear God tell me I am not dreaming that she's really their….please let it not be a….but wait the little girl….her….yes her….before I realize it I am running as hard as I can towards them….as I get closer to them I manage to get her name out, but she doesn't respond although the little girl turns to look at me and then looks up at her mother who has stopped dead in her tracks by the time I grab her to turn her to me. That's when I see why this little girl looks so familiar she's "ours" the perfect combination of her mother's beautifulness mixed with my mocha skin has produced this lovely little princess…..it all starts to make since now why she disappeared….why she left me without so much as a word!
I see the tears in her eyes starting to form as I hold on tight to her afraid she may disappearing into nowhere again…..it's all started to come back to me again when she left me before she had tears in her eyes….I had hurt her in the worst way possible….the one thing she wanted I denied her….God I was a stupid foolish man for denying her love…..I do not know why I just couldn't tell her I loved her more than anything in the world that day, but now that I look in her eyes all I see is another woman who is definitely not in love with me anymore and who I am a complete stranger to!
Without so much as a word from myself or her I let her go as she turns to continue on I didn't know if I should follow her or just let her go one more time….my daughter turned to look at me one more time letting go of her mother's hand walking back towards me I squatted to her level as she placed her little hand of my check saying we love you daddy it's time to come home…."WAKE UP DADDY!"
The end