Title: In the end, the sky will clear up
Author: Mika Kashii Haine
Band: The Gazette
Pairing: Reita x Kai
Rating:PG-13
Genre: Angst, fluff
Chapters: 1/?
Warning:None really.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in or The Gazette.
Summary: And somewhere along the line I fell in love with him.
Comment: Right now I'm kinda just experimenting with my writing. So please read and comment. Tell me what's good and what's not. Then I can perfect my next story. Or in this case. Next chapter.


Messed up head

My life feels like it's falling apart. Piece by piece. It surely crumbles. I think it's my own hypersensitivity. But what if it is not? All the things that I can't do, it is like everything I've ignored, it is catching up to me. I have a good life, great career, friends and a lover. There are no major problems in my life. Yet, I have this feeling of falling apart. What if Kai doesn't love me anymore? If I could never play my bass again? Then what would I do? This comfortable life I would have to give up then. Who would then like me? Love me? Is there even anyone who would want to be near me again? Cause without my bass, I don't think there is anything left of me. How there is nothing I can do. It pisses me off. Makes me want to cry. This is like a rainy day that never ends.

"Why so blue?" A cheery drummer threw at me as he walked towards the fridge. Bended down and got out a half empty orange juice. Drinking from the carton. Spilling down his chin. Down on his naked chest. Standing there all sexy in his cute boxers. Or was it just me who thought Kai was sexy? Wiping it off with the back of his hand. Cracking his head on the side. Looking at me. His eyes narrowed slightly, giving the younger man more of a serious face.

"Nee, something wrong, Reita-kun?" Kai asked me. A little frightened. His feet turning and walking toward myself who was seated on the floor.

Knees pulled up under my chin. Arms resting on the knees. Head resting on my arms. And with my back against the couch. With hazy, blank eyes I kept staring at Kai.

I wanted to say, "Of course nothings wrong, Kai". But all I could do was think about it. Think about what was happening in my life. That I should answer Kai and not just stare at him like the idiot I felt like. But to think I wouldn't ever be able to play bass again had made me more or less speechless.

Earlier today I had tried. All that came out were high-pitched squeals. Everything I tried failed. I had been worried and anxious before. But I've always been able to play. So why now? Nothing is really wrong anyway. It's just in my head, right? This shouldn't be happening. I have always been solid. Like Kai on lives. If something happened to us, at least Kai kept going. Such a reliable person. Even though he lost too many things. He was still really a solid person. He is the one to trust. I may have known Uruha the longest. And it is easy to talk to him. Easy being around him. But Kai. Kai... he's the one who's always been there these last years. Kai always helped me through. He talked to me. Reasoned with me. Hugged me. Since he was always there, we got close. And somewhere along the line I fell in love with him. After many happenings, we got together. We have done this and that. I am feeling confident enough to say our hearts are connected in a very special way. Still. I never find the right time. To say those three words, "I love you". Whenever I try, those bastards always get stuck in my throat.

Without noticing, lost in my thoughts as I often were, Kai had squeezed himself behind me. Sneaked his warm hands around my waist. Leaning his head on my shoulder.

"Reita, I can tell something is bothering you. So just tell me already." Soft and shaky, he whispered. Pressing me even closer to his chest. All the way until there were no space left between our bodies.

If my heart won't settle down. I can't play bass. Which will make me unable to stay in the band. To stay beside Kai. Just like that my life is thrown out of it's pace. What to do?

Kai's fingers tilted my head up and back. His rough hands reminded me that I had to get him some hand lotion. Abruptly pulled from my thoughts as the dark headed man pushed his soft lips towards mine. An innocent kiss. The kind of light kiss you give each other before hurrying off to an appointment. Or in front of the other band members before work starts. Out in public. The times when a deep kiss isn't suitable. But not less affectionate. He pulled away. Leaving me flushed, blushed and warm at heart. Gazing into his loving eyes. I just fall deeper for him every time. Makes me want to scream those three words and 5 others. Have the courage.

Before I knew it, Kai pressed his lips against mine once more. Running his hot and wet tounge along my bottom lip. Parting my lips. Pushing his tongue in. Rolling it with mine. Entangling into the moment. A warm hand slipped under my shirt. Caressing my abdomen. The other hand tugged at the hem of my shirt. Like a child. Licking my bottom lip before pulling away a second time.

Putting me on the edge like that, I might as well.

"I... love you... Don't leave me alone ever!" Shaky , nervous and stumbling through the sentence. As my half glazed eyes stared out into the room. Full of anxiety. I felt Kai's chest stopped moving. Was he shocked or..

Your eyes widened a little. But your smile came so fast. I barely got to see it before you pushed me over. I fell on the floor with a heavy thump. Before I could utter an "ouch", Kai engaged me in a deep and passionate kiss. Sticking his tongue in my already open mouth. Sucking on my tongue, lips. Exploring everything. Sucking my breath. Unwillingly, we finally pulled apart to do something silly as breathe. The younger man laid on top of me, held me closely. I returned the hug. Before he let go and looked into my eyes. Just an inch apart and he whispered with a happy and lovely voice.

"I've waited so long. I love you too, Akira."