Disclaimer: I do not own Hannah Montana or anything else I may use in this fanfic. Believe me if I did own HM then it would be soooooo much better and it probably wouldn't be on Disney.

Hi guys it's me Taylor. Sorry for not doing the normal intro but I'm kinda in a hurry to put this up before Mandy gets back from work. I've got a very special birthday surprise for her and I want to make sure she doesn't see it before she's supposed to. So anyway I thought about this while I was setting up Mandy's surprise and had to write it down. Tell me what you guys think and if you like it we'll continue it. So I hope you enjoy it. Oh yea it's from Miley's POV. But before I start (clears throat)

WARNING THE FOLLOWING IS A FEMSLASH FIC SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT THEN DON'T F*CKIN READ IT

Ok now that that's out of the way I'd like to present to you…

Love Lost, Love Found

It all happened so quickly. It was like she was here and now she's gone. I can't believe I lost my best friend, right after I told her I loved her. Oh by the way I'm Miley Stewart, I'm just your average girl, that is until I transform myself into teen pop sensation Hannah Montana. But this isn't about me, it's about my friend Lilly. You know what let me start from when it all began. It started out as just a regular day…

Flashback to a year ago…

"Lilly!!" I ran up to my best friend as we walked out of school for the last time, well at least for a few months, "Lilly!! Wait up!!"

Lilly stopped and turned around slowly as if she was hoping it wasn't me.

"Lilly, what's up? You've been avoiding me all day."

Lilly just keeps her head down not wanting to look up.

"Lilly? Are you ok? What's wrong?" I put my hand under her chin and lifted her head up until she was looking at me and I saw tears in her eyes, "Lil, what's wrong?"

"I'm sorry I just…" She stopped when she looked away from me and I could tell she was about to cry.

"Hey come here." I wrapped her up into a tight hug and rubbed her back soothingly. 'I wish I could do more for her, god I love her so much.' I thought to myself.

"Sorry, can we go to your house? I'll tell you there." She said not letting me let her go.

I didn't say anything I just kept holding her until she let me go, then I kept one arm wrapped around her shoulder as we walked to my house. When we got there we went straight to my room and sat on my bed.

"Ok, what's wrong Lil. I haven't seen you this down since Matt Marshall stood you up." I said to her remembering the night I got home from my Hannah concert only to find her sitting on my front porch in her dress.

"I have to tell you something, but I don't want to because I know it'll make you upset."

"Lilly whatever it is can't be that bad. We can get through anything together." I told her and put my arm around her shoulder and she layed her head on my shoulder.

"But what if I wasn't here?"

"Huh? What do you mean by that?"

"I have to move."

"What? Bu… but why?"

My heart broke when those words left her mouth.

"My mom and dad are getting back together."

"Lilly that's great, but what does that have to do with you moving?"

"My dad's in New York and we're moving there to be with him because he can't come here."

"Oh," I looked down letting this information sink in, "When do you leave?"

"Tomorrow."

"TOMORROW?! Lilly how long have you known about this?"

I freaked, now I regret doing that.

"My mom told me today. We've got to pack up tonight then we're leaving in the morning."

"But… that doesn't make any since, I mean why so sudden?"

"I don't know. I don't want to but I have to."

I sat there in silence for a moment before speaking. I could feel the tears burning in my eyes almost yelling to get out. That was when I made my decision, I needed to tell her.

"Lilly I… I have to tell you something."

She looked up at me with those gorgeous eyes I had to restrain myself from doing anything I might regret.

"What?"

"Lilly I… I love you."

"I love you too, Miles. I wish I didn't have to leave."

She didn't think I meant it the way I really did. I looked back at her.

"No Lilly… I love you."

She stayed silent for a moment then I tried to put my hand on her shoulder.

"Don't…"

My heart broke when she said those words, that was until… she kissed me.

Lilly pulls away quickly, "Miles, I'm sorry."

"No, there's nothing to be sorry about."

"Yes there is, I can't do this. I can't be with you."

"What? But… we can… but you just…"

"Miley, I'm sorry I can't." then she mumbled, "No matter how much I want to."

"But…"

She put her fingers on my lips, I still remember the feeling of them. The feelings still there.

"Miley, I can't. I don't want to hurt you, not any more than I have to already."

"What do you mean, you have to hurt me?"

She covered her mouth, obviously she didn't want to say that

"Miley it's just… I'm sorry I can't tell you."

"Yes you can Lilly."

I kissed her then said

"I love you."

She looked right into my eyes as if she was hypnotized by them then said.

"I lov…"

But her phone went off.

"Crap" she looked at her phone then at me with sadness in her eyes.

"Answer it."

I regret telling her that, she looked at me for a moment longer then answered it.

"Mom?... But I thought you said… But I'm with… But Mom… No please let me…"

She closed her phone and looked at me with more tears now.

"Miley I have to leave tonight."

"What? But…"

"I'm sorry I have to go." she walked towards the door and walked out.

"No…" I followed her, "We need to talk about this."

"Miley I'm sorry."

"Would you quit saying you're sorry, you have nothing to be sorry about." We reached the front door where I could see Lilly's mom in the driveway and she honked the horn.

"Who the heck it that?" my dad said when he heard the horn.

"Lilly please." I reached out and grabbed her arm as she walked out the door.

"Miley I'm sorry, I have to go."

"No there's something you're not telling me. What's wrong? Why do you have to leave all of a sudden?"

She looked down at my hand on her arm and touched it gently before speaking, I can still feel the warmth of her hand on mine to this day.

"I'm sorry Miley, I can't tell you."

"Yes you can." I said as Lilly's mom honked the horn again, and started waving for Lilly to hurry up.

"I'm sorry Miley,"

She hugged me then whispered into my ear.

"I love you."

Those words, her last words she said to me, they still ring in my ear. She let me go and kissed me before walking off, only looking back at me once before she got into the car with her mom. I watched as they sat in the driveway for a minute, it looked like they were arguing. Then they pulled out of the driveway, I watched them drive until they were out of sight and then turned to walk in the house but then it happened.

CRASH!!!!!!!!!!

I immediately turned back around and ran down the driveway and out into the road and looked, and that's where I saw it.

"NO!!!!!!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and broke down crying.

I couldn't handle it. I couldn't handle seeing the car like that, upside down but then I saw the huge dent in the passenger side and got to my feet. I began running toward the car. I needed to know, I needed to know if Lilly was ok. I ran as fast as I could but then I was stopped in my tracks as I felt two powerful arms wrapping around me and picking me up into the air by my dad.

"NO!!! LILLY!!!!" I tried to escape my dad's grip but it was no use.

"Miley." my dad said as he cradled me into his arms and let me cry on his chest as I looked at the car with fire coming from the bottom, "Shhhh. Let it out."

"Why?!?" I screamed into his chest as the tears continued to fall.

"I don't know bud. I don't know."

I never told my dad what had happened between Lilly and I, it was just too painful to remember that day.

After that day I stayed in my room for a full week until the funeral. I walked in expecting to see the caskets opened but no they weren't. It just tore my heart to pieces, but I guess the damage from the wreck made them make that decision. After the funeral I canceled my summer tour and almost never left my house, let alone my room that whole summer. I mean how could I? I lost my best friend, the girl I loved, she wasn't coming back. I went through the whole next school year in a slump, I almost didn't pass and now here we are almost a year later.

They say that time heals the pain of losing someone you love. Ha whoever came up with that is a liar.

I didn't do anything for Hannah this whole last year. I just didn't want to go on without Lilly there. Without having Lilly there cheering me on, even though she's heard the songs probably as many times as I've sang them. I guess I could take Oliver but it still wouldn't be the same. I needed her. I need her to get through this, I need her to get through a concert, I need her here.

My dad finally convinced me to do a concert. He said it would help me get through this. I doubt it but it's worth a shot. We're on our way to The Staples Center in LA right now. I don't even know what I'm going to say about my absence, I really don't want to tell them the truth. Maybe I'll just ignore them for a while and they'll forget about it. Yea right, the paparazzi is still trying to figure out if this wig is my real hair. I need to stop thinking about this so much but I miss her so much, she was the only person I truly loved and once I told her I lost her. I still see her face sometimes. Especially in the last month, I thought I saw her walking down the street a few times but when I look out the window no one is there. Ok I need to focus… if I don't I wo…

"Hey bud? You ready?" my dad says as we pull up to the stadium.

"Yea I guess." I say before taking a deep breath before my dad opens the door and I see a sea of people all lined up waiting for me.

We stepped out of the limo and I then I feel Roxy come over in front of me and she leads the way to the entrance. Wow I haven't seen her in almost a year, it's good to see her again.

"Thanks Roxy." I say to her as we close the door behind us.

"Don't mention it sweetie it's my job." Roxy says with that signature smile of hers.

"It's really good to see you again." I give her a hug which she immediately returns.

"It's good to see you too, child. You've grown some."

"Yea and you've gotten stronger." I say as I rub my arm in fake pain.

"You ok, sweetie? How are you holding up?" she asks not even having to tell me who she's talking about.

"Yea I'm ok. I just miss her so much."

"I know sweetie, I miss her too." She hugs me again, "But your father is right, getting back on that stage will help you get through this, now come on I'll show you to your dressing room."

Roxy led me to the dressing room and left me alone. I just looked around. I had forgotten how the dressing rooms looked, then I realized something as I looked over and saw a window in the dressing room. That window, the same window Lilly climbed through when she first found out I was Hannah. I walked over and ran my hands over the glass and that memory pops into my head.

I had just walked out of the bathroom after washing my face and was patting it with a towel when I heard Lilly scream.

"HANNAH MONTANA!!!"

I immediately dropped my towel and said, disguising my voice, "Whoever you are, you better get out of here or I'll call security."

"Wait, wait no I'm sorry I was just looking for a souvenir. My name's Lilly Truscott and I'm a HUGE fan."

I cringed a little when she said that because even though I knew it was her, there was still a little shred of hope in me that thought maybe it wasn't her. I looked for something to cover my face and saw the cream pie and knew I had to do what I had to do so I picked it up and stuffed my face in it.

"Did you just shove pie in your face?"

"It's not a real pie." I said lowering my voice hoping it would throw her off some, "it's umm… a foamy facial wash… pie."

I walked over to my clothing rack and started acting like I was looking for something to wear hoping she would leave but she followed.

"What's with your voice?"

"Oh that happens with every concert." I say then she sticks her hand in and spreads the clothes to look at me.

"You give so much." she said then I quickly tried to shut the space between the clothes, "I just wish Miley were here."

"Uh Miley? Who's Miley? I don't know Miley, that's a strange name." I started babbling as I turned the clothes rack.

"Oh she's my best friend."

There was a knock at the door causing me to break away from my memory. I walked over and opened it only to find my nasally challenged acquaintance.

"Hannah!!!" Traci says in her normal nasally voice and we exchange air kisses or well she does I just stand there, "It's been so long, what happened? Why haven't you been doing any concerts?"

"I've just been having some issues this past year, I needed to take a break."

"Well it's good to have you back, we should do something after the concert to catch up. You know there's this new club and…" I interrupted her.

"Sorry Traci but I can't. Not tonight anyway. Maybe some other time?" I tried my best to be nice but she was really getting on my nerves.

"Sure. Well, I'll leave you to your work, I'll see you around. Oh by the way, where's your little friend… Lulu?"

"It's Lola and she's not here."

"Ooooh well it'll be nice without her, see you later."

Oh I wanted to punch her so badly for saying that about Lilly. And I was about to go after her and do that but one of the stage crew came up and told me I had 5 minutes before I was supposed to be on. I sighed, then walked out and over to get my head set and mic and then got in position to go on stage as I saw daddy looking over at me and giving me a thumbs up. I return the gesture then take a deep breath and let it out.

"Well here goes nothing." I say then walk out onto the stage.

After the concert

The concert actually went really well. I was a little rusty but towards the end I was my old self again. It felt good getting back on stage but every time I looked over to the side I noticed something missing, well someone. I couldn't get her out of my head. It just made me want to scream sometime but I was able to hold it in and use that energy to give all my fans the best performance I've done in a long time. Now it's time for the meet n' greet autograph session before I can go home. I walk out to the table they have set up for me and see what looks like a line that's at least 5 miles long, which is usual, but tonight I just didn't have the charisma to be my peppy self so I kinda just went through the motions.

"Hi what's your name?" I'd say to the little kid that walked up to me and they'd tell me their name.

"Aww that's a cute name." I'd say then sign my name on whatever the put in front of me and give them a smile before they walked off and then I turned my attention to the next person.

Eventually though the fatigue got to me and I kept my head down most of the time, only raising it if one of them asked me something or if they wanted a picture. The signing lasted for about an hour or so and I looked up to see there was only about 10 or 20 people left.

'Yes!' I thought to myself, I really wanted to get out of there. I went through the next few little kid fans only having to get up once for a picture, then I saw a small signature book being slide under me from a hand that had black nail polish on and a black sleeve.. I thought that was kinda weird and also the hand didn't look like a little kids hand. I studied the hand for a few seconds and determined that it was a girls hand and I looked up carefully. What I saw in front of me was a girl about my age, with all black clothes on and black hair with a few streaks of blue in her hair.

'I didn't think my music would be listened to by goth kids, she must have a sister that was too shy to get my autograph herself.' I thought to myself as I smiled at the girl who surprisingly smiled back.

"Is this for your little sister or something?" I asked before opening the signature book to the first open page.

"Nope it's for me." the girl said in a cheerful toned voice.

Then something hit me, that voice, that voice was so familiar. I looked up and studied the girl for a minute. That face, why did it look so familiar? I don't have any friends that dress like that. Then I remembered where I'd seen her face and looked at her in pure shock and some fear.

"Lilly?"

(Whispering) hi guys it's me Taylor. Sorry this is coming out so late but Mandy got off work early and I didn't get to finish this until we got back from my birthday surprise I had for her. And I'm whispering because she is asleep right now. She loved my surprise, I got us some tickets to a concert and it rocked, but that was only half my surprise, other half I can't tell you about because it could possibly get this story taken down, if you get what I mean.

Anyway enough about mine and Mandy's personal life, so how did you like this story? Like I said it just popped into my head when I was setting up the second half of Mandy's surprise and I had to type it. If you like it tell us and Mandy and I will continue it. Oh and I've decided to stay til Friday, before I go back home. It's the longest my mom and Mandy would allow me to stay because both of them want me to get ready for classes. I swear Mandy sometimes treats me li…

M: Taylor (still in bed very sleepy)

Ooops sorry guys got to go, don't want her to be tired in the morning. C ya later, bye.