DISCLAIMER: I do not own these characters Kelly Armstrong does!
Thoughts
How many times had I seen this happen? How many times had I watched Simon go after a girl? True I had never seen him care this
much about one, but that was good wasn't it? Didn't that meant that he was serious and he would treat her right? But I still couldn't shake
the feeling that it was going to kill me when they finally got together. I have never liked any girl. I have never been interested in them… ok
that's a lie. There was one girl, but it was when I was younger, before I went through this growth spurt. She kind of liked me too but when
started looking like this… well needless to say I knew better then to fall for another girl. After that I knew my place. At my brother's side.
He would go off and play the sports, go to the parties, and yes, get the girls. I would stay behind and support him the whole way. Because
back then he was all I had. He was the only one who had my back. But now… I've felt so… different. I have never felt this way in my whole
life. Because even though Simon has always been there, I could never help but wonder if he wasn't my brother would he really be this nice
to me? If we were in a different universe would he really be my best friend? i didn't know for sure, but Chloe on the other hand wasn't
related to me, wasn't my friend, we had only known each other for a week before she stayed by my side and watched and comforted me
while I attempted my first change. She didn't have to, but she did. And I was amazed. She wanted to stay, she wanted to help me. I had
never met a girl who wanted to do something nice for me. I had actually never met anyone who I wasn't related to want to help me. But she
had, and I was grateful… so so grateful. But there was something else there too, something that I couldn't shake, something that I'm sure
will be the death of me. I wanted her to accept me. I wanted her to be comfortable around me, I wanted her to want…me. But I knew that
wouldn't happen. I knew that no matter how much I wanted her, I couldn't show it. She was the one thing that my brother wanted,
therefore the one thing I could not have. Besides she obviously liked him better. No matter what staying beside me had meant, it didn't
mean she was willing to give up Simon for me. If she had the choice she would choose him. He had already chosen her. I never had a
chance. No matter how much I want her, no matter how much I need her, it didn't matter. It never mattered. I have always known that in
my world there's no place for anyone else. Likewise I know that, no matter how much it hurts me, in Chloe's world there never was, and
never will be, a place for me.