He couldn't believe it, he just couldn't.
He ignored him, but why?
Itachi knew why, he just didn't want to admit it.
He hadn't been understandable, he had been careless in a cruel way.
As a matter of fact, he had just been his normal self.
But at what price?
To lose one of his most beloved?
Even he, the allmighty Uchiha Itachi, couldn't stand that.
"I want to say sorry, but he just keeps avoiding me", the Uchiha mumbled to himself, sitting on the edge of his bed.
"But how do I explain that I didn't want to hurt him?".
He stood up and walked out of his room to look for Kisame, his Akatsukipartner and best friend in need.
He found Kisame working in his room on Samehada.
"Kisame do you have a minute?".
Kisame looked up from Samehada to look at Itachi. Directly he knew there was something wrong.
"Ofcourse, come in", he said and put Samehada away.
Itachi nodded and walked in. "Would you mind if I closed the door?".
Kisame shook his head. "Not at all".
Itachi closed the door and took a seat on the chair across Kisame's bed.
"I wanted to talk about something...", he began.
"Is it about the quarrel you have with Deidara?".
Itachi blinked. "How do you know?".
"You told it to me yesterday and we heard Deidara's yelling trough the entire hideout", Kisame replied.
Itachi bowed his head.
Kisame looked at him. "Itachi-san? Is there something wrong?".
Itachi looked up, sadness flowing trough his scarlet red sharingan eyes.
Kisame's eyes went wide, for one of the first times he saw emotion in his partner's eyes.
The same emotion that same partnered before called a 'weakness'.
"I'm sorry Kisame. Yes I, Uchiha Itachi, am sorry that I hurt him, Deidara.
He just wanted to be as my friend, while I just kept wearing my emotionless mask.
I didn't want to explain how I truly felt. That I don't want him to worry about me, because I care.
I don't want to hurt the few ones I love", Itachi said and he bowed his head again.
Kisame blinked. "That are a lot of words coming out of your mouth at once".
Itachi looked up. "That may be, but they all come straight from here", he said and pointed at his left chest, his heart.
Kisame nodded. "Have you told Deidara yet?".
Itachi shook his head. "That's the problem, I don't know how".
Kisame nodded again."Well as you know, Leader send him on a mission today.
You can tell him when he comes back so you still have some time left to figure out how".
Itachi nodded and stood up.
When he was at the door he turned around. "Didn't he went after my little brother?".
Kisame looked up and nodded.
"I see...", Itachi saidand walked out of the door to his own room.
-The Next Day-
"Itachi-san! Itachi-san!", Itachi heard Kisame yelling and knocking on his door.
He slowly got up and walked towards the door to open it. "What is it Kisame?".
Kisame's face was pale and he immediatly had Itachi's attention.
"It's about Deidara".
"What about him? What happened?", Itachi sat up straight.
"He...died. Sasuke killed him", Kisame said hesitating.
Itachi's eyes went wide and furious. Kisame slowly backed off.
Then Itachi dropped his head and looked to the ground.
"I-Itachi?", slowly Kisame walked towards him.
Itachi looked up, a small tear dripping from the corner of his eye.
"Itachi? You allright?", Kisame asked worried.
Itachi looked at him and his body dropped on the wooden floor.
Tears dripped from the Uchiha's eyes on the ground.
"I never even had a chance to say I'm Sorry..."