heartache:
Noun Emotional anguish; sorrow. See Synonyms at regret.
Sirius scoffs. They know nothing of regret. Regret is late nights, dyingwhispered promises, holding and letting go. Regret is knowing when it's not enough. And he can see the slightly wistful expression in James' eyes, lingering, lured in by a malicious green. Funny to think he's been running from greensilver his whole life. He knows that years later, James will be remembering a moment by the lake, red hair glinting in the sun. His regret is what hurts most, eats alive in the night. Sirius will remember coldscreamingshaking, waking up surrounded by warmthlove and once, just once, feeling safe. Just tonight.