A journey of realisation
Summary: Written from Quinn's POV and some of Santana's. Quinn sees the change in Santana and eventually realizes that she is a lesbian. This revelation causes her to do some thinking of her own, and realises that she has feelings for Rachel. POV's written in italics and speech in bold. Everything else normal. Set after born this way, karofsky and Santana never happens. Quintanna friendship, maybe Pezberry Friendship. Quinchel and Brittanna.
All of the juniors in Glee club had Spanish class together: Quinn, Santana, Brittany, Rachel, Kurt, Finn and Puck. Quinn was sat in her usual seat at the back of the class, not paying much attention to the lesson as she looked around to see what her fellow Gleeks were doing.
Quinn's POV
I hate Spanish, I know all classes are important and that I should try my best, I just don't care about this. It's not that I'm bad at it, because I'm actually an A student, I just, don't care. Look at Finn over there, he doesn't have a clue what's going on, he's repeating everything Mr Shue is saying but I bet he isn't saying it correctly. Then there's Puck, I can see full well that he is just staring at that new girl, what's her name…..Emma, Emily…I don't know, it doesn't matter. Kurt is probably the star of the class, I mean of course Santana can already speak Spanish, but Kurt actually learns it; that makes sense right? I know what I mean… Look at Rachel, sat right at the front of the class, teacher's pet; I bet she sits at the front of all her classes, the teachers probably have to pretend she isn't there to be able to concentrate. I don't mean that she is distracting like in a good way… I just mean… she's Rachel Berry, you know? Brittany looks so confused, I feel sorry for her, and I bet she doesn't even know what class this is. Either that or she probably thinks Mr Shue is speaking some alien language or something. Wait a minute; now that I think of it, normally Santana would be busy helping her with her work right now... She ALWAYS helps Brittany is Spanish. Ok, what the hell, are we in some sort of parallel universe right now, Santana is doing her own work, and not pressed up close to Brittany helping her instead. Weird.
I know that Santana and Brittany have had some sort of falling out recently. Brittany told me that she didn't know if they were friends anymore a couple of weeks ago. I tried to ask her what was going on but she just kept talking about dolphins and her cat reading her diary, I didn't really have a clue what she was saying. All I know is that something big must have happened between them. Normally they are joined at the hip, or should I say pinkie. Santana is always there to protect Brittany and help her with school. They are always close together, whispering and giggling their inside jokes. Best friends. Now that I think about it, they must have been something a little more than best friends. We all know that they have had sex after Brittany let it slip on the phone. Ok I wasn't in on that phone call, but Kurt and Mercedes blabbed. It's not just that though, I mean, I guess people experiment a bit in high school – I haven't, but that doesn't mean it doesn't happen right? Anyway, I have walked in on them kissing a few times in rooms that they thought were empty, in the changing rooms after practice, and then there was that sleepover… I couldn't see them, but I could hear that something was going on. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that something isn't right between them at the moment. They certainly aren't acting like best friends, or whatever they were "friends with benefits" whatever, something is going on.
Look them; Brittany looks completely confused, not that she doesn't usually look confused. This is a different type of confused though, like she's lost… not just stuck on a piece of work. Santana looks miserable, now that I think about it; she has done for the last few days. Normally she struts down the hallway just as I do, people move out of her way and if they don't…well…they do, the whole school knows not to mess with Santana Lopez. I've never seen her like this, she looks…..broken…. I think as their best friend I need to try and help them, but how. I'll talk to Brittany, it's no good talking to Santana, if I tried she would just attack me or something, she doesn't open up to people like Brittany does.
Oh crap! We have less than 10 minutes of class left and I haven't done any of this work. Time flies when you are thinking about anything but class. Better get on with this work. Poor Brittany, she won't be able to do it on her own.
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Later that day Quinn was stood at her locker, putting away the books she didn't need in exchange for the ones that she would need for the rest of the day. Suddenly she jumped at the feel of a large hand on her shoulder. Turning around she sighed when she realised who it was that had surprised her.
Quinn: oh Finn, you made me jump
Finn: so I was wondering…
Finn continued talking, but Quinn's attention was turned elsewhere when she looked down the hall way to see her two best friends standing by their own lockers (which happened to be side by side). They were obviously having an important conversation, judging by the serious looks on their faces. Finn was talking away, and Quinn wasn't listening to a word that was said, her attention solely focussed to Finn's side where she watched the two girls intently.
Quinn's POV
I wonder what's going on now. I can't see Brittany's face, but i can tell she is feeling sad or nervous, her posture isn't right. Normally she stands tall with the perfect posture, but right now… she is slumping a little. Not everyone would even be able to notice the slight difference, but I can, and I know something is up.
Normally Santana smiles when she is with Brittany, not a smirk, but a genuine smile: a smile that is only reserved for Brittany. Today there is nothing, her face is blank. If they were having a stupid fight I would imagine that Santana would at least have a scowl or a smirk written across her face, but no, nothing.
Wait a minute, what is Finn talking about….
Quinn snapped back out of her daze and tried to focus her attention back on the tall boy stood in front of her.
Quinn: I'm sorry, what did you just say?
Finn: I said…..
Quinn's POV:
Oh My Gosh, is Santana…crying? She can't be, she never cries at school. Ok, so she has cried a couple of times but that was when we were singing, something emotional, and we were all crying. This is in the hallway, in front of everybody, this can't be happening. No, it is, there was definitely a tear slip down her face.
Brittany is just walking away, what? Why isn't she comforting her…? She's just leaving… what on earth is going on, this is just…weird.
Brittany: hi Quinn
Quinn: Hey Brittany, everything ok?
Brittany: yeah, gotta go
That was weird, she was smiling and happy, but I know she wasn't. The smile on her face couldn't hide the pain in her eyes. I really need to know what's going on. A world where Brittany is sad, and where Santana isn't a bitch cannot be good.
Santana is still stood there. Does she even care that people can see her? Oh she's turning away…now she's running. To the bathroom, of course, I hope that there is no one else in there, for their sakes. Interrupting Santana when she is crying would not be a safe move.
Oh god, Finn is still here, and he's still talking. Seriously, can't that boy tell that I'm not interested in whatever it is he is rambling on about?
Finn: so what do you think?
Quinn: erm yeah
Finn: really, you think it's a good idea?
Quinn: erm, yea sure… look Finn, I've gotta go, see you later
What did I just say is a good idea? It better not be anything to do with me… oh my gosh, what if he asked me on a date or something? I'll find out later, at the moment I need to get to class, and think about a way to deal with Santana and Brittany. Why can't I take my mind of them, that's all I can think about? It's not my problem to deal with…but they are my friends…