Eventually
There are times when I hate you,
Did you ever know?
A gaze, a smile, a frown,
Mercy, I'm pleading you for,
A word, a phrase, a story,
Injuring me deeply,
Just need to close my eyes,
Escape from your consuming presence,
Flee from your crushing scent.
Screaming right into your face,
Complain about your bare existence.
There are times when I hate you,
Did you ever know?
And I know it's going to kill me,
Eventually.
There are times when I worry about you,
Did you ever know?
Yearn for taking away your pain,
Your sorrow, your dole,
Bring remedy and light,
Heal your wounded heart,
Shelter and serve you,
Carry you through the night,
There are times when I worry about you,
Did you ever know?
And I know it's going to kill me,
Eventually.
There are times when I desire you,
Did you ever know?
Stroke your frail features,
Kiss your soft lips,
Feel your tender skin on mine.
There are times when I want to hold you,
Hold you to the sun,
And I will never leave you.
Nor will you ever leave me,
My hazy daydream, will it become true,
Eventually?
There are times when I desire you,
Did you ever know?
And I know it's going to kill me,
Eventually.
There are times when I hurt you,
Did you ever know?
Tell me, why do I hurt you?
Because you hurt me before?
Because I love you too much?
Why did you hurt me?
Because I did hurt before?
Because you don't love me at all?
There are times when I hurt you,
Did you ever know?
And I know it's going to kill me,
Eventually.
There are times when I love you,
Did you ever know?
Did you recognize my desire,
My care, my sadness?
There are times when I love you,
And I know I can't take it anymore.
Waiting for your release.
There are times when I love you,
Did you ever know?
It doesn't matter,
Since I know for sure,
It is going to kill me,
Eventually.