A/N: Hey everyone! Well, the good news is, I'm ready to start the next rewrite! The bad news is, its just a prologue this week. What can I say? I'm on vacation.
Still, updates will hopefully continue on the regular. Not sure how much rewriting this book will go through but I don't anticipate too much. I've been wrong before though.
ENJOY!
Prologue
Ever heard the phrase, 'we don't know what we have until it's gone?' I have. I've heard it about every damn day in my head for the past year. Surprising given the screwed up life I've lead.
But for all the hardship in my past and present, I really did have a good life. I mean, yeah there was a lot of heavy stuff to deal with. The murder of my family, my revenge spree, my bout of intense depression. And once I finally crawled out of that hole, I stumbled into naive employment in the military and ended up tangled in a conspiracy of genocide, homunculi and philosopher's stones.
It was a lot for one person to deal with. And eventually I just wanted it all to be over. I wanted peace.
I guess I didn't think about what I would have to sacrifice to get that peace. Or what would happen after our ordeal with Dante ended. I guess I never considered that I would be alone.
Through the trials of the past, I gained more than I ever realized. I didn't just find myself and come to terms with my old mistakes. I found friends who truly understood me and were willing to fight by my side. Friends willing to sacrifice for me. Friends for whom I would sacrifice everything.
In the end, I guess I did sacrifice everything. And in turn: equivalent exchange. I got something back.
Through the bad stuff, I made unseen gains that shaped me as a person. And through the good stuff—when I saved Ed's life—I also ended up totally alone on the other side of the gate.
Life is too simple now. I miss my old life, and its stupid complexities. I miss my friends. Edward, Alphonse. All the idiots in the small, non-corrupt sector of the military, Roy Mustang included.
I even miss Envy.
It's sad that things happened this way, just as I was beginning to understand him. And admittedly I sank pretty low when I threw myself into Ed. I'd made Envy relive a nightmare of sorts from his past.
There isn't a day that goes by when I don't feel guilty for that. But I don't regret it all the same.
Equivalency is the truth.
The gate told me that. He told me it just isn't always apparent at first. But I wish it was.
If I knew what I had gained immediately I would appreciated it more. I would have savored it. I would've never complained so much. I would've loved my screwed up life. It sucks not knowing how much you have until it's too late.
Then again, I guess that's life.
It's everyone's life.
It was my life. And you know what?
I want it back.
A/N: Just a short bit. Hope you enjoyed and let's see where this rewrite takes us.
I'll have more updates about my other fanfics soon. Sorry for abandoning so many of them.
In the mean time have a good week and REVIEW!