A soft smile rouse onto my lips as they spun around in joy. Their happiness reflecting easily in their eyes. The snow fell onto their frames as they held each other. I turned a single tear falling from my eye. I had lost. He was hers to love now and I would let them be. My heart ached as the snow crunched underfoot. "So that's it," A voice said from behind me, "You're giving up like that." I looked over my shoulder at Severus.
"Yes," I said softly still smiling,"I am giving up because I know I won't ever be able to compare to what he sees in her." He scowled but didn't respond knowing what I was going through. I looked ahead of me and continued walking. Tears rouse in my eyes but I stubbornly pushed them back as to not show weakness. One tear was enough I would shed no more. I smiled at Severus as he jogged to catch up with me and we walked in companionable silence back to the castle and away from those who broke our hearts.
James smiled at me his joy and happiness shining from his eyes. "I asked Lily to marry me Sus and guess what? She said yes!" He cheered. I smiled I was happy for him really I was. "Good job James you finally got your girl." My voice was happy and bubbly as always no way to detect what was wrong. My eyes glittered with unshed tears. He must of taken them for tears of happiness, or he didn't notice for he didn't comment.
It was the night before James's and Lily's wedding. Nine O'clock at night and James knocks on my door before letting himself in. "I don't think I can do this," Is the first words out of his mouth. "Do what James?" I muttered still waking myself up form my sleep. "I don't think I can go through with my marriage to Lily," he responds. That if anything wakes me up. "Why not?" I ask a small bud of hope appearing in me. "What if she gets tired of me or she grows to hate me or…or….or something?" He said quickly as he paces across my apartment floor. I sigh and sit up and growl at him," James, sit down." I pat the bed next to me as there is no where else to site in my apartment. "Lily loves you James. I doubt anything could change that." I said, it killed me but I had to say it, after a moment, "If you can't see she loves you then you need to get your eyes checked, again. Cause its obvious even to total strangers on the street." He looked at me in wonder as if he's never seen me before and asked bewilderedly,"When did you get so smart and wise?" I smile and say teasingly to hide my sadness, "when you were to busy snogging lily." When in truth I wished to say, 'When you broke my heart by choosing her.' "Now you bloody prat get out of my house it's almost ten at night and I'm tired." I growl playfully. He holds up his hands in surrender, "alright, alright I'll go now," He calls as he opens the door and steps out. Before it closes though I hear him say simply,"Thank you." I felt my heart shatter with the click of the door.
A few weeks later a new tombs stone is put up in my family cemetery. On it is written:
'Susan K. Flitzz,
Friend, Lover, and Part-time Maurader.'
"May she have no mercy and let her Stripped side run free"
At the base of the tombstone was a single flower and all her friends shed just one tear. As she would have wanted.