Okay this is my first EVER attempt at writing any fanfic so please don't shoot me down in the reviews! Please let me know what you think! Danielle x
Connie Beauchamp was sad- no she wasn't sad...she was so lonely that her state of numbness was by now a normality. Never had she needed a hold to hand, a cheek to kiss or a body to sleep next to...never. But now things had changed- as she let herself sit in her office chair, her elbows weighing on the desk and her forehead firmly in her hands and eyes clenched shut in an attempt to stop the escaping tears and lights sobs, she felt lonely, isolated and estranged from her fellow colleagues.
She knew that after being out treating patients for a good few hours she could no longer hold in the inevitable break down she had felt coming on all day. Her eyes were red rimmed and her mascara was breaking off her eyelashes, her natural eyes showing their tired selves. Her blinds were shut, a formality now so she could just escape into the sanctuary of her office so nobody could see her like this - nobody.
"Mrs Beauchamp I have some results here!" Robyn entered the room in her usual chirpy manner without even glancing up from the paper..."ohh Mrs..Mrs Beauchamp? Wh-What is it?"
Connie didn't even look, instinctively she turned around and started shifting through books behinds her desk..."okay, umm thank you Robyn, uhh could you please leave them there and I'll get back to them..." Her voice was powerless, coarse and definitely not something Robyn didn't notice.
Robyn stood still - not sure whether to walk right back out or try and comfort her clearly emotional boss...she remembered Connie's first day, Robyn admired her, she had everything...nobody had passed away in Resus so far, not that Connie usually was effected badly by the rounds of deaths that occurred so often in the ED and no bad reports had been slatting the ED recently...so why on earth was the Ice-queen crying her eyes out?
After a few seconds Connie heard the door shut- Robyn had left, she turned around sniffing and trying to wipe under her eyes as strategically as possible (why she had decided to forget her make up bag today of all days was beyond her). She looked up. Robyn. Right in the middle of her office. Her door shut and the bubbly nurse was still stood there, not pitying, not horrified, just in awe. "Robyn, what, what are you doing?"
"You didn't answer my question and you normally have an answer for everything, so come on..."
Connie was just starting to stop crying her voice was still breaking and the lump in her throat was there so she did not feel like talking -"What was your question? You didn't ask anything"
Robyn looked on at the woman she had been amazed with- and could not fathom why on earth she was in her current state, she knew Connie would not open up to her and she had to tread carefully. Robyn decided something in that moment. As Connie sat desperately trying to breathe deeply to stop abnormal breathing after crying so hard she saw Robyn come at her. Robyn sat against Connie's desk and wrapped her arms around the ever-thinning Clinical Lead, there was no time for Connie to react as she was taken into Robyn's hug. She could feel the her warmth and for once - just accepted the embrace.
Robyn eventually let go - she thought she was truly a genius, perfect, the ice queen would see her support and did not back away! "There you go Mrs Beauchamp, everything is better after a Robyn hug. Don't be so hard on yourself for whatever it is...If you need anything let me know...and when you are ready you still need to answer my question. What has changed since you first walked through those doors in Summer?"
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