Hello! I'm Arisu Kara and this is my first FanFiction! This first chapter is a little slow in my opinion and the next, hopefully, wont be as bad. This IS a Sasuke/Naruto fanfiction meaning it is Yaoi/Shounen ai so if you don't like that kind of thing do read it! .

Warning: Yaoi/Shounen ai, rape, abuse, death, angst, OOC, and maybe a little self mutilation. .

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Naruto charters though if I did Naruto would be a Yaoi manga!

Main Pairing: Sasu/Naru Yay!

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Chapter 1: When you try your best but you don't succeed

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"Grown-ups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them."

Antoine de Saint-Exupery

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Birds were chirping form the tree outside his window in their anoying little way. They were always chirping loud in the morning like they knew he hadn't gotten to sleep until 3 in the morning and thought that waking him up at 6:30 was the right thing to do. Like a alarm clock that never went off at the right time and never seemed to shut the hell up.

Trying to ignore the sounds Sasuke rolled over and covered his head with one of his many fluffy pillows. He had starteed to doze off again when two of the birds landed on his window seal singing their awful song together. It was like nails on a chock bored to the poor Uchiha and in his anger he threw his pillow at the offending animals. It bounced off the glass harmlessly but the birds flew away in fear because they didn't know what glass was.

An angry groan erupted from the young Uchiha as he rolled off his comfortable bed his feet landing on the wood floor without a sound. With a long yawn and slightly staggering feet Sasuke founded his tired way to the bathroom to get ready for another day.

By the time Sasuke made it out of his rooms it was already 8 and breakfast was being made by the palace servants. His Father was sitting at the table reading over documents, like always and no one else seemed to have made it to the table yet. Sasuke slumped down in his chair as one of the servants offered him some orange juice and milk. Sasuke shook his head no and watched half interested as his Mother walked into the dinning room in her usural cheery way.

"Good Morning Sasuke-kun." Mikoto said cheerfully giving him a kiss on the cheek and laughed softly when her son rubbed his cheek with a frown. "You should drink some milk. It will help you grow taller." She nodded to one of the servants and they poured a large glass of milk and set it down in front of the young boy.

"I don't like milk." Sasuke said defiantly glaring at the pale liquid in contempt. His mother only rolled her eyes at her annoyed son and started to make conversation with her husband. Fugaku looked up from his papers as she spoke to him her soft smile never leaving her face and his eyes seemed to sofen. Anyone could tell that the two loved each other, though at times they would fight, and it made Sasuke happy inside. Of course he would never admit that. If he didn't what kind of pre-teen would he be?

"Sit up strait Sasuke. Uchiha's don't slouch." Sasuke's Father stated calmly glancing over at the boy his eyes changing back to their hard black stone apperence. Sasuke quickly sat up straight surprissed by the sudden outburst and turned his attention to the large bay windows.

Outside the Sakura trees were in full blossom their pink flowers swaying gently in the breeze. The Festival was tonight much to Sasuke's distaste. It wasn't that he didn't like the festival he used to enjoy it when he was younger. It was just that 'she' was going to be there again. Sasuke couldn't stand 'her' at times like this.

The food was brought out and set down in front of them and both his parents started to eat but Sasuke didn't move. His eyes still focused on the trees outside. He wasn't hungry. "You should eat Otouto." A soft dark voice from behind him said making the young boy jump in surprise.

"Aniki don't do that. You almost gave me a heart attack!" Sasuke yelled with a glare at his brother as he sat down next to him. Itachi ignored Sasuke's outburst with a small smirk on his face. Sasuke turned his attention to his food and resentfully started to nibble on the eggs.

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The day went by in a flash of blurry colors and moving objects. Sasuke felt like he was standing in the middle of all the chaos slightly lost at what to do and a little detached from himself. As the afternoon approached a feeling crept over Sasuke, It was strange and Sasuke had never felt before. It was like the air had an electric charge to it making the young Uchiha unsure of what it meant. With a frown as his mind tried to process what the feeling meant the 12-year-old boy got ready for the festival's opening ceremony.

Mikoto had picked out a black yukata with a beautiful phoenix pattern thinking that it was perfect for her youngest child. Sasuke liked the pattern of course but he didn't feel right it in. He felt like it was meant for someone else and not for the young prince. Of course he wouldn't tell his Okaasan that. He didn't want to hurt her feeling and make her think he was selfish, though at times he was.

A soft knocked came from the other side of his door and his Okaasan walked into the room without waiting for him to answer. "Sasu-nii, you look wonderful in your yukata." Mikoto giggled cheerfully giving her youngest son a swift kiss on the forhead. "Sakura-chan is waiting for you down stairs for you. It's almost time for the ceremony." When Sasuke frowned at Sakura's name and gave a childish huff Mikoto knelt down in front of her son so she was at eye level with him. "Do you not like Sakura-chan? You guys used to be great friends when you were little."

Sasuke looked away not wanting to meet his Mother's eyes for fear of seeing hurt in them. He never liked it when his Okaasan was in pain and it was even worse when he was the cause of it. "It's not like I don't like her... It's just that she is always so clingy and pushy." Mikoto pulled Sasuke into a sudden hug catching the young boy off guard. "O-okaasan?"

Sasuke felt his Mother laugh softly but somewhat nervously as she spoke. "Your special Sasuke more then you'll ever know. You have a power that no one else has inside you and that gives you the power to change the world be it for good or evil. Never forget, no matter what, that I will always be here for you." Mikoto stood taking Sasuke's hand in her own. "Just have fun tonight okay?" Sasuke just nodded as his Mother lead him from the room and down the grand staircase.

Sakura was waiting at the bottom with her back to him dressed in a light pink Kimono with a Sakura tree pattern. Her long pink hair was pulled back into a slightly messy but pretty bun with two red hair sticks that faded to pink at the tips. A pink Sakura blossom comb was stuck in her hair at the top of the bun to complete her full out pink outfit.

Sakura's Father, the King of a neighboring country, and Sasuke's Father were talking off to the side in a friendly manner since the Uchiha and Haruno family being friends and allies for generations not to mention they had both grown up together. His Mother left his side with a soft pat on the back to greet Sakura's Mother. As she passed Sakura turned to look up at Sasuke a small pink purse in her hand. She smiled warmly at the boy with a faint blush on her cheeks as she greeted him in her normal manner. "Sasuke-kun! Are you ready for the Festival?"

Sasuke had to admit she was vary pretty and he liked her a lot but not in the way he knew she liked him. He thought of her in more of a friendly way almost like a sister really. He thought she was pretty, smart, talented, and okay to be around but sometimes her overbearing and slightly dependent attitude towards him was annoying if not completely unbearable at times.

"Hn." Was all Sasuke said to the girl as he finished walking down the few steps he was standing on. His Mother shot him a look that said "Be more polite" and, not wanting to get in trouble Sasuke rolled his eyes and turned to Sakura. "Konbanwa, Sakura-chan."

Sakura smiled brightly opening her mouth to say something but was interrupted by someone walking though the door. "It's time for the ceremony." A man with a mask covering the lower half of his face informed them. His silver hair stuck up in odd angles making him look strange but the thing that stuck out the most about him was his eyes. Namely because one was red while the other... Wasn't. A grin could be made out through his black mask and his eyes were in the shape of 'u' as he smiled at them.

"Ah, yes domo Kakashi." Fugaku said braking off his conversation with Sakura's father.

Kakashi had saved both Fugaku and a 12-year-old Itachi 5 years ago when he had just started as a royal bodyguard. While Fugaku and Itachi were out riding they had been attacked by assassins from another kingdom. All the other bodyguards had fallen quickly from the ambush leaving Kakashi to defend his two charges. He managed to kill the last of the ambushers with help of Fugaku but not without getting a wound over his left eye. The blade had been poisoned with a strange chemical turning his left eye red and almost taking his life. He had only been 20 at the time and since then he has loyally protected the Uchiha family as the Caption.

They made their way out of the palace in a small group the parents talking quietly together while Sasuke and Sakura walked Sakura chatting happily while Sasuke ignored her without even trying to hide it. Sakura didn't seem to notice as she talked about all the things that had happened in her life while she had been at home. She also complained about missing him so much and how she couldn't wait to see him again. The way Sakura went on about it you would think it had been years instead of a short 2 months. Of course Sasuke hadn't been looking forward to seeing her and had enjoyed her not being around. It wasn't like he didn't like the pink hair girl it was just that she was a little too much for him to handle for long periods of time.

Finally they made it outside the gates were everyone was waiting for the King to make his announcement and so on. Fugaku took stage the rest following but standing behind the king. As his Father started talking Sasuke zoned out completely ignoring what his Father was saying. His eyes strayed to the crowd looking over all the people who decided to come to the opening announcement. Some were dressed in kimonos and yukata like the royal families while others dressed in regular clothes either not wanting to dress up or not having enough money for it.

As his eyes traveled the crowd Sasuke's eyes stopped on a pair of bright blue ones by a alley off to the side. They were fixed on his Father blankly before they slowly shifted over to Sasuke. At first they were blank, almost scarily so, then suddenly they flashed with mixed emotions Sasuke couldn't even place. Realization, fear, anger, desperation, confusion, admiration, curiosity, trust, and so many others played across the young boy's face before his eyes dulled and became black almost as suddenly as they came alive. The boy backed up into the alley his face getting thrown into shadow covering the beautiful blue eyes before he turned and ran away. Confused Sasuke turned his attention back to the rest of the people while wondering who that boy had been.

Soon his eyes fell on a man in the crowd dressed in a black cloak and a white mask over his face though it was almost 80 degrees out. Soon Sasuke saw other's dressed like him in the crowd and a few on roof or in windows. Sasuke felt fear go though his mind before he turned to look at Kakashi who was standing behind him. Kakashi put his hand on Sasuke's shoulder to let him know it was okay while his eyes never left the crowd.

"Don't worry Otouto." Itachi said from beside him. Sasuke had been so focused on that boy and then the men that he hadn't even noticed when his brother appeared beside him late to the ceremony. "Now pay attention to Father."

Sasuke glanced at his brother before turning to Fugaku just in time to hear his last announcement. "And now I'm pleased to announce the Betrothment of my youngest son to Princess Sakura of the Leaf Nation." Everyone erupted into cheers as Itachi pushed the stunned Sasuke forward. Sakura blushed bowing deeply to the King and Sasuke, after a few seconds to let it sink in, gave his Father a short bow. Sasuke was angry, not only angry but pissed that no one had even asked or informed him of any of this.

Without hiding is displeasure Sasuke stepped back beside his brother while waiting for the king to finish his announcement and so on. After Fugaku dismissed them the people started dispersing into the festival to buy things or watch the performers. Sasuke glanced at him Mother but she wouldn't look him the in the eyes and angrily Sasuke crossed him arms and waited for them to be able to leave. Finally Sakura asked if Sasuke and her could go look a the shops and watch a few of the performers. It was already 4 and she wanted to get around before dark. Since the festival was large and stretched out thought most of the city it would take hours for them to get to it all. Once the parents agreed Sakura, without waiting, started off into the crowd leaving Sasuke with no choice but to follow. After a nod from Sasuke's father Kakashi set out after them to make keep his eyes on them.

Sakura dragged Sasuke from shop to shop, booth to booth until they reached the town square where most of the performances were. Fire eaters, jugglers, mimes (shudder), jokers, contortionist, singers, puppet masters and many others were around the large square showing off for various audiences with hats set out or passed around for donations. Sakura ran off to watch a juggler who had two torches of fire and a dagger in the air. He told random jokes as he juggled the objects making the crowd laugh. He did a strange pattern to his juggling throwing the dagger high into the air while blowing out both torches. After both torches were out he caught the dagger with an empty hand and bowed deeply to the crowd. They all cheered some throwing coins into the man's hat as he announced that his next show would be in 30 minutes after a quick break. Sakura started heading for another performer talking quickly about how interesting that had been. As they walked by the hate Sasuke threw a few gold coins into the mans had easily doubling what was already in there. From a ways behind the two Kakashi smiled as he watched the young boy.

By the time the made it though most of the fair it was starting to get dark and large storm clouds covered the stairs from view. They had been forming quickly for the past few hours promising a strong storm. Lightning cracked in the distance followed by the low rumble of thunder. "L-let's get back before it starts raining Sasuke-kun." Sasuke didn't answer her but he turned around heading for the palace at a slightly faster speed. A few small drops of water started to fall as they made their way though the crowded streets. Booths were starting to close up and performers quickly finishing what ever they were doing before heading for cover. The streets started to have less and less people in them making Sasuke uncomfortable with the sudden feeling of being alone and a strong feeling of someone watching him.

The light shower started to slow down some making it so only a few drops fell at a time but the lightning and thunder in the distance only grew more violent. In a flash of yellow someone shot out from the alley bumping into Sasuke before it fell onto the dirt. Impossibly blue eyes looked up into black fear flashing though them. Lightning flashed over head making the young boy flinch visibly. The rumble of thunder that followed the lightning made him jump up and hide behind Sasuke. Tears started to freely flow form his eyes waking Sasuke from his dazed state. Sasuke turned his head to get a look at the boy still confused about what was going on.

The blonde's face and his clothes were dirty making Sasuke wonder if he should even bother with asking him what the hell was going on. It wasn't until he saw the bruise forming on his face and the small amount of blood that trickled down the younger boy's limp arm. Sakura, her eyes wide with caring, quickly wrapped her arms around the boy making 'shushing' noises for comfort. "What happened to you kid? Are you okay?" The boy didn't answer but winced was angry shouts could be heard from the alley. They quickly got louder before two older boys appeared from the alley sticks in their hands and threatening expressions.

Sasuke glared at the boys as he crossed his arms over his chest. Sakura's eyes narrowed looking from the younger boy to the other two. She straightened and watched the two older boys flinch when they saw the death glares both Sasuke and Sakura. "Um... That kid," one said pointing his stick at the young blonde, "tried to rob us. He stole my money." Sasuke raised an eye brow at the one who spoke before glancing back at the blonde's fearful eyes. The younger boy shook his head from side to side quickly his large innocent eyes fearful of what Sasuke was going to do. "B-but he did! He took my money bag!"

Sasuke looked over the older boy who seemed to be around 13 to 14 years old and noticed a bag used by commoners to hold their money hanging from his belt. "If he took it then what is that." Sasuke said pointing to the bag with a bored tone.

"W-well I took it back after we caught the little bastard!" He stuttered glaring at the blonde who was still hiding behind Sasuke.

Lightning ripped its way across the sky and Sasuke decided he was tired of dealing with then since he was never going to get the truth. "Get out of my sight." Was all Sasuke needed to say for the two boys to dart back into the alley as fast as they could run. Sakura smiled at Sasuke before turning her attention back to the hurt boy in her arms.

"Are you okay? They didn't hurt you to bad did they?" Sakura asked receiving a huge grin for the boy. It was bright and cheerful making his whole face light up despite the bruises and dirt of his face.

"No I'm fine! Domo Arigato!" The blonde bowed cheerfully to his saviours.

"What's your name?" Sakura asked completely forgetting about getting back to the palace before the rain started up.

"Naruto... I don't have a last name... Well I don't have one that I remember any ways." Sakura looked confused but the boy bowed deeply again before running off yelling another thank you over his shoulder.

Sakura shrugged as she turned back to Sasuke with a bright smile. "Lets go back okay Sasuke-kun?" Sakura started walking again without waiting for Sasuke to answer. She wanted to get back before the rain but it seemed they were to late. In seconds the heavens opened up letting out all the anger it had been storing for the last few hours. Sasuke looked up into the sky his mind still processing though everything that had happened in the last 12 hours slowly. He didn't mind the rain ruining his yukata or the fact that he was getting wet. He let the water wash over him and a feeling of clam come with it. Though that clam wouldn't last long for the young prince as bright blue eyes flashed though his mind. "Sasuke-kun?" Sakura asked turning back to look at her friend.

"Hn." Was all Sasuke said turning his attention from the darkened sky and starting down the road.

From the darkness of the alley two pairs eyes watched them leave. One blue and empty of emotion and another pair golden and full of malice and hatred.

"Good job Naruto-kun." The golden eyed man purred giving a small chuckle. "Everything is going according to plan."

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Mikoto stood in her bedroom window watching the rain drops make patterns as they slip their way down the glass pane. Fugaku was in his study with Sakura's Father going over a few things for the two Countries leaving Mikoto alone. Unfortunately she couldn't sleep and, with nothing else to do, she was left to watch the storm grow. Suddenly a figure dropped from above onto the small balcony in front of the window. Surprised Mikoto jumped back opening her mouth to scream but a firm hand covered her mouth and a arm snaked around her waist. Mikoto struggled but the strong arm held her tightly in place without trouble. The figure opened the window letting in the wind along with it. Wet shoes hit the ground with a sickening 'plop' as the person slithered in long black hair stuck to a abnormally pale and snake like face. Without a word a katana was drawn as lips twisted into a demented smile. The hand was removed form Mikoto's mouth and awe struck the only words she could utter before the blade was sunk into the soft flash of her stomach. "Orochimaru..."

With hot pain flashed before her eyes as blood and bile rose into Mikoto's mouth. It ran down her chin dripping onto her chest and running down her neck. Orochimaru reached forward taking her chin into his hand lifting it open to look into his golden eyes. He wanted the last thing for her to see to be him. So that no matter what the image of him to go on in her subconscious forever. Her beautiful black eyes dulled as the life slipped out of her slowly and she shut her eyes tightly to close out Orochimaru's image. In her mind she used the last of her energy to conjured a picture of her two sons when they were younger and playing outside together. Large smiling faces of her sons was what Mikoto died to and a small tranquil smile spread over her blood covered face.

Orochimaru's demented smirk twisted into a snarl and in anger he flung Mikoto's body across the room making it hit the wall with a sick crack. With a growl he left the room the same way he had come leaving his accomplice alone. With a flick of a dagger the man got to work with his own sick pleasure. By the time anyone found the body it was almost completely unrecognizable.

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TBC

Thank you so much for reading this far! I will be needing an editor and I'm sorry for the many grammar mistakes I'm sure I made. If your interested in being my editor give me an email or something! And please tell me of any mistakes in names or garmmar I might have made. .