I am back. *Hooray*
I have to admit I didn't want to publish this story on because of all the changes the site has been through. I had decided that Nothing But Dreams would be my final story but seeing that people are still reading my stories and noticing that I have gained new followers, I decided that they deserve a proper goodbye story.

So dear readers, consider Memories Through The Looking Glass as my final goodbye to . I hope you will enjoy reading this story.

ps. I am posting this story on wattpad (same username). If you can't wait for next update...I already posted 3 chapters.

~ Prologue ~

. . .

Do you see them? Those three dots at the beginning? I should write a greeting so you would know that I am writing this letter to you and no one else.

But what can I say to a person that doesn't know how much I care about her? I can't say My love, not any more at least. How can I say those words to a woman who

despises me with every fibre of her body?

I could start this letter with the mention of your name, just as simple as that. Hermione. But you don't allow me to say your name out loud so why would you tolerate

it when I use your name in words written on a piece of parchment?

Granger perhaps, I know that you prefer that I talk to you by using your last name, because it sounds formal. Your last name...

But then I would be using another name, wouldn't I? I have tried to tell you time after time. I wrote it on notes but you don't care. Not any more.

I hate this, I hate the person that I have become. This is not me, it never was. I don't show emotions.

You.

You are making me feel all of this. And I don't know what to do... not any more. I, Draco Malfoy, am lost for words.

And yet I have so many questions.

Do you love me?

No stupid stupid stupid, scratch that question. It is not fair of me to push you in this direction. I am forcing you into this. And I can't help it.

I searched for the meaning of love, I could give you a definition from every sappy explanation that I have ever read. How love changes people, how one can't live without the other and the most important one: when you can still feel a deep connection with someone, even when you are miles apart.

And that's where we are.

Miles apart.

Do you ever miss it? Miss me?

Bloody hell, why is this so hard? Why can't I just leave everything behind, close the door behind me and that would be it...the end.

I could easily go out and sleep with every woman I meet. I could hurt you so much without blinking an eye.

But I can't. No matter how bloody hard I want to... I can't. Because I can't let you go. Not now not ever.

Our memories haunt me in my sleep. Every step I take is a reflection of the path I already have walked with you.

I don't even know why...

You are my always Hermione Granger.

I am going to ask you one more question and the only thing I'll ask you is for you to think about your answer.

Did you ever love me?

Please remember me...

Draco Malfoy

and of course a thank you to my beta WisteriaMoon