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When Saya Sleeps
Chapter 1
He Doesn't Know What To Do
Uncertainty lay in his heart. Haji was undecided.
He sat there - in the dark alleyway - unsure. It was a new feeling for him - this indecision. To sit there unsure, like a lump of useless lead.
I know what Saya would say, the dark-haired Chevalier mused.
"See the world for me, Haji - just what you and I promised to do together when we were young!"
Or -
"Don't let me hold you back - I want you to live for yourself, too!"
Or -
"Haji!" (laughing at her silent companion). "Don't be so dull! Get out sometime! I'm sure girls would like you around!"
Haji watched the girls now - from his secluded corner of the Parisian square - opposite his favorite haunt - a riverside park.
They seem like flowers to me - beautiful, vivid - something I can't reach - Whenever I reach for those flowers... when they lie in my hand...
Saya... I am cursed.
And so, the cellist was uncertain.
Those flowers are not for me, he thought. Besides... like flowers wither, these - these - all this - will pass away - and in this eternity of mine, there stands only Saya...
I love you. I can't do without you, Saya.
And so, Haji was divided. Between that world of sunlight and petals dancing in the wind - and the shadows of the grimy alleyway he peered out from.
A part of him felt happy - Saya was safely sound asleep in her warm cocoon. A part of him felt cheated - that Kai had been the lucky one to watch Saya close her bright eyes -
And where had he been?
Lying in a gutter half-dead - and Saya's sword clutched by his chiropteran hand.
And it was broken. It was useless now that it was all over. Now -
Now it is truly just me and Saya. Except -
And he was painfully aware -
Like this broken sword, what use does Saya have for a Chevalier in a world with no Diva?
And another part of himself felt lonely.
Once again, he wished Saya could be there to tell him what to do.
I told her to live - but I don't even know what to do now - the Chiropterans - Red Shield - Diva - her chevaliers - none of them are after us - after me... I know what Kai would say - live for yourself... but... myself...
With a shake of his head, Haji stepped forward, conscious of the warm sunlight now falling on his dark hair - as he passed under the large stone gates of the park across the busy road.
It's all I know, he thought as he settled down under a particularly large tree, snapping the cello case open. It's all I can do.
The melody flowed away on the gentle breeze - the wind carrying it to every corner of the city. Every now and then, although he never looked up - Haji could hear the clink of change thrown into his open cello case.
Perhaps, he thought to himself, I could learn something new. As a gift for Saya...
If I play around the city... perhaps I'll get enough money to get some new sheet music...
Some Chopin... or Mozart...
She'd like that...
He looked up - squinting at the sun - and then around at the children playing on the green grass - the dogs barking - adults laughing. And for those few hours of that lazy afternoon - he felt a part of it -
A part of life.