She'd gone. She'd left this world. Now Jill was at peace but the others around her were distraught, unable to comprehend what had just happened in front of their eyes. Barely able to understand how the strong, funny and compassionate female Doctor from 'The Royal' had come to die.
Jill had miscarried her baby, the child that she hadn't yet told Gordon about. Her uterus had also ruptured leading to catastrophic bleeding and before Mr .Rose had chance to operate she'd died. Gordon had been by her side throughout the short ordeal, he didn't have chance to take in that his wife had miscarried a un-be known child of his.
Gordon had run into the emergency department to see his wife on the bed surrounded by their colleagues. She was squirming with pain and crying out, at the sight of his wife suffering so much his heart shattered. If it had been a patient the same sight would have caused him great distress, but this was the woman he loved so dearly; words weren't enough.
'Jill?' Gordon had exclaimed as he'd ran to her side
'I'm sorry G-Gordon' Jill had cried whilst trying to fight the pain
'What ever happened sweetheart?'
'Low blood pressure, fast pulse, abdominal pain, guarding in the right iliac' had explained Jill's symptoms knowing that Gordon would understand instantly.
'E-ec-ectopic' Jill had butted in, still crying
'Don't be ridiculous, you're not pregnant' Gordon had mumbled whilst holding Jill's hand and stroking her hair; confused.
'She is, she found out yesterday' Mike had jumped in, astonishing Gordon.
'I'm s-sorry, sorry' Jill had spoke those words, as if begging for forgiveness
'It's okay, come on it's okay, it's okay Jill' Gordon then tried to reassure Jill the best he could, but the words were also aimed to reassure him as well.
Once they had been able to control the pain, Jill got chance to say a few words to Jill. Words that Gordon would now come to cherish forever.
'I had some abdominal pain earlier today, I should have realised really' Jill had spoken quietly, drowsy from the morphine.
'You need to rest now, we're going to get you to Ashfordly General. Everything's going to be alright' Gordon had been stood beside her, trying to comfort her as much as possible.
'It's my fault' Then Jill broke down again 'You see, I thought I didn't want another child'
'You didn't?'
'And now I'm being p-punished' And then she was gone.
'Jill? Jill can you hear me? Jill!' Shouted Gordon, trying to wake her back up again.
But Jill never woke up again, she'd lost consciousness as her blood pressure continued to fall. The fight was too much for her body and she arrested. Her colleagues tried in vain for over half an hour to bring her back but their efforts failed. Gordon stood beside her throughout it, frustrated, upset and confused. He spoke words of love to her not caring that there were people around them. And when it was painfully agreed that there was no use in carrying on Gordon had shouted in anger, he hated it when people gave up but this was different.
'No, look we've got to keep going. She needs us. JILL! Come on love wake up' Gordon had shouted and then carried on attempting to bring her back. In the end Doctor Banner and had to restrain him. He eventually broke down, fell against the wall and slid onto the floor. The first real emotion he'd shown to his colleagues in all the time they'd worked together.