Disclaim - i do not own the characters, hollyoaks, or the general plot. i do own most of the plot

Hollyoaksjasmine/JasonstorylineChapter One

"Watch out!" the voices echo in my head as i hurry down the corridors, "Mind, you freak," "Don't touch me!" "Keep walking!" "What a loser!" "Look at it!" it just makes me pick up my pace and rush to get out of the nightmare; my bag slung over my shoulder and banging heavily against my legs as they speed doesn't bother me one bit. My hair waving in my eyes; stinging. Tripping over people's feet, brushing people's shoulders. It is all part of it. School. The new term has begun, and the first day has just ended – i don't know what i was expecting; some miraculous change where somehow people would at least ignore me? It all seems lost now though, any hopes of change. Everyone is just the same as before.

"I have to get out of here," i whisper to myself. I don't think anybody has heard when suddenly i bump into Bart. He looks as good as ever, and suddenly those distant feeling come flooding back, and for the first time in weeks, a warm smile spreads across my face.

"Get out of where?" he asks, but as soon as i give a shrug of my shoulders as an answer, we both forget about it, and i agree to let him walk me home. We chat about simple things like school, and the weather, and only come upon a touchy subject like how Fern has been treating me lately, once. I feel relaxed, like I'm with my best mate and our conversation flows smoothly. Once we reach my house, it feels like we have so much more we want to say.

"Can I see you later on this afternoon?" Bart asks. I nod and he replies, "Good, I'll pick you up later,"

For a while, i stand on my doorstep just watching him walk until he's just a blurred dot in the distance. I'm about to go in, and escape to my room, when Seth returns from school and meets me at the door.

"Go in then!" he says annoyed, and i do, and i go straight to my room and get dressed into a hoodie and jeans.

I'd forgotten what it felt like to wear a skirt. It feels free, and clumsy and strange. Constantly I was tugging on it. Flattening it when the wind blew it up, pulling it down, pulling it up...most of the other girls seemed to have their skirts well above their knees, and you can always see their pants; it isn't flattering to say the least. Mum keeps saying she'll get me some trousers but she never does, and I always have to put up with a piece of pleated fabric wrapped round my legs!

My uniform drowns me, and I'm glad to get it off of me – a huge maroon blazer and baggy jumper – it is the most hideous outfit ever created, and the school purposely makes us wear it for some punishment for being born or something. As well as that, my tie is frequently getting ripped by Fern! Not that I care – not that I care about anything that happens at school anyway. Except...except for Bart maybe.

He's been on my mind lately. Every night I dream of him and me, us. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me forget about who I should be and act like who I am! I love his eyes, and when I look into them it just feels right, and I know nothing could ever change our love. But then I wake up, and reality hits. I stare at myself in the mirror opposite my bed, at the bright blonde hair, girlish facial features, my small hands and feet, my whole body. It doesn't feel right. It feels very wrong. The girl in the mirror doesn't match the boy looking into it! I turn up the volume on my iPod as if to drown out the thoughts of the boy inside of me, but I'm soon interrupted by a knock on my bedroom door, followed by a few uncertain murmurs.

"Come in," i say, suddenly remembering that Bart is coming over soon, and i jump over to the mirror and pretend to be doing something girly to please whoever it is at the door.

"Jaz...*coughs* Bart is at the door," its dad. He doesn't like Bart, not one bit. He thinks Bart is bad for me – but i continue to meet up with Bart, just to annoy him!

"Okay, thanks dad,"

As soon as he leaves I skip down the stairs and jump at the opportunity to greet him.

"Hi,"

"Hi," he replies, but we don't talk until we get to The Dog. I didn't know that's where we were going. It's not a long stop, but enough to have a drink and a chat. We're getting along amazingly until we step outside for some air and seat ourselves on a bench.

"You know Jaz, i really missed you over summer," he says. My mind swirls on where this could be going but i try and keep a focused mind and remind myself that we're just mates for now.

"i missed you too. It's nice having a mate around,"

"What if we were more than just...mates?" he looks into my eyes seriously, and we don't say anything else. He leans in for the kill, and i don't know what to do. Is this the right thing to do? But i don't let the thoughts take over, and i kiss him back. His lips are soft, and it sends a tingle through my body. I don't want this tingle to ever stop, but it does, and when it does, i can't bear it anymore. Before he can say anything, i run away.

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AN (authors note) thankyou for reading. I know some people may not know the general hollyoaks storyline but i will try to make it as understandable as possible!