embryprov:
jacob, quil, and i have always been best friends. we've known eachother since we were babies. i loved both of them. jacob platonicly. quil...well lets just say i love him. like real, drop-me-dead type love. i've loved quil since we all started high school. it was the night after our first day there and we had been invited to a small get together. we were promised food so of course jake and i agred but quil did'nt want to. so i offerd to stay with him. jake abandoned the both of us and went anyway. he texted us about an hour later saying that they were playing truth or dare, and that quil and i should play too because its fun. quil was all for it but i was kind of hesitant. eventually we did play, and after some really bogus dares we got to the real stuff. quil dared me to kiss him. god knows i wanted to, but i could'nt and i told him that. he started to pout, so i gave in.
the kiss was slow, maybe a little unsure. it gradually got heated, and quil was deadly still. i put my hands on either side of his face, and pulled away, breathing heavily. when i looked at him his eyes were wide open and he looked frightened. i stood up, tears clouding my vision, and ran out. i ran until i reached my home. i ran to my moms room and jumped in her bed. she wasnt there, she was at work, but i slept there until the next morning.
after that night quil and i were'nt the same as usual. we were distanced from eachother. both of our relationships with jake were perfect, but we were torn apart, confused, and terrified. i used to hope quil would come back, talk to me, apologize for daring me, anything, but he never did. i lost all hope. im always depressed or sad. i barely hang with the pack anymore. my life is terrible all because i got what i wanted.