Disclaimer: I own nothing but Patrick Dempsey…. Wait!! I don't even own him!! I do kind of own the plot though. Whatever didn't come from the show is mine all mine! Oh yes! Flames will be used to make yummy, yummy marshmallows, so flame away if you must.

Summary: What if Meredith had chosen at the end of the Season 2 when Derek and Finn said her name?

A/N: Well this is my first delve into the world of Grey's Anatomy Fan Fiction. In case you're wondering the pairing is MerDer cos I love them! Please review and I'll listen to any ideas you have cos I'm not that sure where I'm going to go with this Fic just yet.

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"Meredith"

"Meredith?"

Oh God, what was she supposed to do? She looked at Finn, sweet, I-have-plans Finn. Then she turned her head to Derek, the love of her life, I'm-just-a-guy-in-a-bar Derek. The sex in the on call room had changed everything; she couldn't walk towards Finn and pretend that the sex hadn't happened. She couldn't walk to wards Derek either, could she? She looked up and saw Finn take another look at Derek. Oh god, he had figured it out and if he didn't exactly know what had happened between them, he had to know that something had happened, he wasn't stupid, it was that thought that helped to finalise her decision. She stepped towards Finn and looked into his eyes as she began to speak

"Finn, I-" She was cut off by Finn's hand on her arm

"Don't Meredith, just don't. I guess I'm not going to be giving you a ride home?"

"I didn't know what I was going to say but I know now that it would be unfair to get in your car and pretend that everything was still ok. You're going to be a great guy for someone just not me"

As she watched Finn's back walk further and further away from her she could sense Derek's gaze on her back. She turned around ready for the questions she knew would be coming after that little scene with Finn.

"Meredith, what the hell was that?" With each word he said, he moved one step closer to her.

"I, uh…..made a choice Derek that is what that was."

"A choice…what would that choice be about?" He laid a hand on her arm and she felt his grip tighten as if he was afraid that she would turn and run before he could find out about this choice.

"I….uh….I chose you, I picked you, I decided to love you" Meredith could have sworn that she saw Derek stop breathing for a moment as he took in what she had just said to him.

"I love you too Mer, I think I've loved you for forever. And I'm sure that I don't want to ever stop loving you."

"You haven't known me forever. I'm all twisty and dark."

"Well, I'm all untwisty and light so I say we make the perfect pair"

"But what about Addison and your marriage, I don't want to be a home wrecker." Meredith could feel the tears beginning to pool and desperately willed them not to spill over.

"Meredith, even if I had stuck at my marriage I doubt it could have been saved, mainly because my heart wasn't in it , because my heart belongs to you."

"Derek-" Anything else she could have said was cut off by Derek's lips pressing a soft kiss against her lips. When she felt his tongue asking for entrance, she gladly opened her mouth and let him in. Derek couldn't believe that for once someone up there seemed to be listening to him and he gently cupped Meredith's face between his hands and started to gently caress her cheeks. All too soon they realised that they had to end the kiss if they wanted any oxygen.

"Meredith, why don't we go back to yours and I'll tell Addie in the morning. I can't spend another night knowing that I'm just hurting you and hurting Addie." All Meredith could do was nod her consent and together, the two left the hospital waiting for the next day to begin.

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A/N: Well there we have it. My first venture into writing the love that is MerDer. Reviews are welcome as long as they're not flames because they will be used to make delicious treats. Be kind this is my baby! Any ideas welcome!