Don't Let Me Get Me.
'Never win first
place, I don't support the team,
I can't take direction, and my
socks are never clean.
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me,
I
was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin' right.'
She was humming along with every other song making its way out of the speakers, hell; she was even singing some of them! But when my favourite song came on, and I cranked the volume, her fun stopped.
'Everyday I fight
a war against the mirror,
I can't take the person starin' back at
me,
I'm a hazard to myself,
don't let me get me.
I'm my
own worst enemy.
It's bad when you annoy yourself,
so
irritating.
Don't wanna be my friend no more,
I wanna be
somebody else.'
"Cat, can we turn this off please." She looked at me with pleading, teary eyes. Oh God, how stupid can I be?! I flicked it off straight away.
"God, Sara. I'm so sorry, I didn't think, I never do, do I?" Seriously, I don't think I could possibly hate myself any more than right now. How could I possibly think that song was a good idea? Oh wow, wow, wow, wow. I'm a total idiot, I know I am. I can't even bring myself to look at her.
"Cat, calm down. Don't hate yourself for this-" I swear, I think she's psychic. "I just don't like how it reminds me of the things I've got over, got over because of you."
You don't understand how I smiled at this, how happy this woman makes me by saying a few simple words. "God, you have no idea what you do to me, woman!"