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A/N: Okay, the timeline for this would be a few months after Casino Night. This is my first fic, and it's not very conventional structural wise, but I was trying something out. And before I forget, a huge thanks to ktface3 who beta'd this for me. Feedback is much appreciated, as this is my first fic, and I'm just kind of testing out the waters. Note that the next story I do won't have this type of structure, it will be, uh, normal. This is a one-shot.
Someday
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She was hiding who she was
And no one realized because no one cared enough to know her beneath her pretty face
Especially her fiancé.
He was in the shadows
And no one could see his potential brimming just underneath the surface.
She was untouchable to him
He was unreachable to her
He confessed his feelings
She pushed him away
They broke each other's hearts
He watched her run away
He chose not to wait for her
He chose not to fight for her
Instead he moved away
He met someone new
They each belonged to someone else
Her boyfriend hated him
His girlfriend envied her
She realized that her boyfriend didn't understand her half as much as he did
She saw she was throwing away her first real chance at being with someone who could be her soul mate
She took back her decision
She came back to him
But it was too late
He had moved on
He broke her heart
He didn't understand
She cracked
She tried. She let him in. She was honest.
She got burned.
He was too honorable to be with her
He was too scared of what it could mean
He had never stopped thinking about her
She could never walk away from him
But his honor still bound him
She doesn't care about honor anymore
He wants to care
She's breaking inside
He wants to save her
She has no one else
He wants to be all she ever needs
She can't make him see that he's all she's ever wanted
He chooses to ignore the signs
He breaks her again
And again
And again
And again
With each longing gaze he pretends to misinterpret
With each caring word he swallows and unthinks
With each caress he doesn't give her
She dies inside
He is immobile in bringing her back to life
All he has to do is hold out his hand
But it's glued to his side
He wants her
He needs her
He can't stop thinking about her
It always comes back to her
But somehow he is unable to understand that he loves her
She doesn't know
He's too frightened to show her
They've been through too much
He doesn't want to ruin a friendship
He doesn't want to ruin his honor
He doesn't want to believe that he could have had her months ago, but chose against it
He doesn't want to think about the fact that it's his fault he's not with her
He doesn't know what to do
He doesn't know how to think
He doesn't know what to feel
All he can do is look, listen, hope to touch
All he can do is will her to see that he does care for her
He loves her
He just doesn't realize it
He loves her
He just doesn't know how easy it could be to have her
He loves her
He just doesn't think he deserves her
They walk in circles
They dally around fate, delaying it constantly, delaying their very happiness
They are one step away
But they make excuses to avoid the step
She's dying
And he can't make himself do a thing to stop it
She's dying
And it's his fault
It isn't pleasant
It isn't easy
It isn't simple
But it is real
It always was
Time will not diminish it
If only they could walk one small step
He stares at her
She stares right back
His eyes bring tales of heartache and sorrow
Hers speak of regret and restraint, longing and hope
They will love each other to the end of time
Even if they can't show it
Even if there is always someone standing in the way
Even if they never end up together truly
He owns her heart
And she has held his since the day they first met
No one else mattered back then
And no one else will ever matter
Steps away, inches away
A lifetime of passed moments
A lifetime of lost days, of unspent memories, of unrealized dreams
But they will love each other to the end of time
In the confines of their hearts, in the darkness of their minds, in the thoughts no one can read
They stare at each other
Does he know?
Does she know?
Have they always known?
Time will pass them by. Death will claim them. There will be other loves.
Not like this. Never like this.
She'll marry. He'll cry.
He'll marry. She'll hate his wife.
He will still look at her
She will still feel his eyes
Their love cannot die
No matter how they will it to
No matter how they ignore, deny, falsify it
No matter who they seek as replacements
They will always care
To the very last breath
To the very last pain of regret
To the very last thought, feeling, desire
It will never fade
Photos pass, memories wash away, but the girl he once knew will occupy his thoughts and he'll wonder where she is, how she is.
He'll ask himself why he never went for it; he'll curse himself for never trying.
She'll sit at home and close her eyes and his smil will come to her as easily as it ever came.
She misses him. She wonders if he's happy. She knows he's no happier than she is.
She'll die. He'll die. A lifetime of longing
A lifetime wasted
But in another life
In another time
In another place where honor and fear and fiancés won't stand in their way
They will be together
Because even death cannot break their love
One lifetime gone. Another awaits.
She'll see him.
He'll see her.
And this time, he'll say I love you
She won't run away
She won't say they can't have it
He won't choose someone else
He won't let her go
She won't be too late
Nothing else will matter
Nothing else ever mattered
In another time
In another world
They will still love as much they always did
And someday, some day however distant, they will find themselves in each other's arms
Someday fate will connect them
Someday, she will be his wife
Someday, she won't be dead inside
Someday, he will be the one to save her
They cannot die. They cannot forget. They cannot pretend
And someday, they won't have to.
Forever.
Forever.
Forever.