Yami DM: This is a disturbing little fic I wrote when I just started writing. This is dark, even for me.

Vivi: yikes. Well….um… this is rated for suicide a language.

Yami Dm: yep.

Vivi: I'm surprised you aren't emotionally scared after that DM.

Yami Dm: I'm a survivor.oh and by the way, Its Jean talking. ThoughtI might clear that up ahead of time.

Vivi: she doesn't own x men evolution. She wishes she did. It wouldn't be over if she did. She also doesn't own the song "farther away" Evanescence does.

I am stupid. I cannot feel I take my friends emotions as mine. I am hollow. Using others as so many have used me.

I took their smiles and I made them mine.
I sold my soul just to hide the light.

But why cant I from you? I steal form everyone else this demon inside not caring. But I feel hollow. I cant. I can't feel. Anything. Period.

And now I see what I really am,
a thief, a whore, and a liar.

I seem so perfect. A mask I hide behind. The mask I love to use. Scott can't see it. No one can. Except you.

I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, father away.

Isn't it odd as hell? The one person who hates me can destroy me. Don't look at me with that perfectly calm look on your face and say you don't hate me. You do. Everyone does. They hate me for this façade because somehow somewhere they know its fake.

I'm numb to you. Numb and deaf and blind.
You give me all but the reason why.

Of course you reach out. You say no one hates me they love me. Shows what the hell you know.

I reach but I feel only air at night.
Not you, not love, just nothing

You say everyone hates you. No they don't. Your so god damn blind. You have a brother who would do anything for you; you have every x man in the palm of your hand.

I run to you,
Call out your name.
I see you there, father away.

Rogue, every member of the x men and a good third of the brotherhood likes you. Even some of the acolytes.

Try to forget you,
but without you I feel nothing.

You know you're the only one who has ever seen this, how sad how god damn pathetic my one rival in the x men sees my weakness yet none of my "friends" ever has.

Don't leave me here, by myself.
I can't breathe.

God, shut up! I hate how you always simplify things. You sound like the goddamn voice in my head. Not that it matters. Anymore.

I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, father away.

No you can't stop me. Get it bitch? You cant. No one can. By the way thank Logan for keeping the gun in his drawer were I could get it. I didn't even have to break the lock. Well tell everyone I'll see them in hell. You too sweetheart.

I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, father away

Goodbye Rogue.

Farther Away

Please review, this might end up not being a one shot. I have no idea. This story is dragging me were it wants to go.I have the rug burns to prove it.