I was playing video games with Seth, we were racing against each other, his tongue sticking out slightly as he tried to concentrate, it wouldn't help him. I was feeling tired, we had been sitting in his small room for a few hours now and I was getting warm.

We had been out for the day with, Jake, quill and Embry to the beach, playing Soccer and messing around. Paul and Sam had gone off together, it seemed they were too god to be hanging around with us now, they were a few years older than us.

Seth was my best friend at school. It was like another family on the Rez, I stayed over Seth's a few times a month. His Mom sue was best friends with my Mom, we were perceived as outsiders to the native residents but that didn't phase us.

I was waiting for Mom to pick my up from Seths' it was coming up to my 16th birthday. I looked at the clock it was nearly 10pm I used to like when Mom was late it meant that I could stay at Sheths house for later, The door bell rang a few seconds passed then there was loud knock at the door, I thought it was my Mom, I went to the front door and opened it, the Sheriff stood there, with a lady in a suit behind him, another officer still in the car I just called for Sue.

3 years later

I squinted as I looked up at the blinding sun, I couldn't believe it I was going back to my home, I had moved to my Aunt and Uncles in the city as they were my legal guardians, they were nothing like my parents, I didn't want to leave my other family, my only friends my Rez family, I missed them so much, waiting for the day that I came home, I have visited Mom once or twice but it was up to my Aunt and Uncle when and where I could go, they gambled, they lived for it, thy would die without it. I was free I was gone. I could become me again. I couldn't wait to see Sue after all of these years. I had tried to stay in touch with Seth, but it was hard, we wrote letters to each other, that way my Aunt and Uncle didn't know, they checked my phone and E-mail as though they were paranoid. Later I found out my Aunt and uncle had been keeping letters from Seth so I never read them, I was heart broken. I wrote a letter telling him everything, how I was coming back.

I sprayed a few squirts of Moms favourite perfume on me, I remember her spraying it, in front of her large mirror, fixing her hair, checking her out fit over and over again, choosing earrings for her and watching her curl her hair, the way she so carefully put her lipstick on. and walked out. I placed my bag out of the way of the door, just near a potted plant, it weighed a tonne. I never heard Seth come home. Sues house always felt so much like home, when I turned up at her house, she welcomed me in with open arms, the familiar smell of fresh cookies and something simmering for dinner, had memories flooding back to me, the house hadn't changed that much the same sights and sounds that shaped my childhood. It was warm and cosy. I pulled my hair behind my ear and walked around the corner towards the kitchen, my stomach growling with hunger.

I heard the door open with a rush, then shut fast and hard, I felt like I shouldn't be here for a second, a sense of dread washed over me, I felt my hands become clammy. I knew it was him, from his goofy laugh. I could see him standing in the kitchen with his back to me. His hair was now short at the sides and longer throughout the middle, he looked like a body builder, he was so defined, his shirt framing him well, his cut off jeans showing his muscular legs off, Sue was swatting his hand away from something she was cooking shaking her head. He seemed to stop and turn his head slightly, almost smelling me, he face, his childish face now replaced with a man's, his cheeky goofy smile bringing one to my own face.

'No Way!' he almost cried out, when he saw me. MY best friend rushed over and literally swept me off of my feet and spun me around once, I laughed out loud and clung on to him, he placed me down I pulled my hair away from my face.

'You're back I only just got your letter!' he said holding on to me

'Well I couldn't wait I had to come see you all!' I laughed I hadn't felt so happy nd excited in such a long time, I was home

'Seth look at you' I said looking him up and down.

'ME?' he beamed looking at me

'You look amazing' he said beaming I smiled at him it all felt so surreal, we all chatted through lunch catching up over the past few years. Sue washed up while Seth and I sat in the living room chatting still, I asked about the people from school and the guys from the Rez, while Seth asked about life in the City.

I felt so sleepy, I sat just looking at Seth as he watched T.V, I smiled and closed my eyes, so much had changed, I woke up with a start, I was laying on the sofa with a heavy blanket over me I was still at Sues, I closed my eyes again and took a deep breath. I woke up when I heard the clattering of dishes, I sat up and walked over to Sue.

'Morning dear' she smiled

'Sue I'm so thankful for you letting me stay the night, thank you so much' I almost gushed out of embarrassment, she walked over and pushed my hair out of my face.

'You can stay here as long as you like' she said with her soft smile I felt a pain go through my chest thinking how she must have missed Mom too.

'Thank you' I smiled back at her

'So much like your Mom' she said tilting her head slightly. Reaching out and touching my hair.

I folded up the blanket and had a shower and got changed I put my dirty clothes in a separate bag, I walked out in some shorts and a top, I loved how cool it was back here it was too hot and airless in the city. I walked out drying my hair it felt like I walked in to a wall, I dropped my towel, I bent down and picked it up. I glanced up Seth stood over me, just some cut offs on, no top, his ripped body I straightened up, not looking away from him.

'You okay?' he asked me placing his warm hand on my arm I just nodded and thanked him, seeming to have lost my voice, I felt my cheeks begin to burn I looked away and hurried off.

Sue had gone off to work, I sat looking through my phone.

'Why don't I show you around at what has changed since you left us?' Seth said eating some toast I nodded at I'm and smiled, I grabbed my wallet and phone and shoved them in my pockets, we walked around La Push, nothing had changed around there, faces had more wrinkles, the beach was still stunning.

'So are you working?' I asked him

'Yeah I work at the garage' he smiled

'No way I thought you said you wouldn't want to work somewhere like that?' I smiled as I remembered the look on his face when he told me. He laughed out loud tilting his head back as he did

'Yeah, hell I love it now' he said pointing in the distance to a small bumpy track

'Show me?' I asked him he seemed to hesitate but agreed as he walked me over to the garage.

We walked in the place was quite big, a few cars in depth, the noise loud and echoing around the building, voices shouting and a radio all going on.

'Hey pup!' someone called out from the back I looked round I saw Seth shuffle uncomfortably. A guy twice the size of Seth walked out, his skin was so smooth though he had stubble that laid on his skin like a shadow, his jaw so strong, he almost took up a door way, I just froze, I reached out for Seth without even realizing I did it, he broke out in to a smile like Seths, making me relax.

'Hey Jake' Seth smiled

'Who's this?' he asked looking me up and down I was just looking at him still holding on to Seth

'Jake do you remember Lilly?' he said pointing at me, he squinted slightly, then widened when he remembered

'Lily wow you've grow up' he said smiling

'You too' I said looking at him letting go of Seth, I looked around the garage, I saw Jake give Seth a wink, we were always close more like best friends than anything else. We stood and had a chat for a little while. I could hardly hear him over all the noise

'I better get back to work' Jake said

''later' Seth said

'Nice to see you again' Jake said looking at me

'You too' I said raising my hand slightly.

We walked back through LaPush chatting away, when we got to Forks, my palms got that clammy feeling, I was a different person now, that small round girl that left here all those year, I felt like I stood here as her right now. We walked past the shops, I peered in, old book shops were now coffee shops, an old antique shop was now a dress shop.

'Did you go to prom?' I asked him as I looked upon the gowns

'No, did you?' he said sounding sad

'No, I saved up my money for the dress' I said stopping I couldn't continue I felt that lump in my throat. My Aunt and Uncle didn't let me go, they returned the dress and kept the money as my Uncle loved to gamble and saw the dress when he was getting low on money.

'Lil?' he snapped me back to reality

'I think it is all over rated' I said and linked my arm with his and carried on walking around, wondering if my life would be any different if I had stayed in Forks and around LAPush.