Dancing On Water
By:
Fear Die Rothaarige
I want to dance on water. I wanna walk out onto the middle of a lake or pond in the middle of night, the full moon high above my head and just let myself subcome to the urge. I wanna let lose, let my body do what it wishes. I want to fell the water slowly take me hostage and never let go. I want to dance on water and lose myself.
Everyone runs around all day doing something. They are always busy, and I am guilty of this myself, but I want to take a break from this and just dance. Humans as a whole do not know how to stop. They don't know that if you take a break from something for even a few moments, the world won't stop turning. They don't know what the meaning of relaxing is. But me... I wanna take a step back from life and dance.
I'm a ballarina. I know how to jump and twirl and come down on my feet. I can move across a stage with the grace of a bird. This skill is something that is rare among the people today. It's a lost art.
You probably think I'm crazy, and maybe I am just a tad bit, but who cares? In this world people do crazy shit all the time. They drink. They smoke. They have sex. They live by breaking the rules. And me you might ask? I live by the rules. But I'm tried of living by the rules. And at the same time I do. What is wrong with me?
Would I be breaking the rules by letting the water swallow me whole and never comming back again? Maybe I should find out.
When I look up at the night sky, I can't see the stars. I hate it. As a child I didn't live in a cramped apartment. I lived in the country where you could drive for miles without seeing anything but trees. I want to go back there. And there is the first time that dancing on water came into my mind, and it hasn't left since then. I miss being able to look into the sky and seeing the moon shine in her full glory. I miss the sight of the stars twinkling on a crisp winter night. I miss the smell of flowers in the spring. I miss it all.
Maybe I'll go back to the small town with a population of 300 and live in a place that can only be described as peace instead of this death trap of a city. Maybe if I go back I can dance on the water. Oh how I wish to leave this dreaded city and never look back.
I hate how the dance here. Its all planned out and you have to follow it with accuracy or you're punished. I wanna be able to let myself go and not think about dancing, but just dance without a thought in my mind at all.
If I dance on the water will I be able to find who I want to be and lose this person who I've become?
When I dance on the water I'll find out once and for all.
Disclaimer: I do not own Black Swan, but it is an epic movie.
I wrote this while having a conversation with a former ballet dance who actually danced as the White Swan in Swan Lake. I dedicate this to you Wili!
Sorry for any and all spelling or grammar mistakes.
Later!