Hello Readers this is my first fic I hope you like it.

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THINGS TO KNOW BEFORE READING:

8888888888: this means flashback

italics: thinking(of course I think we all use this)

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Now for the sake of not wanting a lawsuit on my hands and having millions of dollars of being in debt due to being sued here is this.

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own any of Stephanie Meyers books nor will I ever.

Read and ejnoy.

I was driving my truck thinking about how Edward seemed so distant. His face seemed to be void of emotion. It scared me, I think he's overreacting to the event that only happened last week on my birthday.

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I had just come home from school only to find Edward in my room smiling hugely.

"Happy birthday my angel." He exclaimed.

"I have a surprise for you Bella."

I glared at him. He knew I didn't like surprises, his reaction was simply laughing and pulling me to him. I let myself hit against his cold perfectly sculpted chest. I then felt a vibration coming from his pocket.. He pulled out his cell phone flipping it open. I could hear Alice excitedly squealing on the other line.

"It's ready!"

Edward murmured ok and the next thing I knew, he had thrown me on his back and was jumping off my windowsill onto the ground. His car was in the driveway, my heart jumped at the recognition of the silver Volvo glistening with moisture. He ran me to the car and gently placed me inside. Before I could even blink my eyes we were down the street going about one ten. I tried not to look out the widow at the world whizzing past me. I might have a heart attack if I did. So instead I focused on Edward. His skin was flawless, he had some of his long reddish-brown hair falling over his right eye. His delicious bow shaped lips were slightly parted. He was perfectly breath taking in every way. What did I do to deserve him?

I heaved a sigh causing him to turn towards me. His topaz eyes focused intently on me. His brow was furrowed but his skin still remained flawless.

"What's wrong Bella?" He questioned worriedly.

"Oh nothing I ust wonder what Alice was talking about." was all I could reply.

His mouth curved up in a kind of half smile dazing me and making me forget what I just said.

"You'll see." He purred still holding that crooked breathtaking smile. We stopped at the edge of the forest and got out.

"You ready to ride me?" He whispered seductively in my ear.

For a second I had almost thought that he was implying something completely different than what he meant. I felt a raging blush cover my face as I imagined what it would be like to be with Edward in that way. He leaned in and kissed me lightly since we still had boundaries, with him craving my blood and all. His lips brushed up against mine. Automatically my arms went up around his neck pulling him closer. I desperately wanted to deepen our kiss. He allowed me to put a little more pressure. I parted my lips wanting to invite him in. As soon as I did he pulled away leaving me gasping for air.

"Bella you're too much you know that?" he gasped while shaking has head.

I simply smiled looking innocent. He just rolled his eyes and walked over pulling me onto his back.

"Come on Bella Alice is waiting..." He said matter-of-factly.

"Oh and Bella?"

"Yeah." I responded, my voice sounding childish.

"Please keep an open mind." His eyes held a pleading look.

"I will." I couldn't help but to give in.

We finally came to a stop in front of his family's home, which I hoped would become mine also soon. All I could do was hope, Edward was strongly against making me a vampire. I let another sigh escape me. He gave me another worried look. I smiled up at him than grabbed his hand inter winding my fingers with his.

"Come on Alice is waiting." I said in a mocking voice. He laughed and pulled me along.

We made it up to the porch when a blur of black and white flew in passed us and stopped in front of the door. She had placed her hands on each side of the door frame and blocking our entrance.

"Wait, I want to see your reaction!" she squealed.

"Are you ready?"

"Yes Alice I'm ready, I've been ready." I sarcastically remarked.

"Okay no need for harshness..." Her smiled faltered, but was quickly replaced.

She slowly, but steadily creeped the door open. I felt myself grow impatient. "Today Alice...unlike you guys, I don't have forever." The words came out harshly. I immediately regretted them as soon as they left my mouth. A pained looked crossed Edwards face contorting his perfect features. He still looked gorgeous enough to be a god. The look lingered for a few seconds before disappearing into the calm, collective look he always wore. My heart began to ache.

"I wish I could be like them already and not have to hurt Edwards feelings every time I say something like this."

I felt so hopeless.

"And now Isabella Swan, welcome to your surprise Birthday party!!" Alice chimed musically breaking the awkward moment.

All I could do was stand in the doorway and gape with my mouth hanging open. Alice never ceased to amaze me. There were blue and black streamers all along the house hanging from the ceiling, wrapped around poles there were even some on the table legs. I could see blue confetti spread evenly along the beautifully crafted dining table. There was a big black banner hanging from the ceiling that said "Happy Birthday Bella!!" in big blue glittery letters. Edward led me into the kitchen where Carlisle, Esme, jasper, Emmett, and even Rosalie stood waiting.

"Surprise Bella!!!"

They all they all exclaimed in unison. I felt tears well up in my eyes as I saw a cake in their hands. The cake was huge. It had to be at least two feet wide, and it looked about three inches tall. I stepped closer to get a better look. The icing was navy blue with black around the border. In the center was a picture of me and Edward together smiling happily. A long the top of the cake in black icing it read.

"Happy 18th Birthday Bella we all love you."

I looked up at each one of their faces saving Edwards for last.

"Thank you, thank you all, I'm glad to be here. I love all of y'all too, I feel like I'm almost apart of the family." My voice was thick with emotion.

"Bella you are apart of this family, you are my daughter in every way." Esme stepped in with her eyes shining down at me full of pride and love.

"Yeah Bella, you're the bestest friend and sister I could ever ask for." Alice piped up.

"Besides who else would we watch fall flat on their face," Emmet snorted, everyone laughed.

"I know we don't really much but I still see you as family so don't worry about feeling like it because you are whether you want to or not. Your stuck with us now." jasper said with laughing joyful eyes.

That was the most I had ever heard jasper say at one time and it caught me off guard. He always seemed so distant, but that was only because he was adjusting to being a "vegetarian". I was overcome with emotion I was pretty much crying.

"Really, thank you everyone, you have no idea how much this means to me." I bawled.

Edward pulled me closer to him holding me tightly. That's when I realized that Rosalie hadn't said anything. When I looked back up I noticed her looking down and kind of shuffling her feet. I quickly brushed it aside and focused back on the party.

"What are you gonna do with all of this cake! I couldn't possibly eat all of this by myself!" I exclaimed. They all just shrugged their shoulders and laughed. Alice disappeared and reappeared in an instant with a lighter in one hand and candles in the other. She easily placed the candles in the exact center of the cake. The candles were black and blue stripped numbers, one was the number one, and the other was the number eight. They were placed side by side to form the number eighteen in the middle of my cake.

"Make a wish!" Alice sang as she was lighting the candles. I took a few steps forward being careful not to trip. I closed my eyes making my wish.

"I wanted more than anything for Edward to make me a vampire."

I fluttered my eyes back open and blew the candles out. Alice started cheering and clapping like crazy. Everyone turned towards her and just started shaking their heads. It was still hard not to smile when Alice was like this. I found myself laughing and having a great time. After I ate a piece of my cake we all sat in the living room and chatted. We just talked about anything and everything.

"So Bella what do you think of all this" Carlisle questioned.

"oh I really like it all. You guys do so mu-"

"Present time!" Alice squealed.

I had been so distracted by Carlisle that I hadn't even noticed Alice leave. I turned around to see a pile of colorful boxes stacked neatly. I rushed over to start opening the pretty presents. First was Esme's present. I was so excited that I wasn't being careful. I sliced my finger and watched the blood ooze out.

"No!" I heard Edward exclaim.

I watched as he slammed hard into jaspers chest as he fought Edward to get to me. His eyes were black, glittery gems coldly placated in his face. I was terrified. I had never seen so much hate emanating from his eyes. Jasper managed to break free and dove for me. I could see him inches from my tiny, helpless form. I turned to Edward and mouthed that I was sorry. At that moment I felt the impact of cold, hard stone followed by a loud crash . I felt a stinging sensation In my neck. Almost like my skin was being peeled off. I let out an agonizing scream. The outside of my neck felt like it was on fire. My head started throbbing and a wave of nausea swept over me as I smelt my own blood. I cringed my nose at the iron, salty smell. I could hear Edwards voice frantically screaming my name. His voice sounded strained from controlling his thirst.

"I'm so sorry Bella, I shouldn't have brought you!" He mumbled hoarsely. I wanted to reach out and tell him it wasn't his fault, but I seemed to be paralyzed and noises were fading away. Finally it was silent.

I slowly blinked open my eyes.

"Did I die?" I thought.

And that's chapter one,

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