My Life

Summary: This is Pre-Divergent to the end of Divergent from Four/Tobias' POV. Rated T for violence and character death.

Disclaimer: I don't own Divergent or any of the characters except Cloe, Matthew, and Jesse. Everything else goes to Veronica Roth.

Preface

"Why dad? Why do you hurt me, is it for your own pleasure?"

"No Tobias I don't hurt you" my father Marcus replied while he was whipping me. Let me explain what is happening my name is Tobias I'm a 16 year old boy from Abnegation and my father has been beating me since I got home from school which has been a few hours. Today was the aptitude test where we find out what faction we would be good in mine were inclusive so I'm divergent. People say it like it's a jinx but I don't get what the big deal is. My test results were recorded as Abnegation My father doesn't know my results were inconclusive and I'd like to keep it that way. On my way home from school I saw a fourteen year old girl I think she's the daughter of my father's co-worker. Just by the way she looks if I hadn't gone with my father to their house a few times I would have thought she was 10. Her name is Beatrice and she has an older brother and I think his name is Caleb. My mom left us when I was little dad says she died but I know better she lives among the factionless I've passed her on my way home from school before.

~Time Skip (next morning)~

It's time to get ready for the rest of my life. In a few hours I would be in my new faction. I would either be in Dauntless or Erudite probably Dauntless cause its what I enjoy. I sometimes wonder what would happen if somebody did find out why I switched factions.

The Choosing Ceremony

This year Dauntless is the faction to lead in two years it would be Abnegation's turn again and my father would be in charge as always. I can't wait to get away from here. They call names in reverse order so I will be called last considering my last name starts with e. The first person is from Abnegation and he chose to switch to Candor when it was finally my turn I was given a knife and I cut my hand fast so it wouldn't hurt as much. I was looking around and I chose to leave my father for Dauntless. When I let the blood run off my hand into the sizzling coals I heard lots of gasps because I was Marcus' son. Well the other Abnegation boy could switch without complaint but I couldn't just because I was Marcus' son. Why can't I have a normal life. I then go to stand behind the other Dauntless initiates they are my new family. After the rest of the teens got sorted we went to the stairs which I thought was odd because taking the stairs was a selfless act and the Dauntless definitely weren't selfless. We didn't walk up the stairs like I used to but we ran up and it was exhilarating then we had to jump on a moving train and a sandy haired Erudite couldn't make it on the train. I made friends with an Amity girl, her name was Cloe. Being me I was cautious around her because Amity was not a faction that usually transferred to Dauntless or any other faction for that matter.

"Hi Cloe my name is Tobias" she quickly shied away from me so I guessed she probably was here for a reason similar to mine so I asked her why she left she said it was too calm and she asked me why I left so I had to lie. "I left because... um my brother kept picking on me about how I didn't fit in with them so I left and came here" my answer probably wasn't the best but it was the best I could come up with but she bought it there was also this really annoying greasy black haired Erudite that I'm not that particularly fond of his name is Eric. It seems that all he cares about is power I'm not that fond of power mostly because my dad is a power freak and look how he turned out. Well now I guess we will have to jump off the train. Cloe looked wary "come on Cloe it's now or never" I finally got her to jump so we both can continue with initiation. Somebody comes up behind us and I see a Dauntless and he said that we had to jump off of course Eric the Erudite would be the first to jump the then two Dauntless born jumped, their names were Lauren and Zeke then I jumped and I was screaming and flailing my arms the the whole way down. When I finally got down and landed on the net some guy asked me what my name was and I said Tobias.

"There are three stages in initiation the first one is separate the second and third ones are together. For the first stage the dauntless borns will come with me and the transfers will go with Matthew" Matthew was a guy who looked like he was in his 20s or so he was tall about 5'9" and had dark brown almost black hair.

"You will follow me to the Pit" a Candor asks why it's called the Pit but when we get there he realizes why the Pit is a really good name for it cause it's a giant pit. "Next you will follow me down to the chasm and be warned almost every year someone's life is ended when they jump over" I knew that I was going to want to come here a lot so I could "get away from my father".

"Hey Tobias what are you thinking about, your old faction or the fact that you're scared to shoot a gun?" Eric asked. I don't know why but I think he has it out for me.

"No I'm thinking about ways I can beat you up cause you aren't the biggest so I might have an easier time"

"Watch it Stiff because I might accidently trip you in the chasm"

"Look I'm no longer a Stiff I switched factions so technically I'm no longer a Stiff." He looked confused so I asked him this "Do you need me to repeat that for you because you left Erudite because your brain was too small and you couldn't keep up with them"

"I left Erudite because I didn't like it"

"You think I'm actually going to believe that. You can tell all that to the other Erudite but I think you're a scared little boy that couldn't get along with his faction"

"Why did you leave because you hated your life or because of your daddy kept beating you" I winced "So it's true"

"What's true" I asked playing dumb.

"You know what I'm talking about so act like it. Playing dumb might work with your little Amity friend but I know better I know when someone is lying so did daddy beat little Tobias"

"NO I was looking for some danger and fear in my life unlike you I don't believe everything that's in the paper"

"Break it up Stiff, Eric, it's time to go to the dorms tomorrow we start training so get a good sleep" Matthew said. God it's so annoying having everyone call me a Stiff I left Abnegation why don't they get that.

~Time Skip~(First Stage of Initiation)

"Today you will learn how to shoot a gun"

"Why do we need to know how to shoot a gun" Cloe asked.

"You are far less likely to run screaming if you know how to defend yourself so no questions asked" He answered while passing around guns. When I got mine it almost weighed me down it was so heavy and I was not the strongest. I guess I would have to get better at that if I want to survive here. I hit the target finally after missing about 30 times. Well now it's time for lunch so I can eat but I'm kind of scared for the fighting and there is an even number so I wonder who I'll be fighting. When I walked in I saw my name next to Cloe's and I almost fainted because I could easily knock her out with one punch. When we got called I whispered that I really liked her and would try not to hurt her. I was right and I knocked her out with one punch and I felt really bad. On visiting day my dad didn't show up but at least I still wasn't waiting for him. For the rankings I got 5th so I might still become a Dauntless member.

~Time Skip~ (Second Stage of Initiation)

Well today was the first day of the simulations and I was in a small space and the walls were closing in on me and I couldn't escape. The next day I was on a train and I couldn't get off and I was stuck about 100 stories above ground. For the third day there was a lady standing and facing me with a gun and next to me was a gun so i took it that I was supposed to shoot her so I pick up the gun aim and close my eyes and shoot blindly. Apparently I hit her because the simulation ended. On the next day I was stuck in the closed space the simulations finally finished we saw results and I thought we weren't supposed to be ranked for stage two. So I asked Matthew why we were ranked for this stage and he said they weren't our actual ranks just a progress.

~Time Skip~ (Third Stage of Initiation)

Today we went into Jesse's fear landscape. It was interesting the fear that I went into but I wonder how my fear landscape will look when I go into it tomorrow. When I went into my fear landscape I only had four fears so when I got out the Dauntless leaders said that four fears were impressive and I was the only person to have four fears and I asked them to call me Four. When we saw the final ranks I got first and Eric got second so I got to choose where I went first. I chose to work in the control room and of course Eric would choose to be a Dauntless leader.

~Time Skip~ (Next Year)

So everyone is calling me Four and everything is good right? Wrong my best friend Cloe jumped off the chasm with no reason she just left in the middle of the night with... wait I think I know what happened she left with Eric.

"Eric what did you do to Cloe?"

"What, is your little Amity friend missing?"

"Yes and I know you had something to do with it she was pulled out of the chasm this morning and she went somewhere with you last night and she never came back with you"

"You have no proof"

"I don't care I still know it was you who killed her"

I was really sad about Cloe and all but I had to get back to work. All that year I was sad and grieving over Cloe. I didn't let it get in the way of my work.

A/N I know that was a long chapter but a lot happens in between when Four was 16 and when Tris was 16.