So, I was sitting in a restaurant after finishing tech for the day eating bacon (yum) when this totally, just randomly came to me and I had to write it down. Nothing special about it, it just appeared in my head and I knew that I had to type it up. Just gonna be a few words.
Warnings: Brief Mention of suicide at beginning.
Sometimes in Dean's mind he wonders if he should just give up. What would his life, or rather his afterlife, be like if he took a bullet or did it the old fashioned way. It wouldn't be the first time and considering the way things were and the life he led, it wouldn't be the last. Having come close when he made his decision to become Michael's bitch, he had a taste of what it was like and couldn't lie and say it didn't feel good.
Life just kept throwing crap at him and the latest pile had completely knocked down his wall. He never realised just how much Cas's death affected him and the fact that he had tried to stop him, pleaded with him, made him feel in some way that it was his fault. Doesn't matter who the person was, his dad, Sam, Lisa, Ben: they were just a few of the long list of names of people he had let down. Anyone who even closely resembled family were hurt in unimaginable ways, or dead.
Dean realised his mistake in treating Cas like family, like a brother. It was only a matter of time before his curse intervened.
But now, well how he even managed to stay upright and moving without collapsing and telling the world he was done. Bobby was like a second father. Scratch that, he was his second father. He'd even go as far to say he was more so than John, who did but only in his own twisted way. The chances weren't good for Bobby. Just as his Sam and he went to say goodbye to him before his surgery he woke up. Dean thought briefly in his head it was a miracle, but he should have known better. Miracles don't exist. At least not for him.
With the last of his strength Bobby feebly wrote on Sam's hand, something he had yet to understand, and muttered the one word he'd always affectionately called them. Then he was gone, or may be not for Dean and Sam were pushed out of the room with nurses racing in to save him.
That was 37 minutes ago and still no word.
The more time that went by, the more his hopes dwindled, but his rage and anger grew stronger. If, God forbid, Bobby didn't pull through there would be hell to pay and he knew exactly where he would be going first. Public figure or no public figure.
Dean was taken out of his rage filled thoughts as the doctor emerged from Bobby's room. His face was a mask, something he had probably perfected over his years as a doctor. Then he spoke, his words filling Dean with all kinds of emotions...
Leaving it there, I want to know what your thoughts are. Do you believe Bobby is dead? I have to admit that I believed he would pull through, until I read the synopsis for the next episode. I now think he is dead but I think he will come back when Cas comes back. Then again it is Supernatural, who knows what they will do...