"This is all your fault! You're the reason Cas is always looking over his shoulder and almost dying everyday! You're the reason I can't sleep at night! You're the reason Sam cries! You! I hate you!"
"…"
Tears roll uselessly down my face for the first time in years, I lower my head so Dean can't see them, I can sense Sam listening from the doorway and Cas in the room above but I don't acknowledge them. He was right. This was my fault; this is what I get for getting too close to humans. If only I'd stayed away.
"I know…I hate me too, but don't worry…I'll kill myself someday, I promise."
I looked up and smiled at him despite the tears that were now hysterically rolling down my face; I made a whining sound before lifting my hands to cover my eyes.
"I'm sorry Dean Winchester, I'm sorry Sam Winchester, I'm sorry Castiel…I'm sorry I existed and invaded your lives. I'm sorry I haven't died sooner. I'm sorry I didn't stay in Hell away from you…keeping you safe. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I can't fix this. I'm sorry that you feel this much pain. I'm sorry. I'm sorry…"
I forced my head up to look at Dean's shocked face.
"I'm sorry you had to suffer my existence…"
"But don't worry…"
"You won't have to anymore."