The wind was soft on her face, but it made her feel her own tears, falling slowly trough her cheeks, she was smiling and crying deeply at the same time, at times like this she loved her secret place more than anything, she could be alone, only now she understood every little thing.
The whole story was already written, in her heart Kosaki knew what was going to happen but her heart suffered contemplating the path laying in front of her feet.
At a certain moment everything might had been different…if only she was braver.
Yes, if she coulda been brave enough to declare her feelings to Ichijou-kun, in the end this was all some short of punishment to her cowardice and how could she expect a different result…wasn't she obliged to help Chitoge by the promise the two girls did some time ago?
And only Ruri-san knew of her feelings, Chitoge and Ichijou-kun, the rest of the gang were in the dark…except for Haru, Kosaki smiled thinking of her sister's reaction to all these new events, but soon enough her smile felt a little too bitter too keep.
She was still crying when the presence of someone else made her feel watched.
Of course, there was someone who was going to look for her right there after the whole scene happened.
-Onodera are you ok?-His voice could still melt her heart but now a painful ache pierced her chest as well.
-Oh Ichijou-kun what are you doing here?-She answered trying in vain to keep her tears away.
-You're not ok Onodera, I couldn't let you go alone like this could I?-He nswered still so sweet, still so lost.
-You have to Ichijou-kun.-Oh! How she wished she coulda felt this strenght before, many days before when the dice were not yet on the table.-You need to go back to Chitoge, you and her have a lot of talk to do, after all the false love is no more, at least it's not false anymore.
She smiled and felt something broken inside of her.
-We played a tragedy here after all-she said to herself as the wind hitted her hair once more.
She could feel that even now he wished to clean her tears from her face, but it was all too late for that.
-You will go and keep writing your story with Chitoge I think and you could be really happy when everything's said and done, there is more in her than meets the eye…you already love her after all.
-O…Onodera.-As usual Raku couldn't make his way around words with her but this time it was for a different reason.
-To be honest with you Ichijou-kun I provoked these tears to myself, so there is nothing you can do to help it, my silence so to speak is the thing making me cry right now, my silence and my lies.-She felt a strange force moving inside of her, one that could be called dark even. Raku didn't really answered so she kept talking- I lied to you after all, to you and about you more times than I can remember, even Haru confessed she loved someone back in the festival but I couldn't…I was afraid and there is a price to pay to do such things Ichijou-kun.
She saw him right in the eyes.
-I was more than a little inlove with you, but I'm not saying this as a confession, it would be unfair for Chitoge, I couldn't call myself her friend if I made a move on you, I'm just telling you because if this remains within me, this silence will wither me, it might kill me Ichijou-kun, it might become inside of me a thing of pain and even dark and I don't want it, because my love for you was a beautiful thing and I better let go of it before it corrupts itself, and this is a good place don't you think? We had good moments here as friends, because you've been a friend like I never thought I could have one…in the end all of the moments we had together I will treasure them as something special, ours will be a story unwritten jointed here and there with the beautiful adventures we had, but now you will go and be with Chitoge and don't you dare to think for a minute about me, our story will die with the light of this day just as it reached it's climax long ago, we will walk separate paths but I know you will be a nice memory in mine and I hope I too are a nice moment in yours but nothing more…
She couldn't fight back the tears anymore, she collapsed but he prevented her from falling with his arms.
-An unwritten story.-He repeated to himself.-Onodera.
-Yes Raku, no, Ichijou-kun, just a beautiful story that was supposed to end like this, but even if it didn't end where I wished…and I've already told you why such a course happened…even then I don't regret it I insist, I came to Bonyari looking for you but I defined little by little what and whom I could be, so I found myself if not you within this time, youth has to be an amazing age, full of wonder and thanks to you and Chitoge-san, Ruri and Tachibana and Tsugumi too I indeed will keep the most valuable memories of my youth, that I do not regret. I was not the girl of the promise anyway, so it was never supposed to be me at your side…even if the promise girl was a tragedy of a different kind…no, more precisely because that was a tragedy too I think you deserve to go and have a happy ending now Ichijou-kun, you have a kind heart and I do know with all my being that you deserve such, my dear friend.
At this point Raku was crying too, the memories of their time together burning through his eyes and his skin, he always thought of her, he thought of her too much and acted too little and eventually the false love indeed changed the game.
The sounds of insects all around was interrupted by steps, not the kind of far away steps and city sounds but very present and near steps, two pairs of those.
Ruri and Haru arrive when the sun had dissapeared and the light of the day was definitely dying all around town.
-You have to go Ichijou.-one of the girls said.-We are here, we will take care of Kosaki.
-What a fool senpai! I told you that if you ever made my sister cry you will pay, but I can wait, go and do what has to be done and in any other day I will make you pay for the tears of my big sis.
Raku knew they were right, and he walked away from the secret place of Kosaki Onodera, leaving only three shadows, and only one of those shadows had a bright in herself.
He would never see Kosaki again but he didn't knew such thing in that moment, he left her as a shadow in a summer night and went to see the Princess, not far from there Tsugumi was waiting for him.
-What happened to Onodera-san? Is she ok?-Tsugumi asked.-At any rate we need to go back to Ojou ASAP.
-Onodera will be fine.-Raku answered, and even if he was going convinced to Chitoge he knew a little part of his heart wasn't going to be fine in a long while, probably never…