All Falls Down
Chapter 1
Love sucked.
Tears poured from her hazel eyes as Navy –her full name was Naveya, but she preferred to be called Navy- Dawson stared out the window of her Seattle apartment. She shared it with her father, Mark Dawson, who owned a real estate company in Seattle currently. He traveled all over the United States though and sometimes even to different countries, Europe being the primary one. Navy was left alone a lot to say the least, only seeing her father once a week if she was lucky, so the apartment was pretty much hers.
She still couldn't believe she was here, pining for a man who wanted absolutely nothing to do with her, while he chased a woman who merely used him for her own selfish needs. It made Navy sick to her stomach every time she thought about him, shaking her head in disgust. To think she'd wasted nearly two years of her life on him made her even sicker and Navy knew she couldn't do it anymore.
Jacob Black had been her best friend since they were toddlers. Navy was raised and grew up in Forks, Washington, which was roughly three and a half hours away from her hometown. She remembered when Jacob would buy her a box of chocolates every Valentine's Day and ask her to be his valentine. They were merely eleven years old, but Navy already knew she would never love anyone as much as Jacob.
How that was so long ago; how so much had changed since the good old days.
Ever since Isabella Swan moved to Forks.
Navy narrowed her eyes and grabbed some tissues, wiping the tears away from her cheeks, hating the mere thought of Bella. That was the woman Jacob pined for, the girl he loved more than life itself, the girl who simply used him and nothing more. How many times Navy had tried making Jacob see the light she'd lost count, finally not able to do it anymore.
She would never forget the day Bella Swan arrived in Forks, Washington and how Jacob had been excited. Navy vaguely remembered Bella from when they were little, though Jacob apparently had. Bella moved away from Forks when she was five years old or so –Navy honestly didn't remember- because of her parents divorcing…only to move back when she was seventeen years old to live with her father Charlie Swan.
She'd been over at the Black house when Billy, Jacob's father, announced it was time to leave to go to Charlie's. Jacob nearly tripped over his own feet to get out the door and Navy remembered the excitement in his eyes. It was almost as if his true best friend had finally come back to Forks and she was left in the darkness. Billy had given Bella Swan his old rusty reddish orange truck that Jacob had worked day and night to finish before she arrived. He rebuilt the entire engine for her, though Navy had no idea it was for Bella until that day.
Closing her eyes, Navy simply released her anguish and pain, allowing the past to fully consume her every thought…
"Are you going to the rink with me today?" Kendra Nelson asked, walking alongside her best friend Navy, a bright smile on her face. "You know you need to get the practice in."
"Yeah, Jacob is busy." Navy replied softly, holding her books against her chest, chewing her bottom lip, her long auburn locks pooling down her back hugging her waist. "I know I've been slacking lately."
"Yes you have, slacker." Kendra smirked, wrapping an arm around her friend's shoulders. "But since I love you so much, I'm willing to overlook your flaws and give you one more chance."
Navy couldn't help laughing, rolling her hazel eyes, shaking her head. "How many chances have you given me?" She retorted with a smirk of her own, turning the corner with Kendra.
"Not enough apparently."
Kendra Nelson was a pistol full of life and energy, rarely letting anything ever bother her, and lived in Forks like Navy. She had shoulder length black hair with ruby red tips and deep sparkling grey eyes. She was a professional figure skater –when she wasn't at school getting straight A's- and won a few championships already in the singles category. The woman could do practically anything when she slipped her white ice skates on, feeling truly at home in an ice rink.
Aside from Jacob, Kendra was her best friend.
Jacob Black was part of the Quileute tribe and lived on the reservation in La Push, Washington. It was around a half an hour away from Forks, depending how fast one drove. He stood well over six feet tall and had beautiful long satin black hair, which was normally pulled back in a messy loose ponytail or left down. His incredible dark eyes are what Navy the most because they were the deepest brown she'd ever seen.
"So what's going on with Jake?" Kendra asked, breaking Navy out of her deep thoughts, knowing they had Study Hall next. "Woman, you need to stop daydreaming."
"Sorry, what did you ask?" Navy sighed heavily, raking a hand through her hair, not believing how lost in thought she became whenever Jacob entered her mind.
"I said what's going on with Jake today?" Kendra repeated herself, arching a black eyebrow, which contrasted nicely against her somewhat tanned skin.
"Oh, he's welcoming a childhood friend home to Forks." Navy replied nonchalantly, though deep down inside it seared her. "He redid Billy's old truck and they're giving it to her. I think her name is Isabella Swan if I remember correctly."
Kendra arched an eyebrow, knowing that name rang a bell, and snapped her fingers when it came to her. "Ohhh! She's Chief Swan's daughter."
"Charlie Swan?" Navy blinked, never knowing that man had a daughter. "Oh wow, so everyone probably knows about her coming to Forks."
"Pretty much. She's already the talk of the town. Apparently, she's only visited here a few times since she was five years old. The yearbook committee is making her front page news since they handle the school's newspaper." Kendra made a gagging motion with her finger, causing Navy to laugh. "I swear I wouldn't know what to do if I had that much attention on me."
"But you do. Everyone knows how great of an ice skater you are." Navy pointed out, smirking when Kendra simply rolled her grey eyes as they walked inside Study Hall, taking their usual seats in the back.
"Right and once you're disciplined; you too will be as big of a figure skating star as I am." Kendra announced confidently, refusing to back off of her best friend, especially since the woman was a natural on the ice.
Navy sighed heavily, looking down at her notebook in thought, nodding. "You have too much faith in me, Dra." She stated and watched Kendra wave her off dismissively. "Do you really think I have what it takes?"
"Yes, that and more. You have a god given talent, Veya." Kendra stated assertively as she opened her book, sighing heavily. "Please explain to me why we need Trigonometry to graduate again?"
Navy laughed softly just as the bell rang, signaling it was time to quiet down their talking. "I don't know, why don't you ask the school board committee?" She retorted in a whisper, giggling quietly when Kendra flipped the bird.
"So, Jake knows Bella Swan because of their childhood?" Kendra asked quietly, knowing most of her subjects, Trigonometry one of them. Navy nodded, not saying a word because she honestly didn't want to talk about it. "I thought you and Jake grew up together. Wouldn't you know Bella Swan too then?"
"I honestly don't remember her. Then again, she probably didn't come down to the reservation a lot and she was just five when she left Forks." Navy replied, looking down at her English homework, beginning to write the essay that was due the following day. She was nearly done with it, also a straight A student, just like Kendra.
"Hmm that's interesting." Kendra shrugged her shoulders as they both focused on homework, always putting school first before anything else.
Navy sometimes put Jacob before her school work, but also managed to make up for it. That required all nighters every once in a blue moon, but other than that, it wasn't too bad considering Jacob went to school on the reservation. She sighed heavily and knew it was ridiculous to be jealous of Bella Swan, but couldn't help it. This was usually the day when Navy and Jacob hung out, but it'd been cancelled because of her.
Study Hall ended and Kendra parted ways with Navy, going to gym with a grumble while Navy headed to English. They were juniors and couldn't wait to graduate in a year, both deciding to attend college nearby Forks so they could live at home. Not only that, but Navy didn't know if she could handle being away from Jacob by going away to college. She knew it was stupid to base her future around him, but honestly, Navy knew she was falling in love with her best friend.
The problem was she knew Jacob did not feel the same way about her.
School seemed to drag on that day and, by the time Navy walked out of the building; she seriously never wanted to go back again. Kendra caught up with her, knowing they had a date at the rink. Navy didn't know if she was in the mood anymore to skate, just wanting to find out how Jacob's reunion with Bella Swan went. Then again, he had cancelled their usual hangout time and Navy ached to feel the cold ice surrounding her.
"You look like you lost your damn puppy. Just stop the moping already." Kendra ordered gleefully, knowing this is just the distraction her best friend needed to get her mind off of Jacob Black.
Kendra already knew how Navy felt for the guy and, for the life of her, she didn't understand it. Jacob never gave any indication he felt even remotely the same way Navy did for him and that was dangerous. Kendra didn't want Navy to keep wishing for something to happen that clearly never would and get her heart broken. Of course, she could only do so much and tell her so many times before giving up became the only option left.
"I'm sorry, I can't help it. I haven't hung out with Jake in a week and you know how I get when I don't see him." Navy knew she sounded retarded, but couldn't help how she felt. "I already know what you're going to say and I'm telling you right now don't go there, Kendra."
"No, I am going to go there because it's bullshit, Naveya." Kendra stated, refusing to hold her tongue. "Jacob doesn't feel the same way about you that you do him and all you're doing is hurting yourself by hoping that something will happen between you two."
"I can't just stop loving him, Kendra!" Navy snapped, clearly not wanting to have this conversation, hazel eyes narrowing. "Don't you think I wish I could turn it on and off like a light switch? I would give anything not to love Jacob Black, but it's impossible."
Kendra sighed as they walked to her car, knowing Navy had her own and would hopefully follow her over to the rink. "Look, all I'm saying is that you need to keep your options open. Look at me and Rick, I thought he was the love of my life and he ended up screwing Stacey behind my back." Rick was the captain of the football team and Stacey was the lead cheerleader.
"I know, but Jacob isn't like Rick. He makes me feel alive whenever I'm around him and we have a lot of interests…" Navy had heard all of this before and looked out the window, trying to push Jacob out of her mind.
"Oh and you think Rick didn't make ME feel alive? Christ, that boy made my toes curl and my eyes roll in the back of my head! I gave my virginity to him and then found out two months later he'd also been screwing that blonde bimbo." Kendra snorted, pulling her hair up in a messy bun, needing it out of her face as she arrived at her car. "All I'm saying, sweetie, is that you really need to stop pining for him. Jacob Black is still maturing; he's only fifteen years old…"
"Soon to be sixteen." Navy cut her off, folding her arms in front of her chest. "I already know I'm two years older than him, but age is just a number to me, Kendra. You know that."
Kendra sighed, knowing she wasn't getting anywhere with her best friend, simply nodding. "Fine, I'm done arguing with you about this. Just remember, when you finally do come to your senses about him, I'll be there to help you through the pain." She slipped in the driver's seat of her red Honda Civic, peeling out of the parking lot moments later.
Navy rolled her eyes, knowing Kendra was fed up with her, deciding she probably wouldn't go to the rink as planned. It was pathetic, Navy knew that and Kendra was constantly harping on her about it. How could she just ignore how she felt for Jacob when her every thought seemed to be of him? Everything right down to his toes she absolutely adored and that was hard to just shove aside.
Her cell phone ringing brought Navy out of her thoughts as she looked at the caller ID, flipping it open. "Hey dad." She greeted, walking over to her blue Ford Focus he'd bought for her for her sixteenth birthday.
"Hey angel face." Mark greeted with a smile, sipping some coffee. "How was school?"
"It was fine, I just got out actually. What's up?" She asked, unlocking her car and slipping inside the driver's seat, buckling up.
"I just called to let you know I won't be home tonight. I'm catching a red eye flight to Phoenix, Arizona to close a property deal." Mark informed, knowing this was absolute last minute, but he wasn't about to pass up a one hundred thousand dollar property sale. "I'm sorry angel face, if I would've known sooner…"
"That's fine dad, no worries. I know how it goes." Navy replied with a sad smile, starting up her car, though she refused to drive while on the phone.
Navy's mother, Nadine, had died during child birth so Navy didn't know her mother very well. Her father named her Naveya because that's what her mother wanted, having the same initials as her. Naveya Anne Dawson was born and her mother died a few short hours later due to severe hemorrhaging, basically bleeding to death. Mark opened his real estate business when Navy was just three years old and had devoted his entire life to it and taking care of her.
"Are you going down to the reservation today?" Mark asked, breaking his daughter out of her thoughts.
"No, not today. I'm actually supposed to go to the ice rink with Kendra, but I think I'm just going home."
"Okay well I have to go, but I love you angel face and I'll call you as soon as I get to Phoenix tonight." Mark hung up after his daughter said she loved him too, going back to finalizing plans with this deal.
Navy sighed heavily and set her cell phone in her purse, pulling out of the school parking lot, heading home for the evening.