Hi guys! so this is my first story. This story is really dark because it involves cutting. This story is also going to be in Ally's point of view. So I hope you enjoy. Also
it might be a two shot. Here are the disclaimers I do not own Austin and ally.
"Ally, can you please tell me what's going on?" asked Austin for possibly the hundredth time today. I know that I won't be able to keep this facade much longer, and
it broke my heart knowing that I was lying to my best friend/partner/crush. But if I told him, not only will he think I am a freak, but he will only stay with me because he
feels sorry. Im not letting that happen. And yep. you guessed it, me Ally Dawson cuts. I know its wrong but I just cant stop. ''ALLY!" oops. I spaced out again. "This
is what im talking about. You keep spacing out every time I talk to you, ive walked into you crying three times, and know all the songs you sing are like a drizzle of
darkness"(1). I could tell that he was getting desperate. His voice was now barely audible. ''Ally don't you trust me". ''Of course I do Austin" I replied. Throughout the
years I have gotten better at lying. But Austin saw right through me. He didn't need to say a word to show me that he was upset. He gave me one last hurt look and
walked away. I suddenly felt a wet stain on my cheek which I realized to be tear stains. I just couldn't lose him. Trish and me are close but nothing compares to the
relationship between me and Austin. Austin was right, all of my songs were sad. I was working on one that explained what I was going through. I've showed it to
Austin. He loved it but it Definitely was NOT him. I started playing.
I'm losing myself
Trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak
I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, I just wanna believe in me
La la la la la la la la
The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through
Not gonna be afraid
I'm going to wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, now, now I believe in me
Now I believe in me (2)
I couldn't help myself I started crying. I felt the heat in my body that already told me that I needed to cut. I rushed upstairs to Dad and I's apartment. I searched in the
bathroom until I found what I was looking for. I took the razor and threw it to the ground so I could only have the blade. Picking up the razor I had the mental battle
with myself every time even though I knew what was the answer
cut yourself already.
NO its wrong!
your gonna end up doing it anyway!
But your hurting yourself!
What does it matter!
That was the last straw. I put the razor in my skin, feeling the overwhelming plain and pleasure at the same time. I was on my third cut until I heard someone say my
name. Oh no!. I turned around seeing that it was the person I feared the most to see. Austin. We stayed there staring at each other for what felt like an eternity
when it was probably a few minutes. Austin then decided to say the words that I hoped to never, ever come out of his mouth. " Ally do you cut?".