I could not open my eyes off the screen
i kept staring at your photos
one page after another
you Christopher, that you become perfect
i know that is stupid
my old scared resurfaced
are almost two years that I know you
are almost two years that I'm part of you
and you fill for almost two years my days
we were friends first and now lovers
now also the people know
know you're special
thou away from me
let me
you will be leaving this life without light
my eyes begin to fill
i'm usually a person strong
but when it comes to you Chris, everything changes
become vulnerable
i hear the key turn in the lock
i hear you enter
i see you smile at me
you are beautiful as always
sometimes i cannot believe Chris
you're here with me
that you chose me
you come closer and sit next to me
kiss me gently
you immediately notice something
you are so careful and intelligent
always attentive and affectionate with me
you touches my cheek
you make me feel safe
"Darren, what's up?"
"No Chris, nothing"
i try to reassure
i do not want you to discover my useless fears
"You do not have to hide the things Darren?"
"It's just silly"
"Tell me, the same"
i become pensive
i do not know if you'll understand
these thoughts are just stupid
are thoughts of a fool in love
my useless fears
that occasionally represent
you that know me
you widen your arms
you wrap me tenderly
you kiss my forehead
you give me deviate a few curls with your fingers
"So you tell me Darren?"
i raise my eyes to immediately meet your
"It's stupid"
"No, it's not stupid if it makes you feel bad Darren"
"But ..."
for a moment outcome
"Darren, but no, just tell me"
i breathe deeply
"Isaw the photos of your new service, you came very well, you're beautiful"
"Everything here, Darren?"
"Is not just that, and i'm afraid Chris"
your eyes are worried
are becoming apprehensive
i know Chris
"You scared of what?"
"Now people will see what i've always seen that you are special, perfect and sensual"
you blush immediately
does not happen very often
your cheeks have assumed that pallid pink
"Darren not be stupid"
"Chris, i'm not stupid, people will see it and you'll see that with me you're wasting your time and leave me, and i do not know what to do without you"
my voice cracked
the veil in my eyes
and i also see as your look changes Chris
becomes more gentle and resolute
"Darren, where we are?"
"Chris, what do you mean?"
"Darren, this house"
i look at you and i can not answer
i'm waiting
i know you're going to make me happy
"Darren, our relationship is complicated, we love each other so much but still the world can not know, and i agreed to wait for you, you've asked me and i said yes, because i believe in what's between you and me"
"I did not want to ask you this Chris, i want you to be happy"
you took my hands in your
"But i'm happy Darren, i'm with you in this house, where we can love without any problems, simply by loving"
i approach timidly
i hold you in my arms
i hear
the words that you're whispering to me, Chris
"Please do not say that i could leave, because it will not happen"
then kiss me gently on the my neck
i leave your sign
not to ever make me forget that i'm yours Christopher
i moved away to you
it's easy to do if you're with me
i turn to you
i will whisper in your lips languidly
"Chris you're sexy, very much, and you're all mine"
i catch your face in my hands
i do the only thing possible
i kiss you
because kissing you, it's the only thing that makes me feel good Chris
the only thing that makes me complete
that makes me just a normal person
in love with another person
a love simple and complicated
able to make my days to two years
just wonderful
rich of that affection simple
that only you, know give me Chris
with love and dedication
one day after another
always ready to whisper the only words
that make me really happy
"I love you Darren".