A/N: this is placed after Last Sacrifice but never happened
Disclaimer: I don't own VA
So my life at the moment, not what you call perfect but it's not bad either. I lost the bond with Lissa, Adrian will probably never talk to me again but on the positive I got Dimitri and my wounds from Tasha are finally healed, so I am finally allowed to be one of the guardians of Lissa.
"Roza" The sweet sound of that voice woke me up. "Roza, its Lissa."
I opened my eyes in a flash, "Is she hurt? Oh god I should have been up earlier, what happened?" I asked franticly jumping out of bed.
Dimitri was humored by this "No Rose, she is fine she wanted you to see her in twenty minutes."
"Oh, well I better get changed Th – HEY! If you know that then that means that you left me this morning!" I exclaimed.
Dimitri gave a small laugh, "No I didn't leave you, and she came in but didn't want to be the one to wake you up"
I leaned over and gave him a hug. "I should get ready now" I sighed and walked over to my closet. I dressed into jeans and a nice blue top.
"Beautiful" Dimitri told me as he walked over a gave me a kiss on my forehead " You should get going though, Lissa will be expecting you in five minutes."
I gave him one last hug and went off to go see Lissa.
I reached Lissa, but not of how I thought she would be, she was sitting down crying, when I asked Dimitri of how she was he said she was fine. I ran over and knelt beside her and embraced her. She turned her head and sobbed into my chest wrapping her arms around me. It was good but bad we lost the bond. Good because I don't have to see what she does with Christian but bad because in times like this I would know what would have happened, so know I'm like any other guardian of Lissa, no clue of where she is or why she is upset.
"What's wrong Lissa?" I asked her gently
"I am so, so, so, so sorry rose!" she sobbed
"For what? What is wrong Lissa?" I was starting to get more worried by the second.
"I didn't mean for it to happen, it is a shock to both of us and I'm so sorry" she continued to sob
"Lissa, tell me what is wrong!" I was starting to loose my patience.
"I – I – I'm pregnant" she stuttered and cried harder "Please rose please don't get mad at Christian, be mad at me"
I was shocked. Lissa was always the careful one and I was the reckless one.
"Lissa, I'm not mad at either of you, I'm just shocked." I told her as I patted her back "If anything I'm happy for you guys."
She looked up at me with tears still leaking out of her eyes.
"Really? I was so scared you would be mad at me and Christian or upset or even not talk to me anymore!"
"No, I am not mad or upset and I will most defiantly not stop talking to you. You must know that." I said
"But why aren't any of those? I don't want you to be, but rose I am only 18." She started to sob again
"Because Lissa I am your best friend I would never be mad, upset or any of those, my mum had me when she was around that age. Lissa lots of girls have babies at 18 too." I told her.
"I know but rose, I'm the queen, I can't take breaks from that, I wont have time for a kid." She said with a worried look.
"We will figure that out when the time comes, I am sure it will be fine. Remember Christian will be the dad, he will have time."
"You are right, I have another nine months to wait for, we will figure it out when the time comes." Lissa said as she lifted her head back up.
I wiped the tears from her eyes. A knock at the door, Lissa jumped up and acted like nothing had happened. I moved to one of the walls of the room as Christian walked in, then Dimitri came in after him with a puzzled look on his face. Christian looked over to me with an apologetic look.
"It's ok Christian, I'm not mad at either of you" I said with a smile.
"Is this true Lissa?" asked Christian "Rose isn't mad at us?"
"As true as it can get" She replied.
"Ok, am I going to find out what has happened or am I going to have to force it out of rose?" Dimitri suddenly said to all of us.
"Rose can tell you while Christian and I are talking about it" Lissa told him
Lissa and Christian sat down on chairs across from each other but Dimitri and I stayed standing.
"What's the big fuss about?" Dimitri asked me
"Well, you might not take this as calmly as I have but well how do I put this, Lissa, well yeah she is pregnant."
There was a few seconds paused. He finally spoke
"I am happy for them" he said stiffly.
"What's wrong? You don't sound too happy about this, not mad but not happy either." I asked
"Well see, I kind of wish that, you know, we could have a child, but that is impossible." He said looking down at me, his brown eyes showing sadness and I even think a little bit of jealousy.
"I'm sorry Dimitri," I said looking down at my feet.
"For what?" he asked shocked at this.
"For not being able to give you what you want, I know you want kids of your own to run up to you and call you dad. Sometimes I think you wish you should have taken the offer with Tasha." I said still looking at my feet wishing I could give Dimitri what he wanted.
With one finger he lifted my chin up to meet his gaze
"Roza, I never regret declining Tasha's offer. I didn't want her then and I most defiantly do not want her now, not when my heart belongs to someone else." He had told me that a year ago 'when my heart belongs to someone else'
"I just wish there was a way I could give you what you wanted."
"Rose, as long as I have you I will take whatever comes with it." He told me reassuringly.
One hour later after discussing things over, Christian had to go, so that meant Dimitri too. When they left another guardian walked in and told me I had finished my shift for the day. I gave Lissa a hug and told her again 'everything will be ok," then left.
As I was walking down the hallway I saw Jesse and gave him a stare that made him run in fear. I finally saw my door, when I got to it the room was locked. 'Dammit' I thought 'Dimitri must have locked it after he left.' I headed to the front desk to get my keys when something as fast as lighting grabbed me from behind the curtains. They put their arm around my neck and the other over my mouth so my scream wouldn't get out.
"Not a great move Roza, if I was a strigoi I could have killed you there and then." Dimitri let his hand drop from my mouth and neck. My heart still thumping in my chest, I turned around.
"Why hello to you to." I said laughing now but still shaky.
"You looking for these?" He said tossing my keys in the air.
"Yes, I am, but question what were you doing?" I asked grabbing the keys.
"Just thought I would see if you were on guard, obviously not," he told me quite amused.
We both laughed as I opened my door. "I thought you were still guarding Christian?" I asked him
"Nope, I now have half the day guarding seeing as there are only two guardians for him and a lot for Lissa." He told me
"Well that's good, we get to spend more time together then." I said happy of the thought we could see each other more. "Oh, I forgot my purse, I left it with Lissa" I said to Dimitri "I will be back."
"As I said I'm not guarding for another three hours so I will come with you." He looked at me with those brown eyes.
We walked together hand-in-hand down the hallway down to Lissas' room. Just before we reached the room we heard shrieking screams. Lissas' screams. I tried the door but it was locked. Dimitri in a split second kicked down the door.