hi there guys, this is my actual first story so practically ,and i must say sadly, im an amateur jeje. i said i never would dare publish a story but i had to give it a try.

so this is basically an alxwin story. i must confess im a edxwin fan till death but poor al, no one gave him any credit at all so i just had to do this, to show the big guy some love.

so enjoy yourselves

warning: this piece of story may burn your eyes but hey that was my goal. WHAT THE HECK just read and write what you think about it. see ya little kids. oh and unfortunately i dont own anything from fma, i pray God to have ED in my possession but he already belongs to winry, damnit i was late.

AGONIZING LOVE

People say we all can find love at any point of our lives. That there is a person destined for us, to be with us and to complete us. Sheakspeare once said that the heart recognizes its other half just with the mere gaze. We only have to find the right person with the right heart. But what happens when you already found that person you want to be with the rest of your life and it happens that this person was not destined to be with you. This kind of love is the exception of the rule. Is the most painful, contradictory feeling one can have. This is called unrequited love aka killer love and Alphonse Elric was an expert in this.

He has been in love with the same person for the past 16 years. And it was not just a matter of a simple crush; it was pure-deep love. He came to realize that loving your best friend was not an easy task and he had all the right to say this because he, the most famous amestrian doctor at the time was ridiculously deeply in love with Winry Rockbell. It was not that he lacked of experience because anyone knew that Dr. Alphonse was very well known for his amazing medical skills at just the young age of 24, but he was also know for his incredible abilities to catch any women attention, not that he wanted it that way, but he was a very handsome, gentle, rich young man with an amazing career and a popular life. He had everything a man at his age could have dreamed of, except for one thing. The love of his life, the only girl he wanted to be with and he knew very well he could never had because she was already married to an amazing man. That man was his older brother Edward Elric whom Alphonse loved with all his heart. This love, his love was forbidden.

He still remembered it all. They had married two years ago. He had proposed to her and she had immediately said yes. He knew that his brother was also in love with Winry ever since they were children fighting for the one who would marry her. Now he knew that even though he had won at that time he had lost the real thing. So when his brother asked him to be his best man he couldn't refuse. Of course he was happy for his brother, Alphonse Elric was a humble soul, but he couldn't resist the jealousy he had making him feel somehow guilty. It was a wonderful wedding with very few friends, all of them happy for the couple telling them that it was about time. He remembered that all what he did during the whole ceremony was imagining himself as his brother, saying the vows that he had prepared, putting the shiny ring in her slender index finger, promising her he will always protect her and love her and finally kissing the beautiful bride as the present public applauded and cheer them. He remembered how his brother constantly asked him why was he so lost in space and how he just responded that it was just because he was so happy for them.

The honey moon was worst. When the newlyweeds went to say good-bye to him at his consulting room he had to lied and say to them:"have fun". He hugged his brother and winry had to hug him. And when they left he could only stand like a dork waving back wishing he was the one she loved.

He had tried desperately to forget her but after dating several beautiful intelligent women he got to the conclusion he would never escape from his destiny. No one was that perfect like Winry; stubborn, kind, beautiful, smart, strong, friendly, amazing, unique, and ambitious as she was. No one had supported him the way she had done. So he decided to love her despite it all. Period.

He woke that morning sweating after having another one of his not so clean dreams about her. He scolded himself for thinking those things about her with him but then again dreaming was the only thing he could do. He reached for his clock. 4:00 am. Only 2 more hours left before leaving to the hospital. He had got used to to waking this early, work more than 10 hours and sleep only 4 . He couldn't complain for his work. He loved his job, being a doctor was what he had always wanted to be. He only regretted that his job took almost all his little free time left but saving lives was worth it.

He couldn't sleep anymore so he went to take a cold shower. It only took five steps to reach the bathroom which consisted of a small white tub, a rustic washbasin and an old-fashioned toilet. His house was actually small nothing special but he had fallen in love with it the first time he saw it. It reminded him of his natal home. He had a fortune enough to buy two mansions with everything included but he like to keep it simple, besides it brought peace to him he had said once.

After the shower he changed to his normal working suit. He still had some more time left so he took out his sketch book. Drawing was also one of his secret passions and he would make sure to keep it top secret especially since all his drawings resumed to one specific person. 50 pages filled with every winrys expressions not even Ed had realized yet and this was the third sketch book he had filled. Obsession, some might say, but he preferred to call it admiration. He always started his drawing with the eyes, it was the part he loved the most about her body. Her blue eyes were simply captivating, anyone could get lost in them. Since they were little kids he remembered to look at her directly in the eyes something really hard to do considering his position. He proceeded with her nose, her mouth, her ears, and finally her hair. He didn't realize how much time had passed since then. Satisfied with his work he watched his clock. It was 6:30.

-"dammit. is so late".He cursed. It was not something he did regularly but he had learned to curse some time ago.

He ran to the kitchen, opened the fridge and grabbed the first thing he saw without even noticing. He proceeded to the living room which was centimeters away (thank God for his small house) he grabbed his medical satchel and headed to his car. He switched on his car but it didn't work. "Just great" he said really starting to piss. After several tries the motor started to run and he sped promised to remind himself buy a new car later. When reaching the main street he couldn't believe his bad luck .The most amazing traffic jam he had ever seen was taking place. "What the hell, it's so early for a traffic jam" he said, this time really pissed. It was almost 7 when he managed to leave the car in the sidewalk, and walk to the hospital instead. For sure a fine would wait for his return but he didn't want to ruin his reputation as a responsible doctor.

He literally ran the marathon of his life but finally reached his destination. Sweating like a pig he saw his watch. It was 7:05. He congratulated himself for setting a new record. When he entered the hospital he saw that there were not so many people as he thought there would be.

-"doctor Elric?". One of the nurses said.

-"Sir are you alright?" she had to ask looking at a sweated young man "you seem a little uneasy".

-"uh, what?" he said a bit confused.

-"you're sweating everywhere doctor, do you need some water?" she asked really concerned.

-"ah no it's fine, but why the hospital seems so empty today?

-oh that, don't you remember doctor, today is the new presidents promotion. Many of the nurses and doctors were required for any unexpected event" she explained. "umm you should be there as well sir"

-"oh yeah?" he said is still trying to remember. "Damn, you're right thanks a lot, bye" he said not even waiting for the nurs' respond. How could he have forgotten that today was Roy's Mustang promotion to president. Roy had personally invited him since they had been friends for a long time. Ed and Winry would be there as honor guests as well.

The event would take place in the Grand Convention Center like four streets away from the hospital. He was really late so he ran the second largest marathon of his life. Before he noticed he was already there. Hundreds of people were gathering in the center. Thery were all nicely dressed and that's when he discovered he still had his working suit on and his medical trunk as well. He had no time to go to his house and change to a proper outfit. He made a way through the crowd and managed to enter the honor guest's room.

"Sir I need to see your invitation"the guard said kindly. It seemed that he didn't recognized Alphonse at all.

-"oh yes, sorry one second please."Checking all his clothes he couldn't find the damn invitation. Of course he had forgotten it, he didn't even remember todays schedule. It seemed that Winry was affecting other parts of him too. Really embarrassed he said to the guard:

-"jeje" he chuckled nervously. "It seems I forgot it"

-"Sorry sir without an invitation there is no way I can let you pass." This time the guard lost his kindly voice.

-"B b but I'm Alphonse Elric , the doctor, don't you see, I was invited personally by the president"he said desperately. He didn't like to make use of his popularity but this was extremely necessary.

-"Listen sir I don't care who you are, if you don't have the invitation im afraid I can let you pass."the guard said loosing his patience.

-"okay I understand but you don't seem to understand me. I was required as a doctor and as an honor guest"he said amazed at the tone he used. "If I don't get inside the president might get really mad and….." he was lost at words.

-"I had enough of you sir" with that the guard grabbed is arm forcefully,ready to take the intruder out.

-"Alphonse, hey let go of that man" a very familiar voice said from behind. When Al turned to see who it was, the guard had already released his arm. It was no other than Roy Mustang. Al sighed relieved seeing his friend.

-"thanks a lot Roy, I was about to be taken to jail."He laughed

-"next times make sure to memorize my friends' faces"Roy said to the guard really mad at how he had treated Alphonse.

-"yes sir!"The guard said shamely.

-"No roy, its okay, the man was only doing his job. Its not his fault"he said rubbing the back of his head. "you see I forgot the invitation, so naturally this had to happen"

-"jeez Alphonse, you forgot? i must say this is new in you alright? I mean we all know your job ir really tiring but is not normal in you to forget things. Youre the good brother, remember that Ed I the vulgar and clumsy one. Jajajaja"Roy laughed hard.

-"jeje, yes you're right"he chuckled again. "speaking of him has he already arrived?"Al asked

-"the pisqueak nerd came 30 minutes earlier"roy said. He really enjoyed putting names to the older brother.

-"wow that is weird in my brother, he would rather preferred stay in bed all day"

-"well the thing is that I forced him to do so. I told him that if he didn't appear I would make fun of him during my speech, you know worldwide television, so he accepted gladly to come. Jejeje the guy is so foolish sometimes"Roy said raising his arm to see his watch and constantly gazing through the bunch of people as if trying to see someone or escape from somebody.

-"yeah"Al said. "Umm and is Winry with him?" he couldn't resist to ask even though the answer was blatantly obvious to him.

-"yes they're both up there. Ill see you later, my bodyguards are so annoying. They're like mosquitoes; they don't leave me alone even when I need to go to the bathroom. I need to get ready for the speech" Roy said a bit annoyed by the fact of having a dozen bulls following him everywhere and really excited of finally becoming the president of Amestris.

-"well you knew this would happen eventually right" al said smiling to his friend.

-"yeah you're right."Roy sighed "see you then doctor, oh and don't forget tonight's dinner in honor of the best president ever, me. And try not to come all sweaty okay?"He said after leaving almost running from his big bodyguards.

-"ah sure"Al said embarrassed. He then remembered it. So Winry is there. He sighed. "I should better pray for my own sake" with that he proceeded to the honor guests' room.

great ill publish next chapter if i have enough reviews. really people, did you know that reviews encourage writers and potential writers to write?, theyre powerful. so review constructive things please and tell me what you think. the story has a really amazing turn. you are the ones that decide after all.

i hope you guys like it cause i wasnt sure to publish this now.