A/N: Been feeling a bit ticked off lately, my family to blame, -when its not then thats shocking. Then I started to think, Greg would be at least just a little bit pissed off, if he ever found out, not that he would come right out and say it, but he would furious, I know I would be. Thoughts Greg are thinking are in italics and everything else is normal. And I just hate when people ask me if I'm mad more than once, that and asking if I'm okay, I would tell you if I wasnt okay! Going to be some chapters long, not too sure on how long. But this is just the chapter to ease into things. Things are going to get just a bit darker.

"You're not mad?" Sara asked casually reaching for her coffee, she'd ordered the coffee out of habit, not used to eating such late in the day or early depending on how she looked at it.

At you no, never, me yes, furious, mad enough to spit fire

"Why would I be mad? All I ever wanted was for you to be happy" the words sounded fake even to him

With Me not Him

"I just thought... never mind it's silly" Sara glanced down at her salad, which she poked a tomato, sending the juice squirting onto the rest of her lettuce.

"Tell me" he spoke calmly, on the inside the fire was growing slowly consuming him, he was sick of himself, for not acting sooner, before, well before you know….

Before she slept with the boss?

Good Boy Greg

"It's silly really, I just thought you had some crush on me all these years" Sara confessed, glancing down once again to hide the pink tinge appearing on the apples of her cheeks.

I did, and still do, but it's not a crush anymore it's something more

"A little infatuation at the beginning but I knew nothing would ever come from it, so I gave up" if at all possible her face features fell, it almost looked like she was disappointed. If she could rip out his heart, hold it in her hand while it's still beating, she didn't deserve to know that he yearned for her.

Isn't that how you ended up in the first place? By not telling her.

"I'm so glad that you're not mad, I feel I'm getting stares from everyone at work, not the greatest feeling" she confided, he was the reason behind it, he let it slip when he was frustrated with the results he was just given and Nick had come strolling in looking for Sara, he had quickly said, Prolly fucking Grissom it was only until he looked up and seen the look Hodges had given him to know he let that little information slip.

I wonder why, you're fucking the boss, you can't be trusted.

"Really I hadn't noticed" he made a show of taking a bit of his sandwich, something he no longer had the appetite for, andhe had trouble swallowing it, from the news he just found out, or because it was dry was undecided. But if he had to guess, option 1 was the winner.

"How can you not? I'm getting evil glares from the techies, and the tension is another thing"

Then maybe you shouldn't be screwing the fucking boss!hetook a long swallow of his iced tea, so he wouldn't say anything he'd surely regret later.

"Wasn't really looking for it sorry" he couldn't meet her eyes, something that had been going on for the past week, it didn't feel right to look into her eyes - the same eyes that he could lost in, and had from afar.

"It's not like we're all over each other when we're at work"

"I don't need to know details" he replied coldly. But attempted to warm his words with a kind smile, something that felt strange to him

You're supposed to be her friend

Not when she's going to give details about his body, techniques and other stuff I don't want to know about.

Are you scared to know?

No! Leave me alone and shut up!

What's the real reason you don't want to know?

It hurts okay? To know that we should be together it hurts, it kills to think of her with another name calling out Grissom's name instead of mine. Are you fucking happy now?

No because you're not

"Are you sure you're not mad? I would understand if you were" she said in between bites

"Sara I'm not mad, at you or anyone, could we please finish our lunch, without you questioning me if I'm fine with you screwing our boss" he lashed out louder than usual causing the waitress to give him a look when she walked by with a coffe pot.

Way to go Jackass! You should have put the straw in your mouth and swallowed

Where were you before when I was saying it? Huh? That's what I thought.

"Okay" her voice quiet as she continued to eat in silence, which would have normally bothered him, but today he just didn't feel like talking.

Especially to her.