AN: This is my story of what Edward did in New Moon after he broke up with Bella.
Disclaimer- I do NOT own Twilight!!!
Chapter 1"Take care of yourself." I breathed against her forehead. Then I began to run. I left her where I knew she could find a way out of the woods. I ran as fast as I could, I had to put as much distance between us as possible, other wise I could never do it. I had to leave, she deserves so much more. She deserves to live in a world where she isn't constantly in danger, fearing for her life, or wishing for damnation. I wouldn't do that to her, I loved her too much to ruin her life. That's why I was leaving, that's why I had to break up with her this way. I burst through the door to her house, ran up the stairs and into her room. I searched quickly for the CD, pictures and tickets. I had to erase everything that would remind her of my family or me. If I didn't, it would only make this harder for her. I didn't want her to hurt any more than was normal. I hastily threw them under her floorboards before running back down the stairs and out of her house. Already the pain was starting to affect me, a feeling so strong it made me stop. I looked at her truck; the radio was still there. For a reason I didn't quite understand yet, I left it in there and ran again as fast as I could back to my house. I jumped into my car and sped off, driving as fast as the car could go. Every time the pain hit me, I would press harder on the gas pedal. I felt like the world was crashing down all around me. I was positive that if it could, the pain would have killed me. My heart, even though it wasn't beating, was splitting into an agonizing two-pieces, maybe more. I wasn't sure of where I was going yet, all I knew was that I had just left my life, my love, my happiness, my everything behind. When the pain from that thought hit me like a baseball bat I had to pull over. I turned off the engine and just sat there. I knew if there was any hope of me getting out of Washington I'd have to face most of the pain. I let myself think of her face, her beautiful face. Her warmth, her eyes that told me everything, her hands that used to touch me with such care and ease. Her ability to love me for what I am, a monster. Her cheeks, the way they would turn red, by almost anything. Her smile, the thing that could send a warming sensation through my body. Her body and the way it would form to me when we hugged or lay together. Last but not least, her smell. Her smell was maddening. I closed my eyes and saw her face, smiling at me. I took a deep breath, I could almost smell her. The scent that would haunt me forever. A wave of pain ran through my body, starting at my head and ending at my toes. I was positive that if I could cry, I would have. I had never known anything this strong in my life. My family didn't quite grasp how hard this was for me. They knew I loved her very much, and though they knew the reason why I was doing this, they thought I was crazy. Jasper felt guilty, he felt as though this was his fault. I tried to tell him over and over that it wasn't entirely his fault. It was just the straw that broke the camels back. Ever since I met her I had put her in danger. First me, the smell of her blood on the first day of school. Then James and Victoria, Jasper. All these vampires would never crossed her path if not for me. She should have a normal life, one that didn't evolve around a vampire. One where she would graduate, go to college, marry, have children and grow older. I couldn't give her that, though I wished I could. I longed to be the one who she would spend the rest of her life with, the one she would marry and love indefinitely. It could never happen, she was an angel and I was a demon, a nightmare. I let out a growl; this had to be what Romeo felt when he thought Juliet was dead. Then I remembered sitting with Bella on her couch, watching that movie. I ran my hand through my hair, was there anyway to escape this? I started the engine and took off. Not stopping until I was at the boarder between Washington and Oregon.