Dear Viktor,

Maybe Ron is right. Maybe we shouldn't be together.

I don't know, we are from different schools, maybe it's just not meant to be?

My best mate is fighting against you in the Triwizard Tournament. Who should I root for? I know you would say Harry and Cedric because they belong to my school and I should be loyal to it, but that's the problem with us being from different schools. If we are going to be a serious couple, I should support you, even if you don't go to my school or vice versa.

And there's another thing. If we do become a serious couple, how will people treat us? Will your parents accept us? Will the rest of the world accept that you picked someone from a different school; not even in the same country as you! It's one thing that I just met you recently, because we don't go to the same school, but for all I know, we might never have a chane like this again; to see each other. As long as we're both in school, we can hardly see each other, and I'm not sure if I want that. Not yet.

Viktor, I worry about this, I really do. I know I shouldn't worry about what people say, but I'm a human and just can't help it.

Plus, you're a famous Quidditch player, I'm just a little, British, Muggleborn girl. What will everyone think of me.

And I know what you're thinking. 'But Hermione, you are ze smartest witch of your age! Everyone vill love you.' And you're sweet for saying that but will they?

How many couples that lasted are like us? From different schools, different blood statuses, different places.

It won't work Viktor. I don't know if I can visit you during the summer holidays. What if people really don't like me? What if your parents don't? Where will I stay when I'm looking for a different flight home?

I really like you, Viktor, but I just don't know.

I feel like scream right not, this is so frustrating!

Okay, I'll make a list here. When I need to decide something, my mum always says to make a pros and cons list.

Pros: I really like you, and if we can work I'll be with you. I need to be careless sometimes, have a relationship that might not be accepted is a way of doing that.

Cons: People may not accept us. Your parents might not like us. My parents might not want me to marry a wizard.

So see now, Viktor? The cons outweigh the pros. Maybe not by a lot, but they still do.

I know, all the cons are ifs, but they could happen. And I'm not sure if I want to take that chance. If I'm ready to.

I don't even know if I'm brave enough to send this letter.

And-this might be strange- but I think I fancy Ron as well.

I know, I'm supposed to only fancy my lover, but I really think I fancy both of you. At the Yule Ball, near the end, Ron said to me that you were using me. And then I started to feel really upset, more than I should've been, that he only asked me as a last resort and not first. I don't know why I did.

What if we are accepted by everyone and we get married and I see Ron happily married to someone else, Lavender Brown, let's say? What if I see him like that and start to fancy him again?

What if he fancies me? Will I want him more?

See Viktor? See why we can't, we just can't do this.

But still, at the same time I want to. Something's just pulling towards you. I don't know what and I sure don't know how to fight it.

Everyone thinks I know so much. All I know is what I read from books. That's not very much. I don't know friendship well, I don't know how to act with new people and I really don't know how to deal with life.

You're my first romantic relationship. I don't have experience with this. I don't know what to do, it's all so crazy and new and I can't read this from a book.

Sorry that I'm crying onto the parchment now, but I can't help it.

Viktor, I love you. I actually, truly do. Because it feels like love. It feels like it's meant to be. But sometimes I wonder if this isn't real love. If this is a fling and I should be with someone else. Harry, for instance, or maybe even Ron.

I don't want to love him. That I can promise to you.

I don't want to love someone who's been one of my best mates for a while now. Someone who I always argue with.

I just can't see Ron and I working, and I want us to be together forever. But I still might love him. Somehow.

I'm not going to send this letter. But I mean everything on here. I just wish you somehow knew.

Love,

Hermione

A/N- for the Quidditch League. Prompts: Write a pairing with people from different schools, careless, no using the word 'forbidden', letter-fic

for the Quidditch Pitch. Prompt: forever